I'm a horrible person.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfTa5FAxhn
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXXIHq7SsH
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nj6b1mUKE
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JCaBvcuB0
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyftIuIz5e
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwCOWIJLse
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPG7VTjqdm8
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyisMBLyeK
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmb1XWKe9B
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YhXVFk6mU
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKYDbH7kch
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwr3eTDXnR
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlP5K0gMbbQ
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8mHTMnYLE
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaUOQgmItP
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ523utbsQ4a
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccjhu4jNGZ
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkKyuuFK9l
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPToeWH0znt
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYgO9KJ4YT
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0i4rTGbj1
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjRAJ3mePX
Of being lonely.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFTH5j4DgG
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0N6QqLOo5
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So I take comfort in my own world.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0HMeK35gI
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0tqOg1z8e
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxka6iqbLaT
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0uQg3fGTr
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarZp5EahPT
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwe9R06TcmA
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpTVU5ljjc
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqo5Chmgb0
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkfqhEInqk
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNclgopgxJO
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnClu7YPkXR
I shouldn't even have been born.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eJyFxDiDS
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.466Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SQyOZIHcL
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