A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscYx8TxJzn
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Dear “____”copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡPumY2kBtlj
Dear _____,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡibUkEIuerO
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KixboxhTO
As my confidant, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIiUHleiOz
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7LwrpeWEG
With care. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLq3iCsPUl
I was always starving copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs4XmLiB47
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGeWcGmrC0
You knew how I hated it copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nLyr3bTT5
When someone told me copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxykuU5Nwa
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIQ9E3P0vs
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DQMciQncJ
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrh0LLVRys
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1taSCPVsPq
Remember? copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR4MEg4uDg
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6Iv6uh2lP
I write for myself, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡuniFfVuank
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjbF5PV9kz
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzF84MClOY
To what you wanted. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjltZAotLM
When you were satisfied copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn5Z3aOZk9
I felt whole. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKIdSNZu8O
I wanted--copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk7ON6ocAa
no, needed--copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnx5nBfbAA
your praise. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8k3lcQkHZ
That smile, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ajgY7nnkX
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjl5oIGEUg
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡefoyjKLa5s
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eDsuBASZU
And I did it. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxebCCUjhO
I did it for you. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv4Z4oJPyP
In the end, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡiH3VayxKqx
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡFg4TsHvm0N
It was never enough. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAigAmEjcc
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vUcq5KYPb
More eloquence, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvsAoUhUhh
More emotion, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtS0JsnoMz
More, more, more, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV4v7vASuq
Always needing more. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30VvAjqReH
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Va2WUujih
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTcYoktZcY
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfZlLzFbrT
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBP4DLZ84h
For your sake copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXbCVzWpz8
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZonk9X0lo
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfZJjDuiLz
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaxLMslJSU
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhUfEfpBfL
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0800SkDmCp
And at some point copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdAtYmWk5O
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX59dKoCmD
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡomMonEI11l
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXy0qxnmRt
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6qggE1Ehn
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFK437JL8K
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yHFz7cWu4
So I believed you copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFaQWruX5L
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡknq4subbgk
Grief and hatred copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnTD2sLfof
For myself, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNUuEQV8N0
For you, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8olcRPo25
For my future.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYsCBu4nKs
I kept coming back to you copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3gwxUns3b
For my daily fix, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXjSjwJ8UM
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDLGfnbjKV
But you left me, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmZ2TwXhZ0
And I'm writing this, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡstYLmhh5qc
Trying to find something in me copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEQDl60wpK
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡsc7rf1YciX
I've become numb to the world copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLrcxNuPTU
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LzSpUYpro
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTAilPkj2C
Like your absence does.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfoIrVwWKp
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMaqEAkC0M
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aFBt0qNjs
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAIOj9JP6t
And under my skin. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXfpnT0Iw0
They slid under my skin copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxaa8Eayru
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1R5JFpTpeZ
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡStW8Tk2T2z
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw64GeIRMa
That spark burned out copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO1rxHQq65
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZym8sGblJ
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfgQjW42OR
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaFdCdVsD2
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡy316qay7lU
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ696Wt31vS
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH2yUELQ7p
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFsUMT4l0q
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRwpXsS1un
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm4WVZBGQI
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection77ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IoyCbrHws
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.81Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF5QdI2Eqy
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