I'm a horrible person.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGv4I1NZGoK
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhVyHRsOvR
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OKu9NcGP5
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmn8jmeDdU
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUSCd4NW7n
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2RhH2ztTb
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn0cMw41dk
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlTmRXDSj6
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhAegEafvb
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtRenYwSq2
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXkRIQUqzf
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS6jvd4INW
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSwOOHOaD9
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kLwSOVs0O
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vOujkUJTl
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEfDmO8O4b
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUp9UWwG9n7
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QgB3a4fzX
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgCpZwCyhD
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlLklPLuvR
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tGpE8JCne
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodiScSVN75
Of being lonely.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClarW1kfTP
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMmSVkP41Q
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So I take comfort in my own world.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBGZRk9hyx
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8svg4A4YAa
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLnqLYRPeM
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvY4J2EcpK
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Jpmil3MyY
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HQkBN4k14
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0u6gJeUcf
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFymGLjVf2Y
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKP6SPQGCIn
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyigO8Wu2b
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3KXxkdkK5
I shouldn't even have been born.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50PHtfFBZ1
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.482Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2cU1oSULh
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