A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!282Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvOmUtWM6n
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Dear “____”copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDf86pjlj7
Dear _____,copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Rsnc0o3b5
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOS4ZzCoow
As my confidant, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86ZuXu5NdO
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLq8uUa9M3
With care. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3Z5To0BxL
I was always starving copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9636HkCMdY
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZNnOPqBF4
You knew how I hated it copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUtynmDm6S
When someone told me copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa3mUFy01R
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLbQWeepPZ
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdoX25DcWU
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hRTlce2FX
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvOgGNk0il
Remember? copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bREt6XIxK
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWcWqTRJOV
I write for myself, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡduYBt27QJL
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDmj99ciUS
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNGlT4Z3qD
To what you wanted. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxbTkpXytP
When you were satisfied copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYBJeN0PiF
I felt whole. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡrA1gQVWml0
I wanted--copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKPN0qv92V
no, needed--copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe9BWDTuzn
your praise. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pJX6sozPw
That smile, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8xxylldMj
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6YP7b3vmO
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfVOfW54l2
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzOeqnrQzG
And I did it. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuYWGYir9o
I did it for you. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMmXD0luzL
In the end, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡePKdxJBSCk
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2sJSwnfUM
It was never enough. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtBUo2Zahd
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRg2nOTapq
More eloquence, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkxjdkdFq4
More emotion, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7dx2v3WVP
More, more, more, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4Ppk2WHo7
Always needing more. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC4otmJHPs
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡzufE7hKGT4
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDYDYQOr0Y
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOlZKyVSoQ
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtM1cbJwus
For your sake copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf2vhuMYug
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhZpPF5BLp
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDUJVA6QwU
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1onjEpXsPS
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnFjMtvLeq
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSdiblvI8n
And at some point copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBpF5ZAbQ5
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡfm41ENWNEl
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uR0DNaYR6
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡErgEZ1Pos1
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9l6kM4epL
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4X2t260QVo
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡftwmWCyjLz
So I believed you copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMVU9sUgbU
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUkXWWkKqr
Grief and hatred copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQsiY7phAA
For myself, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBaMrT6ns2
For you, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9Kqhk82se
For my future.copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnFDYkxos5
I kept coming back to you copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDIHePG1f8
For my daily fix, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuaUI1ALkR
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOcox3d13l
But you left me, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvB28JyfLs
And I'm writing this, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPVuy1nBYC
Trying to find something in me copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tV2JKmG6p
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0vROmUvef
I've become numb to the world copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8o2Nd7OvLY
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbZepGyB8q
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKa9uzzbm2
Like your absence does.copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡOokEFbrR4b
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2R0Wg2eIf
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSJdki1c12
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQF09VFBVN
And under my skin. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMOxVFkEVP
They slid under my skin copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1NcChRdg2
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVixkFmgZ0
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBGZBjtijS
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYlTTbEgBG
That spark burned out copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFfeOLw2BZ
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIbTImd24m
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZvScQIH8J
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJk5xGoMmx
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡRktiotLous
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu801TgF7x
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡD23HRRnizK
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡzryphsYFFe
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡBp3VPmNsMz
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhl3HbIHJA
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection278ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPewLiE5Dw
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.282Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1RRtTarG4
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