A/N: I'll be adding music that I listened to while writing these soon. I've been incredibly busy with my short film, podcast, and school work, so thank you all for being patient. I'm definitely not the best at writing poetry but hopefully it's still enjoyable for you lovelies! This was probably the trickiest poem I've written along with my Villanelle (coming soon). I was strongly inspired by my own experiences and Melanie Martinez's music (I'll post a couple links when I can of the songs I listened to while writing this). Sestinas are INCREDIBLY repetitive, as every stanza must have the same repeating words at the end of each line in a certain order. Pretty tricky to lay out and write, but I've gotten it finished at least. 94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dYCQ3DUon
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As always, thank you lovelies! Hugs to all of you!copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVKyiXb8W4
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Did you know that you’ve driven me out of my mind?copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡaglMnBtwj1
But instead of crying about it, this just means I can focus on me.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GWNefKpoH
I’m sick of watching my mouth all the time around you,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKvsfwn7Jx
you’ve suddenly turned me into something violent; just look at this.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUNAGbc9Hw
But I’m still struggling to accept the way things are now.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKc8xrniRL
I’ve gotten to used to these bladed words and I’m so tired of it.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lvvNL2aTM
I’ve been pushed far enough, and I just can’t stand it,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8GvJmHWwo
so I’m telling you to let me erase you from my mind.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡsH9FPG6dZX
I’m throwing myself a pity party and I don’t even care now.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0juw6gyh9
I was always happy when you were with me,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZi1v1ncYU
but now I know that I can’t comprehend this,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrBK6qrdDr
and I’m sick of arguing only to be brought down by you.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCru7XBnwT
I thought that we’d be together forever, but I just didn’t know you.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRTPSoRgBQ
I know this isn’t right even though I don’t quite understand all of it,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡadhLXncpBQ
but all I know is that I won’t be able to go through with this.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMtihAgSXM
When you’re not right by my side, I don’t even mind.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvEFkw4cMG
You were so sweet, until the day that you didn’t need me.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XTjIRHVgj
I can’t keep holding onto something that isn’t real, so we’re done now.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡM76fqnPHgN
Finally accepted that I can stand on my own and live in the nowcopyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2i8HDEMPr
instead of lingering on my past mistakes and trying catch up to you.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSolc7cT3t
If you keep treating me like a toy, then you’re nothing but a piece of meat to me.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPBj52GVJW
You still have everything you stole from me and you’ve run away with it.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdZ1lHF0tv
Now I’m beyond mad, so this is me giving you a piece of my mindcopyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVnRhzYtt2
because how am I supposed to have known that you would do this?copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGSzZXBGSl
You have to actually love me if you want all of this.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡDByCDUjiUM
If you choose me, there will be no more turning back nowcopyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmIadZKctd
because I hate that you’re always so foggy-minded.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrT70T4CzX
I used to think that I should throw my life away for you,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcywObr8ul
but now they tell me to buy more meds at this point I’ll try it,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhIEsWDc97
because I’m still depressed, and it’s like you tried to kill me.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoyjvzdAbM
These cotton candy memories are bittersweet to me,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaZ6GOi7WM
and this roller coaster can’t get any higher than this.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡtS4bww8aJh
I used to love this carnival, but now I can’t stand it.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9FPtboGLA
Whenever you call me stupid for the things I do now,copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjKsqrgIzd
I remember that you’ve only ever made me change for you.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡv26AeC6mMQ
Before you tore me down, I used to use my heart instead of my mindcopyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4ZjTsvi8g
I can’t bet my heart on it, but I hope you still love me even now.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBAD404lJD
You linger with me, but I told myself that I’m done with this.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfGFPUiWh5
I keep thinking I know you, but you always change your mind.copyright protection90ＰＥＮＡＮＡMV9Lf2eKkm
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