I'm a horrible person.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZtdsK6651
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNyxDZg8Rl
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrCPStuqEH
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hdglGx7tZ
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyhJyrVJCG
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs9kxOAwRQ
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqcQtAc1mh
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqyO0eVLCk
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7VL58yDx1
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvTlr84NmR
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UVmn7yleQ
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMbU6uCuVM
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJZVoOsHbI
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO37wAD5nTW
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmnFtV2W1l
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OBwMuCQ8i
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTKQhj7YD4
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3X4oRREZ5
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5PYpIGgyR
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENIswBlH9K
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxcHilHrZh
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8mIu1YQhn
Of being lonely.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CHkyk5NGr
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcZNOGmwuO
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So I take comfort in my own world.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyuNUm5EKf
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOODMP2TTe
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcoy8agqFp
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcsJnGyBXo
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ekNxcBASS
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1srOxrq3aW
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDbdmHCz2n
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfZMDSW6N5
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoGVWNYQt0
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6ALaOKaub
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69qJA6NQv4
I shouldn't even have been born.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP19BZlLXXj
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.481Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJjfX9QCj6
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