A/N: I'll be adding music that I listened to while writing these soon. I've been incredibly busy with my short film, podcast, and school work, so thank you all for being patient. I'm definitely not the best at writing poetry but hopefully it's still enjoyable for you lovelies! This was probably the trickiest poem I've written along with my Villanelle (coming soon). I was strongly inspired by my own experiences and Melanie Martinez's music (I'll post a couple links when I can of the songs I listened to while writing this). Sestinas are INCREDIBLY repetitive, as every stanza must have the same repeating words at the end of each line in a certain order. Pretty tricky to lay out and write, but I've gotten it finished at least. 81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJdM3pUuXC
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As always, thank you lovelies! Hugs to all of you!copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡum3ZZ3Xylf
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Did you know that you’ve driven me out of my mind?copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQPDW0iIq5
But instead of crying about it, this just means I can focus on me.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVsQUrTSZf
I’m sick of watching my mouth all the time around you,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g0NSiGQht
you’ve suddenly turned me into something violent; just look at this.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEjqhgrAZR
But I’m still struggling to accept the way things are now.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMM8DHAwAA
I’ve gotten to used to these bladed words and I’m so tired of it.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIQNvJ6czo
I’ve been pushed far enough, and I just can’t stand it,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa2ZBkf2Ve
so I’m telling you to let me erase you from my mind.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡUB1GKEokbY
I’m throwing myself a pity party and I don’t even care now.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYGLLcuSo4
I was always happy when you were with me,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3fk2REiUA
but now I know that I can’t comprehend this,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡxObyvWdTgo
and I’m sick of arguing only to be brought down by you.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡRamyV8Kq18
I thought that we’d be together forever, but I just didn’t know you.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡvicKCfBhyv
I know this isn’t right even though I don’t quite understand all of it,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5k4EP0RIg
but all I know is that I won’t be able to go through with this.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡgArD9nMTON
When you’re not right by my side, I don’t even mind.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2j6f3JvF13
You were so sweet, until the day that you didn’t need me.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbT9vXNkXF3
I can’t keep holding onto something that isn’t real, so we’re done now.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWEGzN3lHS
Finally accepted that I can stand on my own and live in the nowcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Kbg0fZwV0
instead of lingering on my past mistakes and trying catch up to you.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6UJCRxWPc
If you keep treating me like a toy, then you’re nothing but a piece of meat to me.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ048FKIsO3a
You still have everything you stole from me and you’ve run away with it.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdVStV7sr2
Now I’m beyond mad, so this is me giving you a piece of my mindcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡt19oLLgiI5
because how am I supposed to have known that you would do this?copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIaDnVmQJp
You have to actually love me if you want all of this.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qCWi5Sqyk
If you choose me, there will be no more turning back nowcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2lCq6nGp5
because I hate that you’re always so foggy-minded.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUOWybRU2B
I used to think that I should throw my life away for you,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡk32WZl2RLB
but now they tell me to buy more meds at this point I’ll try it,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeDxR4EeL3
because I’m still depressed, and it’s like you tried to kill me.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxY8uwjmql
These cotton candy memories are bittersweet to me,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLo0IolKf7
and this roller coaster can’t get any higher than this.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrm0Zd4DrQ
I used to love this carnival, but now I can’t stand it.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLnFUScdfD
Whenever you call me stupid for the things I do now,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdoYe6nARC
I remember that you’ve only ever made me change for you.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe43e3hjHJ
Before you tore me down, I used to use my heart instead of my mindcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pvx5pqhDF
I can’t bet my heart on it, but I hope you still love me even now.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcTkb7qyHi
You linger with me, but I told myself that I’m done with this.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpwgtLjK51
I keep thinking I know you, but you always change your mind.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfqYNwndO0
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