這算什麼?724Please respect copyright.PENANAFyS8pN0iCR
724Please respect copyright.PENANADpbSgN9aOh
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。724Please respect copyright.PENANAjQGdBiY2a2
724Please respect copyright.PENANABSJXDEyLlq
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。724Please respect copyright.PENANA8jjcCIelrb
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。724Please respect copyright.PENANA6OiDVB6YBB
724Please respect copyright.PENANA4hBWIQfM9o
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。724Please respect copyright.PENANAuBh1FTStWK
724Please respect copyright.PENANAVqZgdZ11cm
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。724Please respect copyright.PENANAEOHcrrF6cY
724Please respect copyright.PENANAtdQ6qhI0ID
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。724Please respect copyright.PENANA615T5hh63Q
724Please respect copyright.PENANACbRrGoEL30
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。724Please respect copyright.PENANAxnXwFg76ON
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然後便準備下山了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAdbGzMzUaxC
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。724Please respect copyright.PENANA6fGVrORZTk
724Please respect copyright.PENANA9JlKMBb4Eu
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。724Please respect copyright.PENANAtfBhwCKuNj
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」724Please respect copyright.PENANA4laC4SfTJL
724Please respect copyright.PENANApm5tBb3vXs
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。724Please respect copyright.PENANAQVyd5Juw1f
724Please respect copyright.PENANAErEoBfP0pI
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。724Please respect copyright.PENANA8StUzCxw9w
724Please respect copyright.PENANAjfkrH2cBKD
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。724Please respect copyright.PENANAmy5slvPUxW
724Please respect copyright.PENANAQJDB14uwkq
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。724Please respect copyright.PENANAifBsiHbLBy
724Please respect copyright.PENANANgPvNznqyO
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。724Please respect copyright.PENANAWpaFJKqaI4
724Please respect copyright.PENANAPHP6cPI3jx
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」724Please respect copyright.PENANAfvCRaed6de
724Please respect copyright.PENANAj89mT9vebs
不會告訴我,又一天了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAst83KSRz1v
724Please respect copyright.PENANAIdsxtF5MNR
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。724Please respect copyright.PENANAAKBdiy602X
724Please respect copyright.PENANAuipwnhHTF4
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。724Please respect copyright.PENANAdOlnSinzN8
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。724Please respect copyright.PENANANTc7TAhR6P
724Please respect copyright.PENANARrq3qjPRb6
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。724Please respect copyright.PENANAimeSLrh7xx
724Please respect copyright.PENANAYQFuomaldy
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。724Please respect copyright.PENANACUMiwksNMJ
724Please respect copyright.PENANA4zN88cYoi0
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAR6kPQTEJIW
724Please respect copyright.PENANACeXmgvxyDQ
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。724Please respect copyright.PENANAzMbsHEaRll
724Please respect copyright.PENANAk6JMrBQQPt
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAX6hQ4s82zU
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怎麼說呢?724Please respect copyright.PENANAoxtcgSgv3C
724Please respect copyright.PENANAlOpFArCI6p
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。724Please respect copyright.PENANAN9q4FfAQPM
724Please respect copyright.PENANAz4QhjXuTqS
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。724Please respect copyright.PENANALTNZj7xam1
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。724Please respect copyright.PENANA1iqKp7LGFO
724Please respect copyright.PENANAQIFX6e3JmU
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。724Please respect copyright.PENANAM5bA6Ud12y
724Please respect copyright.PENANAmEGmdXpuNf
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。724Please respect copyright.PENANAKmrpHj8ae2
724Please respect copyright.PENANA0JPaKgBmm9
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。724Please respect copyright.PENANAo9Od3s7cJ9
724Please respect copyright.PENANAqCb0eyGo9R
我再點頭。724Please respect copyright.PENANAKuLW6Kcs3m
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。724Please respect copyright.PENANA5dedXTRldM
724Please respect copyright.PENANA7xu3KGDwHt
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。724Please respect copyright.PENANAbRLdwz0K5d
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我馬上看第二天。724Please respect copyright.PENANAWVV8yIFivP
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。724Please respect copyright.PENANApOemHGFrMt
724Please respect copyright.PENANAoW8VXJZie9
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。724Please respect copyright.PENANAOUZzfxmrPc
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……724Please respect copyright.PENANARC9EsyBoqk
724Please respect copyright.PENANAYOGEQdFfGZ
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。724Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4rxzNALxj
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」724Please respect copyright.PENANAu2aLcu6hfK
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」724Please respect copyright.PENANASpis4MsTDS
724Please respect copyright.PENANARDQBeRfW1l
第二天「END」出現。724Please respect copyright.PENANAdckbGYRh9o
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我蓋上了練習簿。724Please respect copyright.PENANABYqWQTXlw9
724Please respect copyright.PENANAfUk1r8btrm
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。724Please respect copyright.PENANADCeAoU1mHj
724Please respect copyright.PENANABbryCIXth2
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?724Please respect copyright.PENANAvLlpNxSTso
724Please respect copyright.PENANAvSRRwcbsxm
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAhi0EsvbC6s
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。724Please respect copyright.PENANAQFJWcnL4rN
724Please respect copyright.PENANAMgI9p4Ca3N
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。724Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ws6SIo1yE
724Please respect copyright.PENANAiKrLzR0a2p
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。724Please respect copyright.PENANAmpRiJZ6aQm
724Please respect copyright.PENANAwL6rWrgdqW
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。724Please respect copyright.PENANAr9OB0jJBLv
724Please respect copyright.PENANAxh9SFyoVrW
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?724Please respect copyright.PENANA8iYSFtON4v
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。724Please respect copyright.PENANAEFHnfgOAGq
724Please respect copyright.PENANAIytnRWrPsj
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。724Please respect copyright.PENANA8j63SJKPDd
724Please respect copyright.PENANAOeccSRvGkO
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」724Please respect copyright.PENANA6AjliFlppN
724Please respect copyright.PENANA65b49VgcSZ
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。724Please respect copyright.PENANAVEfcrzzx7L
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAHLODQW0h9H
724Please respect copyright.PENANAgYq33aBDFt
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。724Please respect copyright.PENANAWqWKzoVZDs
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。724Please respect copyright.PENANAcYX5ivWXNj
724Please respect copyright.PENANAoSoqz5hE1I
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。724Please respect copyright.PENANAFEkSlkd0BW
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然後再次坐好。724Please respect copyright.PENANAENSvV4q9Wz
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「陸……傾兒。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAdoWiHGEUe0
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。724Please respect copyright.PENANA9eLwpNlp89
724Please respect copyright.PENANAE8R2F5uwT1
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。724Please respect copyright.PENANA6JHJTUXuOd
724Please respect copyright.PENANAjCsBLBq0Un
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。724Please respect copyright.PENANAvhcJ9LU0zb
724Please respect copyright.PENANA6cHzldWIbh
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。724Please respect copyright.PENANApovBRrHzFI
724Please respect copyright.PENANAfuFBDdLY73
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。724Please respect copyright.PENANAKDdL55qYGF
724Please respect copyright.PENANAwoN4atyulW
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?724Please respect copyright.PENANANERVuBYSlD
724Please respect copyright.PENANA51F0boG8pt
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。724Please respect copyright.PENANA0LbAVlAFhC
724Please respect copyright.PENANADsr1WFJUgo
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。724Please respect copyright.PENANAA83nAIoaJh
724Please respect copyright.PENANARRaswqrdXW
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9kidkS6Bw
724Please respect copyright.PENANARis0jda09c
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。724Please respect copyright.PENANAX4CE9TvWUi
724Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9U0KcwV52
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。724Please respect copyright.PENANAG44WCqAoLg
724Please respect copyright.PENANABImTXQkVNp
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。724Please respect copyright.PENANAWfjlAasQoM
724Please respect copyright.PENANARg9hzax0i2
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。724Please respect copyright.PENANAmYLUe1DVZG
724Please respect copyright.PENANA3uIqwJ4vl5
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。724Please respect copyright.PENANATQp1aX1uIW
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。724Please respect copyright.PENANA9QWoaDb5v2
724Please respect copyright.PENANAM1kzLyDjhv
那麼,我呢?724Please respect copyright.PENANAqqD2EvjZcl
724Please respect copyright.PENANAP60ApYNdDQ
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?724Please respect copyright.PENANAMc68jboOCj
724Please respect copyright.PENANAZWDYh0CRNx
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。724Please respect copyright.PENANAJW2Nf46NO6
724Please respect copyright.PENANAr0MeuKLa3U
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。724Please respect copyright.PENANAnc6Mhp4VKO
724Please respect copyright.PENANAJjJdRlbW4L
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。724Please respect copyright.PENANAJT5N8XaPtf
724Please respect copyright.PENANAo6MRRAaF6L
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。724Please respect copyright.PENANACUxM7c8KCQ
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。724Please respect copyright.PENANAJtZG34fj7p
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 724Please respect copyright.PENANAM8jsqDWC4b
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 724Please respect copyright.PENANAOPO9Hx2jrb
724Please respect copyright.PENANAAXdN2XSj2o
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。724Please respect copyright.PENANAFporfUi3Ql
724Please respect copyright.PENANA91xSFaos0w
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAimEVbwqV5R
724Please respect copyright.PENANAFdx2QG3HNI
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAi2p3syhhgO
724Please respect copyright.PENANArYxNn88cIT
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAEYLA2Hr0IA
724Please respect copyright.PENANAI4Tn4nFtU1
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAjF1DaJazE6
724Please respect copyright.PENANAyebj8Yrpq1
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。724Please respect copyright.PENANAhod4EcA4H6
724Please respect copyright.PENANAptbkf3eEB9
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAlCZi3atTne
724Please respect copyright.PENANAk0lD0S2XdU
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。724Please respect copyright.PENANAwAnxzb9I65
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。724Please respect copyright.PENANARP4Y0ij8H3
724Please respect copyright.PENANAeM60swrdFz
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。724Please respect copyright.PENANA1TAl2m1pix
724Please respect copyright.PENANAAASwWxHcWa
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。724Please respect copyright.PENANApbScwAYlQT
724Please respect copyright.PENANAAi7KtVnaNf
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?724Please respect copyright.PENANAmZXmNx1w6y
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我期待著。724Please respect copyright.PENANA2nD7HyfEBK
724Please respect copyright.PENANAJZfv5pnpkN
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。724Please respect copyright.PENANA4bPPfgkTZh
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。724Please respect copyright.PENANALkpj8zwUv9
724Please respect copyright.PENANA09PNw6nhkC
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。724Please respect copyright.PENANAbttsa7GfMZ
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」724Please respect copyright.PENANA7XhU1fsvut
724Please respect copyright.PENANAVWMiBguC7b
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。724Please respect copyright.PENANAj6Z0HC6Sp0
724Please respect copyright.PENANA9ygDAomhhM
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAGsdMZPX4PC
724Please respect copyright.PENANAoz6uMpP0V0
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。724Please respect copyright.PENANA2v4knMD3tP
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。724Please respect copyright.PENANAsnkp7OqXID
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傾耳以待——724Please respect copyright.PENANAqpw7kUIuBb
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAWT31OdsVqD
724Please respect copyright.PENANASFtMnp8LsW
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。724Please respect copyright.PENANAFIyRlSYnqk
724Please respect copyright.PENANAvAJVjrd5ip
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。724Please respect copyright.PENANAcaFmnKNOkf
724Please respect copyright.PENANAb74LZOkhnT
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。724Please respect copyright.PENANAiB0H1fyvK9
724Please respect copyright.PENANARhvSciltvC
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAT2Y9hPYOn4
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身體傾後,躺了下來。724Please respect copyright.PENANAPAN8GJNQXG
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「係諗住攤。」724Please respect copyright.PENANAvyOuJqz98W
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。724Please respect copyright.PENANASfIDYjyee7
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