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【凌家動物園 III 小強星人也求愛】爆炸頭不要來
By 喵芭渴死姬
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『對你而言,艾登只是盧西恩的替代品罷了。』454Please respect copyright.PENANAYH8exsA1v8
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席倫靠在天台的圍欄旁,遙望棲息在夜幕下的紐約港灣,心裡卻未能因眼前的靜謐而沈澱。454Please respect copyright.PENANAQFTeIxONvs
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昨晚的餐會結束後,醉得不省人事的艾登直接被留在蒙達菲家,心神不寧的他沒注意大家問了什麼,就茫然地被貝兒拉上車,直到現在,都還未能擺脫不住在腦海迴響的那句話。454Please respect copyright.PENANA7eWzTRp529
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「倫哥要不要疵?」454Please respect copyright.PENANA98zerjKf9F
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一股香甜味自嘴邊傳來,席倫回神望去,正是貝兒舉著一片西瓜笑得可愛,實在像極了一隻貼心小貓。他接過西瓜,見貝兒手中空空如也,便問:「你不吃?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAFMZzZoGfB1
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「我的早就疵完惹,那個給你。」貝兒舔了舔沾了汁液的手指,就趴在圍欄上支著臉頰,「豬豬登剛打電話來問你在哪,怎麼不接他電話。他真是笨死惹,居然醉到現在才醒來。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAicKQalPVMs
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席倫頓住咬西瓜的動作,隨即垂眸細嚼嘴裡的甜美果肉,卻仍覺滿腔苦澀,「他還好嗎?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAz69SxDlYBC
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「嘿嘿,宿醉敲嚴重的,他說頭痛得要命,又吐了滿地都是,還說幸好你沒留下,否則要幫忙照顧他肯定累死。」貝兒有些幸災樂禍地笑了幾聲,才看向席倫落寞的側臉,「今天大家叫你好幾聲,你都像沒聽到一樣,小琥姊還說倫哥明天再這樣,就要丟妮妮嚇你。」454Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ml9HxD21U
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席倫忍不住失笑:「有她這樣當媽的?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAGXT2UabALD
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「倫哥怎麼了?」貝兒頓了頓,又問:「是肯德雞爺爺說了什麼嗎?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAyqTGSdrczs
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「你怎麼知道?」席倫一愣。454Please respect copyright.PENANAI41QgbHHZg
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貝兒鼓了下兩頰,說:「昨天阿姨想留你陪艾登的,肯德雞爺爺卻叫我們帶你回來。」454Please respect copyright.PENANARQDLFmrdmO
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「他……他只是為艾登著想。」席倫遲疑地將「們」字省去,不願貝兒為泰特斯的事感到為難。454Please respect copyright.PENANAZC7EJMkHho
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「嗄?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAfzYzIqrv6b
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「你會覺得……」席倫盯著手中的西瓜,終於說出哽了一天的糾結,「我在利用艾登嗎?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAPYIPKqpZO7
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「嗄?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAtHissgjVoC
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見他更加不解,席倫無奈地勾起一抹苦笑,「明明已經跟艾登交往,卻還總被盧西恩影響,無法忘懷跟他的一切。」454Please respect copyright.PENANA5A8D9VMzji
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貝兒抓了抓頭,揚起漂亮的眉毛問:「他對你的影響本來就很大啊,忘不掉不是很正常嗎?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAitNCwZgfq2
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「但我無法選擇。」想起在遊戲裡的事,席倫頓時紅了眼眶。454Please respect copyright.PENANAfliM7CMZco
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「什麼意思?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAYe7bfHYvyZ
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「我和艾登去作真愛考驗的情侶任務,他過了,我卻沒過。」席倫握緊欄杆上的手,指尖被粗糙的金屬刮得生疼,「我看見盧西恩,胸口刻著我名字的刺青還流著血,那一刻,我什麼都忘了,忘了我們在遊戲裡,忘了那只是幻影,也忘了艾登,只能不斷哭喊他的名字……」454Please respect copyright.PENANADnckeTlFMS
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望見席倫落下的淚珠,貝兒怔然沈默半晌,才趴回欄杆上,不知是何情緒,「你只是還需要時間而已,因為是曾經深愛的人。愛過多久,就要花更久的時間去釋懷,只不過你還不到那時間結束,就剛好遇上了艾登。那不是利用,是努力想往前進。」454Please respect copyright.PENANA6gizD6vAj5
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席倫愣了愣,見平日充滿稚氣的大男孩竟一臉過來人的表情,忍不住失笑說:「你這麼肯定,是有過經驗嗎?學校同學?」454Please respect copyright.PENANARS7JAhKY7v
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「當然有啊!是我……呃……」差點脫口說出真相,貝兒一驚之下,不小心咬到舌尖,痛得他直飆淚,口齒不清地解釋:「蔥、蔥汁(總之),窩也古念闊(苦戀過)好久啦!」454Please respect copyright.PENANAoBS3KjbPhf
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「不能說的秘密暗戀嗎?」看他摀著嘴點頭,席倫哭笑不得地將手中還未退冰的西瓜遞去,「敷一敷吧,幹嘛這麼緊張?我又不認識對方,就是知道了也沒差。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAAfGLa8oJsJ
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咪嗚,就是你認識的人但還不能說啊!貝兒真是有苦說不出,只好怒吃西瓜冰敷傷口。454Please respect copyright.PENANARE87iTHHXI
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見他吃得兩頰鼓起的稚氣模樣,像個毛茸茸的小動物,席倫忽然覺得,若自己也有這樣的弟弟,即使經歷再多的傷痛,也能感到治癒吧,難怪泰特斯會如此疼愛貝兒。想起那完美得孤冷的男人,他便不自覺說出縈繞心頭的烏雲,「他說我不愛艾登,只是需要。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAcd4kn5UsRz
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「那倫哥真一點都不愛嗎?」貝兒偏頭反問。454Please respect copyright.PENANAMRazpdyvDC
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席倫回答不出來。每一次面對艾登的直率告白,他的反應總是任由對方親吻索愛,或是面紅耳赤地抱怨場合不對,就是無法用同樣的三個字回應,即便是敷衍也說不出口。但他確實喜歡艾登給予的一切,甚至每當身邊空無一人時,他便會不由自主地想念那聒噪的傢伙。然而,他無法肯定是否愛,至少當盧西恩的幻影一出現時,他的眼裡就再沒其他。454Please respect copyright.PENANAA33s8qIrbT
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也許泰特斯說的對,他只是需要艾登,因為——太過孤單。454Please respect copyright.PENANARMkuqkTnJN
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良久的沈默令貝兒明白了,他低頭擺弄手中的西瓜皮,輕聲問:「覺得對艾登不公平嗎?」454Please respect copyright.PENANA3IPhXDt8sW
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當雙方付出的愛差距過大時,一旦有了察覺,便有了不安,不論是付出較多或較少的那方。一如貝兒發覺自己的付出遠遠差於哥哥的付出,他便不安地想證明自己的能力,想盡快讓自己變得強大,成為足以匹配泰特斯的人,偏偏兩人不論年紀或成就都相差懸殊,令他始終望塵莫及,才會瘋狂塞滿自己的學分課表,來抑止那份越漸擴大的不安與焦躁。454Please respect copyright.PENANAylIi64Pdv3
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那對席倫來說呢?454Please respect copyright.PENANANcCV1zrUEg
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「我……」淚珠奪眶之際,席倫強忍揪心之痛說出結論:「我不值得他放棄愛得那麼深的人。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAvTdTENkXxd
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貝兒不解地轉頭看向他,「放棄誰?」454Please respect copyright.PENANAZwA7kFN5Fk
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「你哥。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAKx70bzH31N
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「……」454Please respect copyright.PENANAC0kR6MTa9h
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未察覺貝兒張大雙眼的震驚呆愣,席倫緩緩重述蒙達菲老爺子的話——那段艾登曾深戀泰特斯的過往,而泰特斯也始終單身並插手艾登感情生活的動機。454Please respect copyright.PENANARcBjXnqG1t
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「也許,他只是以為那段感情不得回應,才會以為死心地追求其他人。也許,艾登沒他以為的那麼愛我。也許,泰也察覺自己的感情在等他發現,就跟那個人一樣……」席倫不自覺地加重手指力度,即使指尖被欄杆磨破了皮,也因胸口的揪疼而感覺不到,「若是這樣,我可以退出,讓他們早點正視彼此的感情,我不想再重複同樣的悲劇了。」454Please respect copyright.PENANAvPH8WJSj1V
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「不可能!」454Please respect copyright.PENANAyA1z0bGCkO
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悲怒的吼聲打斷席倫的思緒,他訝異地看向貝兒,卻見對方一臉不可置信地瞪著自己,豆大的淚珠不斷從失去笑意的雙眼墜落,讓他嚇一大跳地納悶問:「你怎麼……」454Please respect copyright.PENANApmV8hluq2i
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「不可能的!艾登不可能還喜歡我哥的,雖然他曾經……但、但那是好久好久以前的事了,還老是跟我們聊他的新戀情,又說要給我哥介紹對象……」貝兒驚慌失措地打斷席倫的話,有些語無倫次地拼命解釋,卻更像是在說服自己,「我哥才不可能喜歡艾登!他才不可能會喜歡誰的!他只有我只有我!他才不會只是為了讓我開心才……才……」454Please respect copyright.PENANAfES3MvHrDv
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辯駁的話,在貝兒想起泰特斯始終隱瞞戀情的猶豫不定時,剎然而止。454Please respect copyright.PENANAm06ozUJsAs
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『哥,還不能讓艾登知道嗎?』454Please respect copyright.PENANA3FnyR2d8U2
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『到底什麼時候才要告訴他啊?』454Please respect copyright.PENANAFfGu9UB45f
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『你不希望艾登有交往對象?』454Please respect copyright.PENANAK9w2RtsH4l
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一次又一次的疑問從未得到明確答覆——為何哥哥一直不願讓艾登知道他們的關係?為何每次他提起這話題,總會被轉移焦點?為何每次他一追問,總是一成不變的拖延答案?為何他總是無法介入那打不破的默契?為何艾登總是知道他不得解的秘密?就連哥哥當初與人假聯姻真聯手對抗伯父勢力時,也寧可將他瞞在鼓裡暗自心碎,卻願意讓艾登知曉一切?454Please respect copyright.PENANAOky3qVbh7h
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一個又一個不停衍生的猜疑,令貝兒蒼白了臉色,不住輕顫彷彿被抽光血液的纖弱身子。他一直都深刻明白哥哥從小的真心疼愛,甚至願意為了他不惜犧牲自己,如果……如果爺爺說的都是真的,如果哥哥真正愛的其實是艾登……454Please respect copyright.PENANAnWngcNXMok
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——為了報答養父母的恩情,為了讓疼寵的弟弟亦是養父母唯一的遺子快樂,放棄自己原能得到的幸福,這種莫名自虐的事情,的的確確是泰特斯這極端頑固男人的作風。454Please respect copyright.PENANAQM2PWg80rD
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「貝兒?」席倫被那長串不可能繞得頭暈,又見他如此驚懼悲痛,便也慌得手足無措,這反應是怎麼回事?怎會這麼激烈?454Please respect copyright.PENANAIOyqnhsWMw
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「嗚……他……不會的……」無法停下那飆生的猜疑,貝兒發出一聲悲鳴後,就轉身奔離天台,留下錯愕的席倫暗自心驚與迷惘,不安的預感更是爬滿了心頭。454Please respect copyright.PENANANkhdk5iXe9
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他似乎又做錯了什麼?
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後記:
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吼唷!兩隻笨蛋>"<454Please respect copyright.PENANAWHrkCfi4Ui
艾登快來解釋清楚喔喔喔喔!!!454Please respect copyright.PENANAYu8UpiPYdM
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這篇很短,感覺以主題和氣氛來說,就斷在這會比較好。454Please respect copyright.PENANAk48yAMnv2C
所以下一篇後天發出來XDD454Please respect copyright.PENANAMUNAxIht0l
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P.S.據說泰貝是所有孩子中最虐的一對?(艸454Please respect copyright.PENANAARTCNSSq1k
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【下篇預告】《愛或不愛?》:艾倫、泰貝兩對CP的大風波。字數約六千多,禮拜二早上發。454Please respect copyright.PENANAg17P9ZrtZ7
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