好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwcgDfJZGf
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0dNGqA0ho
係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWDvPG1hST
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分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdeFzv2JmI
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗？970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOqNzDkoDW
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可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqOPpMiLDb
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點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUuLD9IyJk
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtJ9jg8umr
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxbdvpgoNR
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好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBKd4U6dK8
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfaE4lquHC
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkhbRvzJeH
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqUA1g1WLt
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65QDLh39ud
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當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3nDRNP3gD
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7LOexUINd
喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEk1zndsAY
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbSc5VCqGh
嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRWRRXkvKR
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FJFUC4VRY
我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a86k78BVx
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wMyBoY3lN
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuukqp6kEn
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhQXIcDnNe
我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ulrrl8ULu
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後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPagVEeq8gY
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNOfGLqsnk
但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME4kOdu3N0
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雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vVQTEEQ0A
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0J171mSC3
970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8V5KI2eYR
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0yGhJ9hCF
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或者係逃避痛苦。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNP8FIIzk2
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雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57qP7DX3IX
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蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcXDVN4nRY
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結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovVRsrWyMY
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所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。970Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFIypAPbHT
