A/N: This is part one of a two part piece of poetry. They're separate poems, but carry the same influence. I originally posted this on my journal entry piece here, but I've changed it into a letter and/or journal entry in verse. It's up to the reader to decide who "_______" is, but I had an idea in my mind when I wrote it. I'd love to hear other opinions though. As always, thanks for the patience, I've been incredibly busy with work and my lab assistant to my Advanced Creative Writing teacher. I've been majorly stressed out with a lot of work for class and trying to set up a connection between my work and LA stuff for a book signing. I'll also be doing a podcast with the author I'm building a connection with, so that should be interesting. As always, enjoy the piece, and please give feedback, it helps so much!77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rKRXU7411
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Dear “____”copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEUX2V3IMM
Dear _____,copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡayiXbB9TOj
I expressed all of my hopes and dreams to you. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡeg4G1LZoJu
As my confidant, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7j81haXkTK
I trusted that you would handle them copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74iq1t2bnQ
With care. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡvC6zi8lhw5
I was always starving copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEoVFG6D1Z
For your validation and encouragement. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡn84Fy69Bhw
You knew how I hated it copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡrN9ymsHIJd
When someone told me copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwScrySxbT
I wasn't good enough. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy2CeBInc0
Your words kept me breathing and creating. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEN3cawTSf
You left me torn into pieces, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GM0TdyLLJ
Just like that poem I wrote for you. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiiIUwjCTw
Remember? copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOaqSmAogt
The one you said wasn't good enough? copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo9qo3EXOp
I write for myself, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuHYcCuwfo
But because you were so selfish, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Sdci5zTuQ
I tried to dedicate every page I wrote copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9fwzEzeBo
To what you wanted. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhTlg6XLCc
When you were satisfied copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF5nSntsgX
I felt whole. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD6y9GcJUO
I wanted--copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y60Tm7Q8J
no, needed--copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ip8Fhw9JM
your praise. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62qdAzUNiO
That smile, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqmHrg4y7c
Paired with telling me what to write and how copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡhauHjaYPjH
Made me swallow every bit of resentment, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqJ2EkCy7V
Any bit of pain I felt for my suppressed imagination, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIlKqM0uk7
And I did it. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCibjClhsF
I did it for you. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ45J7K3Kia
In the end, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGT0qjNrO7
Even when I followed every direction I was pointed in, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvKSG4u2mW
It was never enough. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl1N48x8TQ
You wanted more meaning, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡjywczXwmpk
More eloquence, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYPeQvikyE
More emotion, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡgf0i35rBdk
More, more, more, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwSYJsWfOl
Always needing more. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjjpxaVQut
I don't know how to measure up to those expectationscopyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLJw3MBuoP
Because I don't have the strengthcopyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPmIO5aKlZ
To keep my chin up when I struggle. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VipkQAfH4
I don't know how to keep writing copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdQrJUelpC
For your sake copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡaesxXhD71Y
When you're never satisfied. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77Tpxdg7tX
No matter how hard I try, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡcca3ETYSen
Will this ever be enough? copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpCYXAfAHh
Will I ever be enough?copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPpseWFu49
I can't find anything to reach for now that you leftcopyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡshlClZwjSK
And at some point copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoakm7UBHC
I lost my drive to keep going copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgriIGfoaj
Toward what I want instead of you. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBTfWSLfL
You knew having an impact on someone's life was my dream, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡwW9GgvOb7w
And that writing was my way of doing that, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZMfivVxT6
But even when you knew about that fragile dream, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrIrkYodJD
You told me it would never happen, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfA7WRDK2K
So I believed you copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPK342y0zs
And let myself fall into the clutches ofcopyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qTPSdNgrw
Grief and hatred copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpMuxJlaun
For myself, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡULdFPiHoig
For you, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoHKdzY1Pp
For my future.copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJOkdm3ywx
I kept coming back to you copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡWria78sOwL
For my daily fix, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5maM7ol5pb
That feeling of being complete. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXUji8FlHc
But you left me, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDEcNLkgAQ
And I'm writing this, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GdcskAOq0
Trying to find something in me copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UYUeg2TCJ
Other than this emptiness. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vnLIbx2r7
I've become numb to the world copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuN7Ggsh5S
Because maybe if I'm numb enough copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5Ng01w3U9
Nothing will break through and hurt me copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1FaMnlkqN
Like your absence does.copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjhfrYwTgB
You lulled me into a feeling of comfort and trust,copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyHzOHAlKv
Then screamed words of defeat into my ears. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxwaHjx3DX
And those words worked into my braincopyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5h9lI7RCn
And under my skin. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoWaYLRy7B
They slid under my skin copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C8AMQUjTx
And lodged themselves under the surface like acid, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKDyTYh1QU
Burning me deeper and deeper. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjjmth7kPe
Your venom slowly killed all of my happiness and passion. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTR4uDUoXN
That spark burned out copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeyzNsy5uo
And the one thing I could rely on, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTHifaznvp
My ability to express myself with a pen and paper, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrjtvN6qb4
Was murdered by your verbal abuse. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7jMH7efcJ
You destroyed my sanctuary, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcCluSw4f1
lit it up like a bonfire copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡuStNlYAsoM
And watched as my life's work turned to ash. copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCUPoBXDR9
With every strike of your tongue, copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvlZQQSmV8
My soul was broken a little more copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡop0RdlPONe
Until there was nothing but dust left copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkRvag77UY
And I no longer cared or had any drive.copyright protection73ＰＥＮＡＮＡggtCgjt8Go
A/N: That's the first half of a two part poem thing. Thank you so much for reading, lovelies! I've been a little slow updating things, so I'll hopefully post a little more before the school year gets too chaotic. I also have to apply to colleges (oh my goodness I'm going to be in college soon I'm not ready to adult) so that'll take up a good amount of time too.77Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iivVzPpIw
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