好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJL0mLz5cTn
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDd51i1PtF
係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsWNPknlK9
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKyH2QdFAD
分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mWv3jhwvH
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗？969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHjIgLr3e9
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTqf3RSK0V
可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxVHnvFBke
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFC71iF835
點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29VOe2mbEV
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iDZmRZXd3
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1jQeuBh6n
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTXjMJXVU7
好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwFhmlkBzY
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1sfATmfwt
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiei5jIODG
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6lu0rFMRz
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytaCnPhSpu
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfspwXG02H
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsj1A7cmibg
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivVVPnqG9o
喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUeAMA312a
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4jP1KWRbU
嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3Xeyb3mAN
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMPukn4Tp2
我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tWCCM3E0V
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdYwbJSG2h
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaCtNKcHn3
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZEtnegUY7
我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9kyiotlLo
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sxxmrqRke
後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lNIpJgoWk
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA2NlQSTqu
但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pwmwq7bLy
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIt8NECSu9
雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5YbXQD84N
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ05b9L3gO
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdBBLgMUQa
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IEEECanOn
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或者係逃避痛苦。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNqgFncI5j
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEQusgZDuv
雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhee0a6WJ5g
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蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyymGfwazX
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uYHofLXkH
結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn44xhBOuP7
969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5FRwoDCFj
所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHByRvEKJ5
