A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLNYvCvKtl
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Dear “____”8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaaNtxOBC0 維尼
Dear _____,8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTTbO3heIK 維尼
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBTKytyYOc 維尼
As my confidant, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs8i1WhFyG 維尼
I trusted that you would handle them 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡcezed14SHB 維尼
With care. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaUrN0vBs8 維尼
I was always starving 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoxbioj3nv 維尼
For your validation and encouragement. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AqrWDFmjG 維尼
You knew how I hated it 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4wTKMI4TM 維尼
When someone told me 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JO5J6PxCh 維尼
I wasn't good enough. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyfoOw6mwv 維尼
Your words kept me breathing and creating. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwpOk0KWPq 維尼
You left me torn into pieces, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dRya8JyR9 維尼
Just like that poem I wrote for you. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ELwbTYxJU 維尼
Remember? 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHzNrijao9 維尼
The one you said wasn't good enough? 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmJGxS3xa5 維尼
I write for myself, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmMxJ6JrHG 維尼
But because you were so selfish, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nE5I5uEt4 維尼
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWks3v299d 維尼
To what you wanted. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xseCAX5ap 維尼
When you were satisfied 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAtUatKTT3 維尼
I felt whole. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84NLF9KCMx 維尼
I wanted--8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡuK5anmyFsG 維尼
no, needed--8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpz7iApRRt 維尼
your praise. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZE6dCw5c3 維尼
That smile, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuiLplCs8X 維尼
Paired with telling me what to write and how 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuS2EEpTmi 維尼
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eyFtJEefP 維尼
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkVNYmWbrD 維尼
And I did it. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8IjhAJptL 維尼
I did it for you. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKAhH52iUf 維尼
In the end, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQn9I9qoyk 維尼
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaaEMDOavA 維尼
It was never enough. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFFic9T35d 維尼
You wanted more meaning, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyKEyHf5QT 維尼
More eloquence, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGO5ngjo75 維尼
More emotion, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡlijV2Ul1vm 維尼
More, more, more, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KRZxlUczU 維尼
Always needing more. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTM6p4HZQy 維尼
I don't know how to measure up to those expectations8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡILjt0VCIuW 維尼
Because I don't have the strength8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22LbGMICKh 維尼
To keep my chin up when I struggle. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfSEjDqnA9 維尼
I don't know how to keep writing 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYaHpqChN7 維尼
For your sake 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FDpFkpaCb 維尼
When you're never satisfied. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHwosyqTF8 維尼
No matter how hard I try, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgLGHcMbbI 維尼
Will this ever be enough? 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGGWf2GVtL 維尼
Will I ever be enough?8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLxHtyXIi2 維尼
I can't find anything to reach for now that you left8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡBk5Uj7nZSa 維尼
And at some point 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYPOlkF6yd 維尼
I lost my drive to keep going 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfXj1SS7Hj 維尼
Toward what I want instead of you. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nZ1DPj1Ze 維尼
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbuv6I2dgw 維尼
And that writing was my way of doing that, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ylmtBCmf8 維尼
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfMwUhd5hb 維尼
You told me it would never happen, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFPfcF6I6f 維尼
So I believed you 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR4KpOUHWh 維尼
And let myself fall into the clutches of8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZT8VsUTtd 維尼
Grief and hatred 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY3iyFfz8l 維尼
For myself, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1vDiYzSUL 維尼
For you, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡws8gFB2Bf2 維尼
For my future.8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKsrYM0ycc 維尼
I kept coming back to you 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ug47EOwCM 維尼
For my daily fix, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wEG9zluRU 維尼
That feeling of being complete. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tvCfwuQmr 維尼
But you left me, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9MYOZMYxn 維尼
And I'm writing this, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rxfBVL94h 維尼
Trying to find something in me 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OpQvuA2jw 維尼
Other than this emptiness. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LO4iHfP2d 維尼
I've become numb to the world 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9gNP9bGb5 維尼
Because maybe if I'm numb enough 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡSckzfAOk0C 維尼
Nothing will break through and hurt me 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5ppAjzEr6 維尼
Like your absence does.8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI1ljGd7HL 維尼
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHboNr72EQ 維尼
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM8ymVz9DV 維尼
And those words worked into my brain8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdZAc94iYh 維尼
And under my skin. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaUWuDUFEK 維尼
They slid under my skin 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡeES5KHWt23 維尼
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPSOpV7fj0 維尼
Burning me deeper and deeper. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Cxua15M7g 維尼
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3kLvCN282 維尼
That spark burned out 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡch6vtMjGnx 維尼
And the one thing I could rely on, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW2zm1eIwy 維尼
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡUG7ie9QEHV 維尼
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2PkXHMm8f 維尼
You destroyed my sanctuary, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLlCe8XYEz 維尼
lit it up like a bonfire 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡErFLSLpOqD 維尼
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡG07C2LPCcJ 維尼
With every strike of your tongue, 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ASg23BEb2 維尼
My soul was broken a little more 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHxQRg1ShK 維尼
Until there was nothing but dust left 8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMeX3YojJf 維尼
And I no longer cared or had any drive.8964 copyright protection440ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo1K6LdrBR 維尼
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRTCmR3ugP
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