A/N: I'll be adding music that I listened to while writing these soon. I've been incredibly busy with my short film, podcast, and school work, so thank you all for being patient. I'm definitely not the best at writing poetry but hopefully it's still enjoyable for you lovelies! This was probably the trickiest poem I've written along with my Villanelle (coming soon). I was strongly inspired by my own experiences and Melanie Martinez's music (I'll post a couple links when I can of the songs I listened to while writing this). Sestinas are INCREDIBLY repetitive, as every stanza must have the same repeating words at the end of each line in a certain order. Pretty tricky to lay out and write, but I've gotten it finished at least. 86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiPaowphed
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As always, thank you lovelies! Hugs to all of you!copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QVS9tmTum
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Did you know that you’ve driven me out of my mind?copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvpcJ6XB4c
But instead of crying about it, this just means I can focus on me.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb2z4b2q5x
I’m sick of watching my mouth all the time around you,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJcDL7fqh9
you’ve suddenly turned me into something violent; just look at this.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8EUlo1jZ5
But I’m still struggling to accept the way things are now.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEhydlKgLP
I’ve gotten to used to these bladed words and I’m so tired of it.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyy0ck8rKp
I’ve been pushed far enough, and I just can’t stand it,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfyeaUCbdC
so I’m telling you to let me erase you from my mind.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIgxhuT1KF
I’m throwing myself a pity party and I don’t even care now.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzdpAqJIRu
I was always happy when you were with me,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sKHHUBj6O
but now I know that I can’t comprehend this,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmxcUOHOQs
and I’m sick of arguing only to be brought down by you.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡtG1H6B7QkY
I thought that we’d be together forever, but I just didn’t know you.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡktr5a80Ls6
I know this isn’t right even though I don’t quite understand all of it,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡAot8BnXicN
but all I know is that I won’t be able to go through with this.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFuMmBntrI
When you’re not right by my side, I don’t even mind.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMbTRm1R8t
You were so sweet, until the day that you didn’t need me.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJSrRuPPM1
I can’t keep holding onto something that isn’t real, so we’re done now.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxG7j2IHw9
Finally accepted that I can stand on my own and live in the nowcopyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYVCRNYTF6
instead of lingering on my past mistakes and trying catch up to you.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDQf4HJTxw
If you keep treating me like a toy, then you’re nothing but a piece of meat to me.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡU94BgnDY59
You still have everything you stole from me and you’ve run away with it.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v838ZR6Tw
Now I’m beyond mad, so this is me giving you a piece of my mindcopyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡdg93wdLg7i
because how am I supposed to have known that you would do this?copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1sRDIfgHk
You have to actually love me if you want all of this.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQQyTYyL5r
If you choose me, there will be no more turning back nowcopyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiIqmeE7vL
because I hate that you’re always so foggy-minded.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiNS9qBoHj
I used to think that I should throw my life away for you,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ79AG3yeOE
but now they tell me to buy more meds at this point I’ll try it,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6WoxjCbq8
because I’m still depressed, and it’s like you tried to kill me.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRqLKAblZT
These cotton candy memories are bittersweet to me,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJ0PjGSSVH
and this roller coaster can’t get any higher than this.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBNtZkMCwd
I used to love this carnival, but now I can’t stand it.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt4beOLqaL
Whenever you call me stupid for the things I do now,copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQukFN1yFW
I remember that you’ve only ever made me change for you.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcx3Fxnr9U
Before you tore me down, I used to use my heart instead of my mindcopyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡFToJ4CyQ3J
I can’t bet my heart on it, but I hope you still love me even now.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmA5HfTINz
You linger with me, but I told myself that I’m done with this.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3Lc6rJuSS
I keep thinking I know you, but you always change your mind.copyright protection82ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyMMhQpQHs
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