A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!339Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI55tNP0JA
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Dear “____”8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlE9BccSCG 維尼
Dear _____,8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡkluwbjveLT 維尼
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvTYhwXPja 維尼
As my confidant, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hjT4fXjks 維尼
I trusted that you would handle them 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡDX5K47tUKE 維尼
With care. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSaiktUytY 維尼
I was always starving 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLP2If5LIQ 維尼
For your validation and encouragement. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g7c1fDPwH 維尼
You knew how I hated it 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9MvZqa4q1 維尼
When someone told me 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVXh8WrXQG 維尼
I wasn't good enough. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMwJui6bDC 維尼
Your words kept me breathing and creating. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qBr3u5LPN 維尼
You left me torn into pieces, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4fpJwY7Q9 維尼
Just like that poem I wrote for you. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRt4gLG6Qy 維尼
Remember? 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cZaDKbFWO 維尼
The one you said wasn't good enough? 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJo5hiYtYN 維尼
I write for myself, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dDjV2puQ0 維尼
But because you were so selfish, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtY4DQ1iuf 維尼
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqVSfolGlK 維尼
To what you wanted. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHGN8ZVpcr 維尼
When you were satisfied 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5WyUyzMx8 維尼
I felt whole. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7QO9GVct7 維尼
I wanted--8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLADsgZTUP 維尼
no, needed--8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRusN5K2Tu 維尼
your praise. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ETGJPBLZ 維尼
That smile, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9Ywq7UoFc 維尼
Paired with telling me what to write and how 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZaRlEkR9C 維尼
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dwkZFThQp 維尼
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VDQ8DwVNk 維尼
And I did it. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCjGtoN47G 維尼
I did it for you. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhFGRbBulz 維尼
In the end, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeI5U1CCoj 維尼
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzP2ri12yg 維尼
It was never enough. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1NwBIFYfQ 維尼
You wanted more meaning, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTotMctEUr 維尼
More eloquence, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eZdBMAuDp 維尼
More emotion, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡyif2K4d87R 維尼
More, more, more, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jO41kCsU6 維尼
Always needing more. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WgbNXV1WX 維尼
I don't know how to measure up to those expectations8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡV06Fq0WUxA 維尼
Because I don't have the strength8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiMWoBzOVP 維尼
To keep my chin up when I struggle. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhVUGt9iWN 維尼
I don't know how to keep writing 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzIPlV0uUA 維尼
For your sake 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRVimZX72g 維尼
When you're never satisfied. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1eCRDzbp3 維尼
No matter how hard I try, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtnfYKNNza 維尼
Will this ever be enough? 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQzuGmijZt 維尼
Will I ever be enough?8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz9VMqxXL4 維尼
I can't find anything to reach for now that you left8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8t7wYndVS 維尼
And at some point 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjxDMUGL2d 維尼
I lost my drive to keep going 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEQsxpz8qW 維尼
Toward what I want instead of you. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfAeKMDms8 維尼
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jqscvJM0a 維尼
And that writing was my way of doing that, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kkMQgpMZq 維尼
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW3X9afHiy 維尼
You told me it would never happen, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLWGWkUGh2 維尼
So I believed you 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjVbJqppoj 維尼
And let myself fall into the clutches of8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡAktCcowpGG 維尼
Grief and hatred 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ji60JtJ0Z 維尼
For myself, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcr4qQt4n0 維尼
For you, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdL6oQD9v7 維尼
For my future.8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXWhEOkYF7 維尼
I kept coming back to you 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡkydt9ES1yz 維尼
For my daily fix, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡatK1IZCBrG 維尼
That feeling of being complete. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4qKh50rhO 維尼
But you left me, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOIUou6wPC 維尼
And I'm writing this, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYD8zhhgwK 維尼
Trying to find something in me 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKyhSvjrlE 維尼
Other than this emptiness. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡA72lHS6xiN 維尼
I've become numb to the world 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6W3se8Dy7 維尼
Because maybe if I'm numb enough 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeaWNE8bbz 維尼
Nothing will break through and hurt me 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡZc23tR0yVZ 維尼
Like your absence does.8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFpAGD0w5b 維尼
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdw7qXJOWs 維尼
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaVGoffGTG 維尼
And those words worked into my brain8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡJU89QtlknY 維尼
And under my skin. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6H2u7GEzO 維尼
They slid under my skin 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7AyJFX323 維尼
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AU4Ucrsak 維尼
Burning me deeper and deeper. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOlH0j7K1A 維尼
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg7eEw880b 維尼
That spark burned out 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡovLBIBpOUo 維尼
And the one thing I could rely on, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFiyyl3fkx 維尼
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbaI8HWzcr 維尼
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7F1sgoDOHP 維尼
You destroyed my sanctuary, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07VhRbB3ng 維尼
lit it up like a bonfire 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzadP6npoE 維尼
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCKRsoocb3 維尼
With every strike of your tongue, 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdM5JL2DXH 維尼
My soul was broken a little more 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡTomO2ZXJJn 維尼
Until there was nothing but dust left 8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJ0gyfXhOc 維尼
And I no longer cared or had any drive.8964 copyright protection335ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpbJ1cDTet 維尼
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.339Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlVAAyy0Mm
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