A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!282Please respect copyright.PENANAPvOmUtWM6n
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Dear “____”copyright protection278PENANAbDf86pjlj7
Dear _____,copyright protection278PENANA6Rsnc0o3b5
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection278PENANATOS4ZzCoow
As my confidant, copyright protection278PENANA86ZuXu5NdO
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection278PENANAbLq8uUa9M3
With care. copyright protection278PENANAH3Z5To0BxL
I was always starving copyright protection278PENANA9636HkCMdY
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection278PENANAPZNnOPqBF4
You knew how I hated it copyright protection278PENANAwUtynmDm6S
When someone told me copyright protection278PENANACa3mUFy01R
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection278PENANAfLbQWeepPZ
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection278PENANAbdoX25DcWU
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection278PENANA8hRTlce2FX
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection278PENANAnvOgGNk0il
Remember? copyright protection278PENANA3bREt6XIxK
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection278PENANACWcWqTRJOV
I write for myself, copyright protection278PENANAduYBt27QJL
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection278PENANAfDmj99ciUS
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection278PENANAMNGlT4Z3qD
To what you wanted. copyright protection278PENANAVxbTkpXytP
When you were satisfied copyright protection278PENANAfYBJeN0PiF
I felt whole. copyright protection278PENANArA1gQVWml0
I wanted--copyright protection278PENANAlKPN0qv92V
no, needed--copyright protection278PENANAFe9BWDTuzn
your praise. copyright protection278PENANA8pJX6sozPw
That smile, copyright protection278PENANAd8xxylldMj
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection278PENANAV6YP7b3vmO
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection278PENANAXfVOfW54l2
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection278PENANALzOeqnrQzG
And I did it. copyright protection278PENANANuYWGYir9o
I did it for you. copyright protection278PENANAyMmXD0luzL
In the end, copyright protection278PENANAePKdxJBSCk
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection278PENANAC2sJSwnfUM
It was never enough. copyright protection278PENANAUtBUo2Zahd
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection278PENANADRg2nOTapq
More eloquence, copyright protection278PENANAzkxjdkdFq4
More emotion, copyright protection278PENANAJ7dx2v3WVP
More, more, more, copyright protection278PENANAc4Ppk2WHo7
Always needing more. copyright protection278PENANAQC4otmJHPs
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection278PENANAzufE7hKGT4
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection278PENANAPDYDYQOr0Y
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection278PENANAIOlZKyVSoQ
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection278PENANAXtM1cbJwus
For your sake copyright protection278PENANAAf2vhuMYug
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection278PENANAvhZpPF5BLp
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection278PENANAKDUJVA6QwU
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection278PENANA1onjEpXsPS
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection278PENANAnnFjMtvLeq
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection278PENANAvSdiblvI8n
And at some point copyright protection278PENANAlBpF5ZAbQ5
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection278PENANAfm41ENWNEl
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection278PENANA1uR0DNaYR6
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection278PENANAErgEZ1Pos1
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection278PENANAC9l6kM4epL
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection278PENANA4X2t260QVo
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection278PENANAftwmWCyjLz
So I believed you copyright protection278PENANANMVU9sUgbU
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection278PENANAEUkXWWkKqr
Grief and hatred copyright protection278PENANAuQsiY7phAA
For myself, copyright protection278PENANAdBaMrT6ns2
For you, copyright protection278PENANAQ9Kqhk82se
For my future.copyright protection278PENANAlnFDYkxos5
I kept coming back to you copyright protection278PENANAZDIHePG1f8
For my daily fix, copyright protection278PENANAzuaUI1ALkR
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection278PENANArOcox3d13l
But you left me, copyright protection278PENANAdvB28JyfLs
And I'm writing this, copyright protection278PENANAxPVuy1nBYC
Trying to find something in me copyright protection278PENANA0tV2JKmG6p
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection278PENANAC0vROmUvef
I've become numb to the world copyright protection278PENANA8o2Nd7OvLY
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection278PENANAwbZepGyB8q
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection278PENANAWKa9uzzbm2
Like your absence does.copyright protection278PENANAOokEFbrR4b
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection278PENANAo2R0Wg2eIf
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection278PENANALSJdki1c12
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection278PENANAqQF09VFBVN
And under my skin. copyright protection278PENANAdMOxVFkEVP
They slid under my skin copyright protection278PENANAb1NcChRdg2
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection278PENANAUVixkFmgZ0
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection278PENANARBGZBjtijS
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection278PENANADYlTTbEgBG
That spark burned out copyright protection278PENANAPFfeOLw2BZ
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection278PENANAIIbTImd24m
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection278PENANAxZvScQIH8J
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection278PENANALJk5xGoMmx
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection278PENANARktiotLous
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection278PENANAtu801TgF7x
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection278PENANAD23HRRnizK
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection278PENANAzryphsYFFe
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection278PENANABp3VPmNsMz
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection278PENANANhl3HbIHJA
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection278PENANAPPewLiE5Dw
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.282Please respect copyright.PENANAL1RRtTarG4
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