我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。732Please respect copyright.PENANAZhEXXngUz0
732Please respect copyright.PENANA10z7iNaakw
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。732Please respect copyright.PENANABVR6e28lxW
732Please respect copyright.PENANAL6qOymb5kE
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。732Please respect copyright.PENANAu7NjxIAHVJ
732Please respect copyright.PENANApEzmoUim6R
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。732Please respect copyright.PENANANqScEHlGaM
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走進了屋邨商場。732Please respect copyright.PENANAB62iLdDQdY
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。732Please respect copyright.PENANAEgAZs0RsvF
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。732Please respect copyright.PENANANfHcdfvppu
732Please respect copyright.PENANAytjNdq6vVq
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。732Please respect copyright.PENANA5IlGBTEM3S
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我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。732Please respect copyright.PENANAOUAVJq4JmG
732Please respect copyright.PENANAXuIaB5VfNr
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。732Please respect copyright.PENANAo1JsCwGnqu
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。732Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3TLhpGxW6
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。732Please respect copyright.PENANAYThHPBQT2k
732Please respect copyright.PENANAgB3yqnoylf
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。732Please respect copyright.PENANAS7DxBI65SB
732Please respect copyright.PENANAT38QqVlEGr
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。732Please respect copyright.PENANAezFERS39Dj
732Please respect copyright.PENANALRwEAoTs38
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。732Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2thOEldaV
732Please respect copyright.PENANA5l5QmDdcLG
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——732Please respect copyright.PENANAyY01LoLF7q
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。732Please respect copyright.PENANAhbPxmSpAPU
732Please respect copyright.PENANA6GBkMrnZ1f
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。732Please respect copyright.PENANAvX8S5yY29k
732Please respect copyright.PENANAtiC7GEZ4ZT
腳步還是能動。732Please respect copyright.PENANAZJImoKYrJq
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。732Please respect copyright.PENANA4YBmk56Dw5
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直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……732Please respect copyright.PENANALtHJiX6vwm
732Please respect copyright.PENANAMKlHXXiBPz
腳步才轉向離去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAFRLM1nK138
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。732Please respect copyright.PENANAgtseALe5hK
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。732Please respect copyright.PENANAVFrn7AWSJS
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。732Please respect copyright.PENANACxexxQ4OE0
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但是已經不再重要。732Please respect copyright.PENANAWzAU1NwpMH
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她騙了我。732Please respect copyright.PENANAh4gMwGRjTK
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。732Please respect copyright.PENANApyVipBxur7
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。732Please respect copyright.PENANAAzWspADFeo
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。732Please respect copyright.PENANAR0vvNHv7lD
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。732Please respect copyright.PENANA7sWc0xTpKH
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。732Please respect copyright.PENANAptWsX8luQx
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。732Please respect copyright.PENANA1pITDg1ube
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但我錯了。732Please respect copyright.PENANAZF17kfHTpN
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。732Please respect copyright.PENANAFy43jOReIU
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。732Please respect copyright.PENANAM5kJz5nBY7
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眼下——732Please respect copyright.PENANAJDm8ztrUtN
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。732Please respect copyright.PENANAriHCg3M1VI
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。732Please respect copyright.PENANAQCVy1kkpgS
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAHG06idI8R8
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?732Please respect copyright.PENANAIUrlNN5mrH
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。732Please respect copyright.PENANA5T8834JeZc
732Please respect copyright.PENANAK8XGJVzKBA
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。732Please respect copyright.PENANAUAAjouusSj
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。732Please respect copyright.PENANARNIgLoqU7q
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。732Please respect copyright.PENANAK4FJywcOSS
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。732Please respect copyright.PENANAt1dmyF67fb
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。732Please respect copyright.PENANAaIofTjdILK
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有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。732Please respect copyright.PENANA38fl1AgHgD
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。732Please respect copyright.PENANAIxUtkbHqJC
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。732Please respect copyright.PENANA1d1UGxyy00
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神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……732Please respect copyright.PENANAlc4W3v49ev
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我樂意代勞的。732Please respect copyright.PENANAyFS6rTGe0q
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。732Please respect copyright.PENANA8Cix81oUIF
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——732Please respect copyright.PENANAJkMxFejBpv
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。732Please respect copyright.PENANAamD33Cq14D
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?732Please respect copyright.PENANAaMhD0PGKWB
732Please respect copyright.PENANA8iwWMPNvy9
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。732Please respect copyright.PENANAKxImmef0FI
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在下午等待至日落——732Please respect copyright.PENANAy6GsKahlRe
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。732Please respect copyright.PENANALFlXa2hXvm
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。732Please respect copyright.PENANA1S3bo2YrYT
732Please respect copyright.PENANAHKpKHoKVbi
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」732Please respect copyright.PENANADEaIvrKu5R
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。732Please respect copyright.PENANANzkAO4HKQz
732Please respect copyright.PENANAaVzgDJVpXR
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAMs7kLOQiFR
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。732Please respect copyright.PENANAPcHAP7PUq5
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。732Please respect copyright.PENANAOZXKBbyKoc
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「嘭——」也是不進。732Please respect copyright.PENANAKlDx96akxj
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。732Please respect copyright.PENANArF74tcvgOD
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漸漸出現晚霞。732Please respect copyright.PENANAYRRgGkQiU9
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回去吧。732Please respect copyright.PENANABlrCCvnXP9
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。732Please respect copyright.PENANA0VQALtiJRF
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。732Please respect copyright.PENANAADQJlrPpXx
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAFmBnrfcY2Y
732Please respect copyright.PENANArvwgYxEDUl
背著書包,累然站起——732Please respect copyright.PENANALdhLwvYSJV
732Please respect copyright.PENANAL6voNpGvJW
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」732Please respect copyright.PENANASpCFTLei6V
732Please respect copyright.PENANAkAC5dWiclF
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。732Please respect copyright.PENANA3xE8JsTmpL
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最後,舉起手。732Please respect copyright.PENANAMfnisqqODN
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。732Please respect copyright.PENANAdw31YG01Pp
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* * *732Please respect copyright.PENANAYfrBz2O2xm
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。732Please respect copyright.PENANArLrlOHwMJH
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。732Please respect copyright.PENANAZXU8HvPD1P
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。732Please respect copyright.PENANAhqkoHrw3P6
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。732Please respect copyright.PENANAlNlCfXh2cl
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。732Please respect copyright.PENANArMpIiYiw70
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。732Please respect copyright.PENANAWHjQWF6OYW
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。732Please respect copyright.PENANAXURoINHHUu
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。732Please respect copyright.PENANA2IEJz47pxC
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。732Please respect copyright.PENANA90OeDtfUYX
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。732Please respect copyright.PENANAFt1SYwuAY3
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。732Please respect copyright.PENANAgyWYd8YfU6
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。732Please respect copyright.PENANARlSM0Mc3vk
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。732Please respect copyright.PENANAjFAWYw78Sv
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。732Please respect copyright.PENANA4wEmbYRXeg
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAfI9hWmoVkM
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。732Please respect copyright.PENANAWr2ovGYumQ
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。732Please respect copyright.PENANAVPThwDoFcD
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。732Please respect copyright.PENANAUgxbQqaNfg
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。732Please respect copyright.PENANAJPxzPOAoym
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……732Please respect copyright.PENANAt9t01osRg8
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——放大瞳孔。732Please respect copyright.PENANAoMJuTQrS31
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。732Please respect copyright.PENANACViclmDhKk
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手機就在我的褲袋。732Please respect copyright.PENANABo0jzdVTtK
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。732Please respect copyright.PENANAB9Xl9idVdm
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陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。732Please respect copyright.PENANA3GfRKa923W
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。732Please respect copyright.PENANACJi9ycipZ2
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。732Please respect copyright.PENANAKwhci5WFve
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那麼,打嗎?732Please respect copyright.PENANAOB3eVH49gE
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。732Please respect copyright.PENANAlaS1bYc4Jl
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?732Please respect copyright.PENANAoUzbOil0IL
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?732Please respect copyright.PENANAgAovfDkp6L
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我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。732Please respect copyright.PENANAIBrew9teu3
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。732Please respect copyright.PENANAgQLlQuW7zw
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幾度拿出手機的我——732Please respect copyright.PENANAKd44Hc2XrE
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算吧。732Please respect copyright.PENANA8OE9XvVvEv
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把手機放回褲袋。732Please respect copyright.PENANA5IHzCdWWU6
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。732Please respect copyright.PENANAwtW63QRRmE
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。732Please respect copyright.PENANAHwyj2tIpfU
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。732Please respect copyright.PENANAVvuQ2YUK08
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