這算什麼?669Please respect copyright.PENANAUAOZ7BV9KC
669Please respect copyright.PENANAiSHDH3OXDb
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。669Please respect copyright.PENANAWqMfSNNgCw
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1aeSVW22Cv
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。669Please respect copyright.PENANA4phds5ljpv
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmOw4B4sLay
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。669Please respect copyright.PENANA5b3WaRnRrs
669Please respect copyright.PENANAB1JHNtfkVV
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。669Please respect copyright.PENANAZRa1KhmBu9
669Please respect copyright.PENANAn7AVr3E8KX
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。669Please respect copyright.PENANAnPvyxuM1Wd
669Please respect copyright.PENANAHPcuKfxRSS
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。669Please respect copyright.PENANANuYyBMl9MV
669Please respect copyright.PENANAEuHOUmtXci
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。669Please respect copyright.PENANA5cQUttjE59
669Please respect copyright.PENANAPmOsNXdTlA
然後便準備下山了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAKxdpq4sCiT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAryu0ciGWzU
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAzvllWNgGls
669Please respect copyright.PENANA8zKCNmQBBb
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。669Please respect copyright.PENANApMHE2m2imj
669Please respect copyright.PENANAPj5YfLaS8k
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAE1YoCi2tAR
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。669Please respect copyright.PENANAqH0TreqrfC
669Please respect copyright.PENANAJJdQ6Ec0vX
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。669Please respect copyright.PENANAuTYUYbQ6by
669Please respect copyright.PENANA3ElfKoaygb
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。669Please respect copyright.PENANAgaOBmJcukH
669Please respect copyright.PENANAELvYCtmFMp
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。669Please respect copyright.PENANAi5py6lf9Cp
669Please respect copyright.PENANA4Tw0pqgOFq
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。669Please respect copyright.PENANANUgUsr4N01
669Please respect copyright.PENANAPdQ8K84NII
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」669Please respect copyright.PENANA8xcA5vOuey
669Please respect copyright.PENANAtZfWsuH4AW
不會告訴我,又一天了。669Please respect copyright.PENANA9P4kVJRqYg
669Please respect copyright.PENANAB9qo47J2kt
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。669Please respect copyright.PENANADiiQ6LzSua
669Please respect copyright.PENANAKW3SuCrGMr
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。669Please respect copyright.PENANAfGzIUoNgKH
669Please respect copyright.PENANAIiuF3yUN92
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。669Please respect copyright.PENANA8d5GON15M3
669Please respect copyright.PENANAC3AKSzIZxV
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。669Please respect copyright.PENANANeC5ONZ4kT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAXHljZvSN63
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。669Please respect copyright.PENANAm0Ukg7pZVu
669Please respect copyright.PENANAVQHqgTDbhF
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」669Please respect copyright.PENANA32n1CDBjXF
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1XYB3AT4Be
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。669Please respect copyright.PENANAiQmIUKpFrb
669Please respect copyright.PENANASyb07azOOt
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAhzHmyw4DMU
669Please respect copyright.PENANAI812p9kRDC
怎麼說呢?669Please respect copyright.PENANALZbEwsaAbF
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUg0hVoxozk
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。669Please respect copyright.PENANA6u7GhWbTju
669Please respect copyright.PENANAYCwigMedim
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。669Please respect copyright.PENANA2NjRQnpPdH
669Please respect copyright.PENANA9bPwhOAmYN
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。669Please respect copyright.PENANAi9dUjVcQMQ
669Please respect copyright.PENANAubyUoGXpug
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。669Please respect copyright.PENANABTrEmjdONJ
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1NP0td4a06
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。669Please respect copyright.PENANASFU01lU4LG
669Please respect copyright.PENANAdAT6G7BUcf
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。669Please respect copyright.PENANAVnpTrz7RQ9
669Please respect copyright.PENANA7qP7d4uv6W
我再點頭。669Please respect copyright.PENANASrjM2AnihJ
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAm517M7zSAV
669Please respect copyright.PENANATmo6aMI2qi
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。669Please respect copyright.PENANANgSYURwqts
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我馬上看第二天。669Please respect copyright.PENANAT1URNB6tVE
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。669Please respect copyright.PENANAEUI5A5m0iF
669Please respect copyright.PENANAeRSDrW370h
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。669Please respect copyright.PENANAcZ96GCaugT
669Please respect copyright.PENANAnAvJxjxfSA
在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……669Please respect copyright.PENANAX6dWUNe24e
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwV83Y3XFiI
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。669Please respect copyright.PENANAwToIkPWcLv
669Please respect copyright.PENANAUZQLBHg5cF
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」669Please respect copyright.PENANAudx51H8B1b
669Please respect copyright.PENANAs97dxx2VFb
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」669Please respect copyright.PENANAtVXawHDqvR
669Please respect copyright.PENANAU9BHgX2OnX
第二天「END」出現。669Please respect copyright.PENANABVUNkQa5Mm
669Please respect copyright.PENANAs4rNQI3ekn
我蓋上了練習簿。669Please respect copyright.PENANA3OPxUmcog1
669Please respect copyright.PENANAfXGOFKEg0J
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。669Please respect copyright.PENANAmp6112WYlT
669Please respect copyright.PENANA55LJxcEMb4
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?669Please respect copyright.PENANAhJoLtkMGx9
669Please respect copyright.PENANABXtdzYevZs
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAzBqCxIULuE
669Please respect copyright.PENANAYkrmLmxxoh
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。669Please respect copyright.PENANAnOR4ZEUauU
669Please respect copyright.PENANA6sqIJYOIVk
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。669Please respect copyright.PENANAIK9JC2Oi69
669Please respect copyright.PENANAgwlD95Zhuu
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。669Please respect copyright.PENANAUvKG8pz5DW
669Please respect copyright.PENANAY8kZxUNJDN
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。669Please respect copyright.PENANA4jBl2iMdDP
669Please respect copyright.PENANABrExrSGQ8H
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?669Please respect copyright.PENANAsYLnTZFRS7
669Please respect copyright.PENANA4OjjojKaQc
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。669Please respect copyright.PENANAYiu5oImKfX
669Please respect copyright.PENANAQux3vwUSVw
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。669Please respect copyright.PENANASwPWKUEXZB
669Please respect copyright.PENANAAbMSuvCQwz
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAWfMANQkZLL
669Please respect copyright.PENANA6s28flMfrz
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAEfqsaWfzVD
669Please respect copyright.PENANArafS0UU80R
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAyE4t15d5ur
669Please respect copyright.PENANAFk3V0rG89D
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。669Please respect copyright.PENANApB5B7kO0y3
669Please respect copyright.PENANAC4HtTVXHvS
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。669Please respect copyright.PENANA5nvxnGqQTK
669Please respect copyright.PENANAP5HQtz56MC
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。669Please respect copyright.PENANAF4jo826RBV
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然後再次坐好。669Please respect copyright.PENANAlekzNPQnjR
669Please respect copyright.PENANA9WjjYw40E6
「陸……傾兒。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAc6p710wcp0
669Please respect copyright.PENANAD44Lyi12N9
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。669Please respect copyright.PENANA7Bg1ej1bn2
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1GEaxTXS7T
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。669Please respect copyright.PENANAdCaDLrYa2S
669Please respect copyright.PENANANp9ePfK1js
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。669Please respect copyright.PENANA2ktPKPF73g
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmShOtU5qoi
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。669Please respect copyright.PENANAetBZIXagYI
669Please respect copyright.PENANAJoMKonirdl
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。669Please respect copyright.PENANAPa82BAY92r
669Please respect copyright.PENANATx3DIlXDuT
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?669Please respect copyright.PENANAQEpf7mrgXd
669Please respect copyright.PENANAooLSPrXsUG
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。669Please respect copyright.PENANAEZSbaUCyIn
669Please respect copyright.PENANAbNWMNoVmES
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。669Please respect copyright.PENANAD8WqR9flWw
669Please respect copyright.PENANABPrnWrvDZ1
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。669Please respect copyright.PENANAOynfiA7KGI
669Please respect copyright.PENANAS1oXATwAyJ
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。669Please respect copyright.PENANASwKWH7zxkU
669Please respect copyright.PENANAGhz0KSz9vh
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。669Please respect copyright.PENANAxBLPK4uLbs
669Please respect copyright.PENANAS0oGrvanGF
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。669Please respect copyright.PENANAprODu6G96a
669Please respect copyright.PENANABFaB3B458f
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。669Please respect copyright.PENANAkFLpi3bYGd
669Please respect copyright.PENANAbSPIIzzbwR
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。669Please respect copyright.PENANA1XYKqrvnId
669Please respect copyright.PENANA2Fcpaq32Ls
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。669Please respect copyright.PENANATxf3GridDk
669Please respect copyright.PENANAmWEYnrr7yY
那麼,我呢?669Please respect copyright.PENANAxiPsDWMBqi
669Please respect copyright.PENANAVjAsQUT8iy
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?669Please respect copyright.PENANAzD9zOhm6h2
669Please respect copyright.PENANADEAwB1HL9f
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。669Please respect copyright.PENANA8dPp4f04cX
669Please respect copyright.PENANAPSoAbeDO9H
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。669Please respect copyright.PENANAf7As8KTF0R
669Please respect copyright.PENANAYcnAYoruZK
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。669Please respect copyright.PENANA87EkTX3hVP
669Please respect copyright.PENANAM9i9Rj79bb
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。669Please respect copyright.PENANAq8lW7akt2p
669Please respect copyright.PENANApg7t0EUnRK
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。669Please respect copyright.PENANAojI2YQKAWa
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 669Please respect copyright.PENANAQCHtGcaJ8M
669Please respect copyright.PENANAma5K0KlUbB
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 669Please respect copyright.PENANA2ABOdgmkF6
669Please respect copyright.PENANAbGhzD1oefz
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。669Please respect copyright.PENANAghlzdfUhDL
669Please respect copyright.PENANAlONuYwchPd
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAD6UUeqGMQd
669Please respect copyright.PENANAWnOCQCVSIz
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAny2bNgkMBs
669Please respect copyright.PENANAcECRnDHF2A
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」669Please respect copyright.PENANACi8x2mPvYd
669Please respect copyright.PENANAIPHw9emdBQ
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAVJxhWCDryo
669Please respect copyright.PENANAYefdFUvk9T
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。669Please respect copyright.PENANASMs4XC1gwh
669Please respect copyright.PENANAdxMMiDbmi3
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAy3x94PDJJ6
669Please respect copyright.PENANANXjTWM7d7D
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。669Please respect copyright.PENANAYcZz8xyBK4
669Please respect copyright.PENANAt6oakgMgf2
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。669Please respect copyright.PENANAhBT4P0oI9g
669Please respect copyright.PENANAkHDiVAkp1G
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。669Please respect copyright.PENANASQX2Ba4uWo
669Please respect copyright.PENANAAYoVIo1bsA
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。669Please respect copyright.PENANAlfxv9DbXfo
669Please respect copyright.PENANAE3Lh9ZW7ko
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?669Please respect copyright.PENANAtCNEHDvq6B
669Please respect copyright.PENANAb5TZUbw3Pi
我期待著。669Please respect copyright.PENANAw8b8zgrEbv
669Please respect copyright.PENANAjapNKbmBoe
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。669Please respect copyright.PENANA6SrYEFcKYp
669Please respect copyright.PENANAK0B8teSNVd
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。669Please respect copyright.PENANASFGndUeHaN
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwAiSSZBDU1
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。669Please respect copyright.PENANASb3lQrk1sL
669Please respect copyright.PENANAH6vHPMb5tp
「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」669Please respect copyright.PENANAm2RnaZgGX0
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwmKfJifhd2
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。669Please respect copyright.PENANAWf1ZsOLvid
669Please respect copyright.PENANADIr72Lls6S
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」669Please respect copyright.PENANA4soVgOf0Ah
669Please respect copyright.PENANArSmg1sX9GC
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。669Please respect copyright.PENANA71N5qhVq2i
669Please respect copyright.PENANAg2nnTF5B5B
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAkqkDP4hhyC
669Please respect copyright.PENANA1NPf7vzOnY
傾耳以待——669Please respect copyright.PENANAgThOC6FTab
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」669Please respect copyright.PENANAX2iQwlCozl
669Please respect copyright.PENANAVKwMaLX1pU
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。669Please respect copyright.PENANAyz2TViZKQZ
669Please respect copyright.PENANAavUbO3uP46
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。669Please respect copyright.PENANADr1PggwaFM
669Please respect copyright.PENANALP7IElHGdp
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。669Please respect copyright.PENANA0KuiElOAUI
669Please respect copyright.PENANAaSa3QQSaox
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」669Please respect copyright.PENANALtAQtbcov0
669Please respect copyright.PENANAksosispzx3
身體傾後,躺了下來。669Please respect copyright.PENANAG2tH0CrBml
669Please respect copyright.PENANAwViGx1xL1C
「係諗住攤。」669Please respect copyright.PENANADqACC7GXZH
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。669Please respect copyright.PENANA4TEIDLk22h
669Please respect copyright.PENANAApR8tHvarJ
神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。669Please respect copyright.PENANA1JBzHsoRoT
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