A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!66Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlJbxzq1Aj
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Dear “____”copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT9V2iTOSj
Dear _____,copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡDarjDDyIDv
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡX54X2WeJ8D
As my confidant, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAxQwz9pn1
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0cakQNTzq
With care. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡowwsuypIhx
I was always starving copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡlY8SPErY3P
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MQcWa3J4C
You knew how I hated it copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡas8GVCfkkx
When someone told me copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFv1ykF0iJ
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjvGvsQycU
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmnj3jViEg
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxVlyuGeuZ
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjit0OVRm7
Remember? copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyu9RxsMQ6
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FDY1ctHqX
I write for myself, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡGohYRhMN89
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUHp4yXwlN
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡDothnutQbU
To what you wanted. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRi5P9mCXv
When you were satisfied copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSpsit1f0m
I felt whole. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ELvV8ZpYb
I wanted--copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡjM2BRSLeuJ
no, needed--copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgB9JTDK8E
your praise. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7biSGd0GDZ
That smile, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWMUyDNkSh
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ByFLhyp1H
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39Tl1Az2gd
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ289O3IsQ2k
And I did it. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86WGLHXk6Z
I did it for you. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a8Vwav5cM
In the end, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡieUs3YavOd
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXjMD5tBpA
It was never enough. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡArLJmhTRm5
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFky8owjTl
More eloquence, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJiQvWVZxk
More emotion, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8MlS8CL0Z
More, more, more, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDEccMAJ6t
Always needing more. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CdntIjoHR
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh0wDSEfEE
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡeviTHuFhdL
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡLioYFRGZgo
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0GSwjKbzo
For your sake copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNU8GBDmTQ
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F9xDOpkOG
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGGpydJipi
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡHf6BoNd197
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiM1PqQeKE
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtkBTSPDbf
And at some point copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTu2vTPJVZ
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNhDP63FlN
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡkghFRayHOK
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKDrN9kDSf
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ3TmT0pym
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTCuztF7bu
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7evy2FTFx
So I believed you copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hhcbD5b3E
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgyaL7EreP
Grief and hatred copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6WaCvchoR
For myself, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy96LkKRwN
For you, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡv344eQbSiq
For my future.copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdxEo9aBrz
I kept coming back to you copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡsh7BoSW8Js
For my daily fix, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfw0jKQuC8
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkmsYLC8m3
But you left me, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPlPrJHnRr
And I'm writing this, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNGmN06EvI
Trying to find something in me copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq3aS2Vubi
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS7UIzDpWv
I've become numb to the world copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMix86xfL2
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡYys1Jl3EQe
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡXo74iPEWfB
Like your absence does.copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5oJDwQaMB
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKaFLT0PyQ
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vfbAy1eug
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWmdGZKwaw
And under my skin. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nhi22c3SK
They slid under my skin copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWfa7QJ84d
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUaL7QLSnV
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡpviGOlJ1pB
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkx1uFRdNW
That spark burned out copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcQCYYsJRP
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡFglXWajFbI
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡhX3OYxtQLh
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡMduDPtBics
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RJtPGD8lP
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDMUsLsWBe
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡdosI2ibEAo
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IgQc5wQeS
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6vr1XcuTO
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7dbPft1T4
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection62ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0NFQZLmQ0
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.66Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50kTGaSrxJ
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