I woke up one day, felt the day hitting me before I left for work...thinking about the eyes and ears over me as customers rattled on and on, and no matter what I did they complained. Someone I didn't know chopping up my day's work into ridiculous spreadsheets, some customer service formula. More texts back from friends who "couldn't make it."8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj9Rq2l9fI 維尼
The thought made me cold.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9As0alm9Q3 維尼
Lifting the spoon to my mouth to choke down breakfast, I dropped it back into the bowl. My eyes looked, but did not see. My mind comprehended, but did not engage. Something was not right. I simply stared, unblinking at my kitchen light.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj9ClArtrs 維尼
I began to cry, and didn't know why, and found answers that satiated me. Divorced...30 years old ....entry level work...the same damn thing every day. Trying to understand my reluctance to go out the door only made it worse and found reasons more...8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡW19oQ3OpAA 維尼
So I froze.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡWadgLJ3urG 維尼
Nothing good that lasted came for the past three years. And so came this daunting, crippling fear.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAcY8fAMYd 維尼
What would change now? What reason for it to change? None.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡle88PNsUxn 維尼
If I stayed home, the only place I felt safe, would anyone care? I'm just another number that sits in their chair.And I knew I had to go there, but couldn't. Breathing deep, I stepped towards the door. It all came back in such awful dischord. Nothing I did mattered..8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTF3Y9XoRF 維尼
Again, I froze.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡvN2OIVfitI 維尼
Nothing felt better than something. There was no disappointment. Restless that day, I stayed home and rested but still felt so vexed and perplexed and the more I invested the more I cried and didn't look forward to days next.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHZ83oGTUQ 維尼
Depression? Anxiety? Nothing concrete to show, so what would doctors know ? All I knew...I was afraid to do anything.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡal0d9ZFX9Q 維尼
So I tried.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp6EClUYeJ 維尼
And soon wish I hadn't. Now I was the one prattling on and on, feeling like words were only stepped on. Met with cryptic replies, more questions. The worst were the "answers" to my precarious predicament.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCgXMyeIv4 維尼
"Just don't think about it, just do it."8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NBH5wpVVM 維尼
"Think positive."8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJ0ri2BMwn 維尼
This told me how much they didn't know what I was going through. So I stopped talking...it only made me tired. Exhausted from emotions tying me down, I flipped my "OFF" switch to cure my frown. Perhaps this was better...it wasn't.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSWIUnoAIz 維尼
Life was a routine, and I was a robot doing programmed tasks. My senses sensed things, but still was nonsense. There was no sadness, but also no joy. I am human and I must feel.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBMISWbcIm 維尼
The fear remained, and so I froze.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCvMFqEb0S 維尼
And so...around and around the carousel I rode, where I stopped nobody knows.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡWX1pss4JxV 維尼
I sat in this sub-zero condition of life, hoping to be thawed out. Even after all of this night was turned into day, the frostbite reminds me, still remains.8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPBR6bhmV1 維尼
I'll never forget the time, that time that I froze...8964 copyright protection470ＰＥＮＡＮＡriK0i5XRiy 維尼
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