這算什麼?723Please respect copyright.PENANAgUMBDmxftH
723Please respect copyright.PENANA25nDWq6yzP
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。723Please respect copyright.PENANAvN931o77wl
723Please respect copyright.PENANAzO0TAKmePa
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。723Please respect copyright.PENANA8R3OLZYpbo
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。723Please respect copyright.PENANA7eWXVYKFkk
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。723Please respect copyright.PENANAStDwS4cSjB
723Please respect copyright.PENANAHwPc3rvoM6
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。723Please respect copyright.PENANA6ij0dnINeW
723Please respect copyright.PENANAGPfr5rPDDc
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。723Please respect copyright.PENANAP52VWw8tkn
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。723Please respect copyright.PENANAgUrCh9Kd7V
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然後便準備下山了。723Please respect copyright.PENANAsrBj7Ey2az
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。723Please respect copyright.PENANAVboA69AbWM
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。723Please respect copyright.PENANAA67DjDqqnb
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAmvLfolpUWp
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。723Please respect copyright.PENANA89WvNoU3F7
723Please respect copyright.PENANAdGWNiv0xSy
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。723Please respect copyright.PENANACQC7keB6On
723Please respect copyright.PENANA65xqjjbXQR
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。723Please respect copyright.PENANAdg6Eqk8B1I
723Please respect copyright.PENANAvrOhTGFWqC
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。723Please respect copyright.PENANALmWGwLTc14
723Please respect copyright.PENANABvzuLiCvxw
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。723Please respect copyright.PENANAJXSzXEM0u4
723Please respect copyright.PENANAhIM2xRqZnR
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」723Please respect copyright.PENANAzqAiq1zIWR
723Please respect copyright.PENANAMp31wjWj7e
不會告訴我,又一天了。723Please respect copyright.PENANAnIVyLGXO6G
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。723Please respect copyright.PENANARZ9vlIcJUm
723Please respect copyright.PENANAff89kuVLkz
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。723Please respect copyright.PENANAHfx5UjLIny
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。723Please respect copyright.PENANARbjRyI7VhQ
723Please respect copyright.PENANAZFRhZntUQG
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。723Please respect copyright.PENANAgZPELymwyl
723Please respect copyright.PENANAELIJYcgqnt
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。723Please respect copyright.PENANA1cYMxLnkyp
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」723Please respect copyright.PENANARwa4Jdsbnr
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。723Please respect copyright.PENANAmD3xgHxWAE
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。723Please respect copyright.PENANA1mmTvJWv2Z
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怎麼說呢?723Please respect copyright.PENANAgz23jcrEo4
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。723Please respect copyright.PENANAcV7Uo8RQRP
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。723Please respect copyright.PENANAWbaA6KpDjB
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。723Please respect copyright.PENANApn95Q7UbWD
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。723Please respect copyright.PENANAqtlLRMF9M5
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。723Please respect copyright.PENANAI2BSLAQYqM
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。723Please respect copyright.PENANA4KsWynFEGZ
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我再點頭。723Please respect copyright.PENANArRIEkdQr8c
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。723Please respect copyright.PENANAxWArtvnF4R
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。723Please respect copyright.PENANAcWXKAQDdMD
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我馬上看第二天。723Please respect copyright.PENANAKg15iRCrog
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。723Please respect copyright.PENANAgwUKayBQx6
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。723Please respect copyright.PENANAsw3slu3kEQ
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……723Please respect copyright.PENANAzCqEdwk8da
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。723Please respect copyright.PENANA7Asn2hFqNK
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」723Please respect copyright.PENANAHMXrVdl2Ug
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」723Please respect copyright.PENANACK6oNiBDl9
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第二天「END」出現。723Please respect copyright.PENANAfCdMzCTVmL
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我蓋上了練習簿。723Please respect copyright.PENANAEeHoDM85tA
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。723Please respect copyright.PENANAHFw3Y6Ey0i
723Please respect copyright.PENANAyo7f2bcFIF
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?723Please respect copyright.PENANAYUUPh7J2iu
723Please respect copyright.PENANALJBOKzE7WH
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。723Please respect copyright.PENANA8qkeZlxjcP
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。723Please respect copyright.PENANA3w1BrfAxeH
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。723Please respect copyright.PENANA3Yn6loWI1N
723Please respect copyright.PENANAMx1pkD2W5h
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。723Please respect copyright.PENANAknx0HkB2sp
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。723Please respect copyright.PENANA6a3VEk4xqG
723Please respect copyright.PENANADnXCKTsmiJ
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?723Please respect copyright.PENANANeQ6b7yt0E
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。723Please respect copyright.PENANARZwSv9Mrzg
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。723Please respect copyright.PENANAGUg95wZygj
723Please respect copyright.PENANAc9S2uPZfiM
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」723Please respect copyright.PENANABcRDUvWALN
723Please respect copyright.PENANANJWSW6iavw
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。723Please respect copyright.PENANApY9SXFg9jK
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAgVZOw3DU4m
723Please respect copyright.PENANA6afnKjzjn5
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。723Please respect copyright.PENANAwJFBTBupWl
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。723Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ig8uIYulg
723Please respect copyright.PENANArca3d42PjN
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。723Please respect copyright.PENANAub2WiOE3vK
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然後再次坐好。723Please respect copyright.PENANAw5tgVS02wr
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「陸……傾兒。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9AenOvkKe
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。723Please respect copyright.PENANAHLRCOMAzkv
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。723Please respect copyright.PENANAXX6P6SB4Xk
723Please respect copyright.PENANAVGroZEKqIP
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。723Please respect copyright.PENANA0RNgaAjTBV
723Please respect copyright.PENANAmtJuV7Y8nw
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。723Please respect copyright.PENANAYbnKiYeFQN
723Please respect copyright.PENANAMfPP7Q3Sql
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。723Please respect copyright.PENANAFd0Aypl7Yv
723Please respect copyright.PENANAvTx71DcjhA
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?723Please respect copyright.PENANAqERLhY6ygl
723Please respect copyright.PENANA2fNUjd2aGf
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。723Please respect copyright.PENANAwkddjtnU1r
723Please respect copyright.PENANAdxSukthphk
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。723Please respect copyright.PENANAJVYp1XJRzY
723Please respect copyright.PENANARdZfxpreO9
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。723Please respect copyright.PENANAgL8ARSPyj0
723Please respect copyright.PENANAQh57TJtf2y
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。723Please respect copyright.PENANAy5AKYxurte
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。723Please respect copyright.PENANAFCPT6Sgdnn
723Please respect copyright.PENANAmoHb581LdO
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。723Please respect copyright.PENANAaTTMW3WEiU
723Please respect copyright.PENANAcoEuqUeVLX
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。723Please respect copyright.PENANA7InrEKUjpI
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。723Please respect copyright.PENANAxa1aiCtwhE
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。723Please respect copyright.PENANA16UZm6108m
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那麼,我呢?723Please respect copyright.PENANAZw01w32BHJ
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?723Please respect copyright.PENANATzJgc2vLBT
723Please respect copyright.PENANA3AGqEBwH7J
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。723Please respect copyright.PENANASVcvIzgWTo
723Please respect copyright.PENANAt2ywrt9ZNC
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。723Please respect copyright.PENANAVAXsXM23RE
723Please respect copyright.PENANALPLU15XC5d
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。723Please respect copyright.PENANAs78i6D3hiu
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。723Please respect copyright.PENANAfu8wib7UJo
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。723Please respect copyright.PENANAzYMpXhly76
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 723Please respect copyright.PENANAX2cn9PjiFc
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 723Please respect copyright.PENANAsOTuZzjkPy
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。723Please respect copyright.PENANAz004GLY1Kw
723Please respect copyright.PENANAWd6cZ1cMWh
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」723Please respect copyright.PENANADaxm3AdMni
723Please respect copyright.PENANAnrC6gVFPS4
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAXYLykPslqQ
723Please respect copyright.PENANA8hL4bO9obq
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAtLu7GNCgcg
723Please respect copyright.PENANAlEysmQ3HK6
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」723Please respect copyright.PENANA2rcpn9Tgbz
723Please respect copyright.PENANAtGiP2iS9d7
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。723Please respect copyright.PENANAxsykHO5uGR
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAXEVlGFgwh6
723Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ok4ozj5C2
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。723Please respect copyright.PENANATEEly3yI2f
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。723Please respect copyright.PENANAaLUOu0OH8f
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。723Please respect copyright.PENANA0H5G4NvOzP
723Please respect copyright.PENANAvWyLFDJMk1
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。723Please respect copyright.PENANAbVuqa1FIBw
723Please respect copyright.PENANAU9zxQpeQv6
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?723Please respect copyright.PENANAcuUUTFZTQm
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我期待著。723Please respect copyright.PENANAq9jIwUHsD9
723Please respect copyright.PENANAyqEqXui3t0
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。723Please respect copyright.PENANAgdTwy3OWYH
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。723Please respect copyright.PENANA9JBxJSYMZG
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。723Please respect copyright.PENANArCMbXcYE2f
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」723Please respect copyright.PENANA88Mc1J0nNW
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。723Please respect copyright.PENANAmZmgPebHKG
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」723Please respect copyright.PENANA6uEW52MDYF
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。723Please respect copyright.PENANAUDFO0aHci4
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。723Please respect copyright.PENANA1w5qGnSjQ0
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傾耳以待——723Please respect copyright.PENANAWEoVfndUKr
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAREMGgr0eIj
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。723Please respect copyright.PENANAw3n55ZvK03
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。723Please respect copyright.PENANAHsxZjf3OBd
723Please respect copyright.PENANADSEvNHQuDx
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。723Please respect copyright.PENANAcN8q7k0Huj
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAQVPPpugMVE
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身體傾後,躺了下來。723Please respect copyright.PENANAnanqVYXa77
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「係諗住攤。」723Please respect copyright.PENANAhaB2At7r28
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。723Please respect copyright.PENANAEoMiORL3Gm
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