A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WBiQacSdx
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Dear “____”copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u0s7xDXCw
Dear _____,copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ogvynEwsG
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡheiZX5waIX
As my confidant, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPswhA3UyG
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡrG5HcD4Qax
With care. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrLQrJVYUD
I was always starving copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpsoWKZ0Fy
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6eLOrpThz
You knew how I hated it copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡqP1cFsVArQ
When someone told me copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡenfHMbrLb6
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSdyD102Uh
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk7ExM6tnx
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBVyjHKLtW
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNO5ls7lv1
Remember? copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8mKMTxTmU
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGwmfQ3ZBw
I write for myself, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡWujLzFeH1J
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFR5qEYXxl
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY1okhengQ
To what you wanted. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdkeZUTdBV
When you were satisfied copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjAOo1snYZ
I felt whole. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQYLei2tGj
I wanted--copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAwDOvxIJ8
no, needed--copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGsfuRgXee
your praise. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡXX5VIkeLNU
That smile, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47uBLj6i2Q
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGwTV0KcYZ
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWXwSFR6rF
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vMv6xPdQR
And I did it. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hyzbuAWGz
I did it for you. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7vSDnyutZ
In the end, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡauuW0BuPOk
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRBfrNK1Jq
It was never enough. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEy6xct5HX
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RsANsbhhZ
More eloquence, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZRdfi0ZkK
More emotion, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUoY1Vbu1S
More, more, more, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6JUHxnSPE
Always needing more. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrDKET3FSn
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjiOhjKsOL
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgS4bzCysr
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkSR4xK7cC
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCVNqd7aGV
For your sake copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2cO6noJWQ
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9b20gzKnM
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTojGOxOZe
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVgVKnj86f
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgoaioqS9O
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡExH3RoRocR
And at some point copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWMTRxgaFm
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡpECNPVcfOm
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sULvL9nam
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNi1G9zWkf
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJTVxJRKYF
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7272NDNX1Y
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgLBisLRp6
So I believed you copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IQ0DnJu8I
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡagKhiyV6vX
Grief and hatred copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OdQqwjcnI
For myself, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuq8v4wezF
For you, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJWH1efWlK
For my future.copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqz7h0DAd1
I kept coming back to you copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡivwJE1Nbgn
For my daily fix, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡQd6MU71a4m
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYMu64vKEI
But you left me, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXdiGSju3z
And I'm writing this, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUMYHH5JRa
Trying to find something in me copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M9ShgWM0B
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMyI4fBoJF
I've become numb to the world copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBzKzhsF0j
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡP66ZYnfVag
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF25o7kZw4
Like your absence does.copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuFefevHTv
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JB7IAvYwG
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3lh8JptJV
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnpdCEr7ml
And under my skin. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn5evNP1Mm
They slid under my skin copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0p3iyMH2w
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzU2NwHeD4
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgrFvWtlYf
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFg6IyFvgH
That spark burned out copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ThWW4sEj6
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡITmazS72d5
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVKz2t8HYo
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0iFWeJpT2
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBWSLvKSyY
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRUIqWcyDb
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2bfI8urxn
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3YrVKXGDv
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBnzkNvwm9
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjbTyT22lA
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection127ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQDohy8eeM
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDn61EEaTT
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