這算什麼?674Please respect copyright.PENANAUmJplbNNMK
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。674Please respect copyright.PENANALGyl8lAoRN
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。674Please respect copyright.PENANAHLWRvChpio
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。674Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Pxn2IueZ
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。674Please respect copyright.PENANAAvut4K6VlQ
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。674Please respect copyright.PENANAhdj93T3DEO
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。674Please respect copyright.PENANAAp172oycwy
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。674Please respect copyright.PENANAoE6bOjUGtc
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然後便準備下山了。674Please respect copyright.PENANA35pwLprGWz
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。674Please respect copyright.PENANA1pCV0QWpcu
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAfoX7UDE9qm
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAkp8HOi9WEj
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。674Please respect copyright.PENANAShSzEToM1o
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。674Please respect copyright.PENANAEad2segPeN
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。674Please respect copyright.PENANAbRMqBNmY7Y
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。674Please respect copyright.PENANAHmWgW5nz02
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。674Please respect copyright.PENANA2TJLxgPLnj
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」674Please respect copyright.PENANAK6VKrfXOd8
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不會告訴我,又一天了。674Please respect copyright.PENANARFGJ6ocDcs
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。674Please respect copyright.PENANAeo7fNV0quK
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。674Please respect copyright.PENANAGrKI9qQ1Bl
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。674Please respect copyright.PENANAjW1ml19CO4
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。674Please respect copyright.PENANAp0tBsNN8UM
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。674Please respect copyright.PENANAf0ckDOQt5n
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAG5OCSlmWo4
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。674Please respect copyright.PENANAIox3EWUlDV
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。674Please respect copyright.PENANA5m4Re61TIj
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怎麼說呢?674Please respect copyright.PENANAsgZdpFGtkq
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。674Please respect copyright.PENANAn3rCRwKA7S
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。674Please respect copyright.PENANAUmYt9RMCEv
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。674Please respect copyright.PENANA0kGlvEaowZ
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。674Please respect copyright.PENANAjBNhtCC81l
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。674Please respect copyright.PENANAnLrV0R7M5e
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。674Please respect copyright.PENANARrReALUSvY
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我再點頭。674Please respect copyright.PENANA257WkLuewV
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。674Please respect copyright.PENANAlxmyHdQEA7
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。674Please respect copyright.PENANAXgVMad6f6W
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我馬上看第二天。674Please respect copyright.PENANA7qUimmlIp0
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。674Please respect copyright.PENANAozmeAPuscu
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。674Please respect copyright.PENANA1cCx4EFnno
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……674Please respect copyright.PENANAtKJ7b9WDaM
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。674Please respect copyright.PENANAOYGPoF4bOJ
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」674Please respect copyright.PENANAoMLuzDHcZ3
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」674Please respect copyright.PENANAruNry3VpPH
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第二天「END」出現。674Please respect copyright.PENANAHFJNY8DadC
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我蓋上了練習簿。674Please respect copyright.PENANA8rwBHSTcW1
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。674Please respect copyright.PENANA0A8gsabPap
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?674Please respect copyright.PENANA2hzuxbmGSD
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。674Please respect copyright.PENANAQIa2eavsBw
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAwj8FHSMfky
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAIkb3C1UYRV
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。674Please respect copyright.PENANA7QRc7zp1gS
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。674Please respect copyright.PENANAh08OvNns1a
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?674Please respect copyright.PENANAXjmSoRuByb
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。674Please respect copyright.PENANAvuadv2NtSa
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。674Please respect copyright.PENANAznsTszoJkZ
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAgoiR28oy8M
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。674Please respect copyright.PENANAhI6GNg7tia
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAjTp19dfCCw
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。674Please respect copyright.PENANAqVazWbjoRJ
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。674Please respect copyright.PENANAJYvXwHbFAg
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。674Please respect copyright.PENANAlBjvCLGucS
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然後再次坐好。674Please respect copyright.PENANA2RMqgjrwBg
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「陸……傾兒。」674Please respect copyright.PENANA5DXxB2PAwN
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。674Please respect copyright.PENANAqAyuNmhblg
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。674Please respect copyright.PENANAwU7EjlxMvl
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。674Please respect copyright.PENANArAvsY1OWvp
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。674Please respect copyright.PENANAz96uqsVMPq
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。674Please respect copyright.PENANARAYHFu7LMf
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?674Please respect copyright.PENANAhPmsLYV5hE
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。674Please respect copyright.PENANAQTja979rr8
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。674Please respect copyright.PENANApbhdJSxI7L
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。674Please respect copyright.PENANAYzSg4vaurV
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。674Please respect copyright.PENANAIDmb7jtEtK
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。674Please respect copyright.PENANAwyL7wmoyQX
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。674Please respect copyright.PENANAvsSXILEQ0x
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。674Please respect copyright.PENANAInFjSmO9xc
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。674Please respect copyright.PENANA3LFuPXmDYR
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。674Please respect copyright.PENANACX28XfHfvu
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那麼,我呢?674Please respect copyright.PENANAQUUShLGjYe
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?674Please respect copyright.PENANAbtrt2DGiC5
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAKRNRKzHiKu
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。674Please respect copyright.PENANAkBuSHPVODM
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAvGOY9vHK7j
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。674Please respect copyright.PENANAFX2tjxkVoK
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。674Please respect copyright.PENANAGLmTazke47
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 674Please respect copyright.PENANAKqKwVJAuxG
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 674Please respect copyright.PENANAbVe35MclL6
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。674Please respect copyright.PENANAVG6YeGZycx
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」674Please respect copyright.PENANA5yaVGzQMXV
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAPT73LuO6YM
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAqqwTzAKFF0
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAl38RTvN1Xj
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。674Please respect copyright.PENANA1QfwiuEoiW
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」674Please respect copyright.PENANApYgj2uIQZ0
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。674Please respect copyright.PENANAmQDeiIbe5N
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。674Please respect copyright.PENANAhWmOUIif9z
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。674Please respect copyright.PENANAEK75raNeig
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。674Please respect copyright.PENANAqQYoUCMzGV
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?674Please respect copyright.PENANA9xxIsbtYEx
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我期待著。674Please respect copyright.PENANAu8w91z38gO
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。674Please respect copyright.PENANAWsTXFd9Esq
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。674Please respect copyright.PENANAymiFnPfCrf
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。674Please respect copyright.PENANA3KdCywJkvr
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」674Please respect copyright.PENANAsJDvMgual1
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAESdvx5VIJl
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAHpFzWj6xz8
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。674Please respect copyright.PENANA5SABGa0yig
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。674Please respect copyright.PENANA76eGDjAXpQ
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傾耳以待——674Please respect copyright.PENANAONqXQ6G9dw
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAblhU518Aye
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。674Please respect copyright.PENANADa9E6gD0vX
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。674Please respect copyright.PENANA1FJISTNSji
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。674Please respect copyright.PENANA7HX5xF6eb9
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAImG0Eppgrt
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身體傾後,躺了下來。674Please respect copyright.PENANARdi4JQJOSD
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「係諗住攤。」674Please respect copyright.PENANAR8L29seslm
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。674Please respect copyright.PENANAkeExOgL4WK
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。674Please respect copyright.PENANAMBXStbnQew
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。674Please respect copyright.PENANAdzbwxD7N17
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露出鼻尖和微笑。674Please respect copyright.PENANAcNX3EMxCoZ
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。674Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeWbFEIbV