那一晚，我又做了怪夢，但不像以往的內容，夢裏有一種相距現代十分久遠的感覺，就像在一次睡眠中經歷十數個夢境般，內容過於混亂到醒來後已想不起一切。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzEtQ2yxCk
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鬧鐘未響，晨霧未散，新一天已來臨。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0IUvzcYoA
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即使睡後身體沒有一絲回復，甚至更加疲倦，皮膚亦乾燥至極。總算完成四人份的早餐的另一方面，我雖疲憊卻沒有胃口，把一塊厚切白方包啃掉便前往診所上班。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMopWCY73f
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冬天的早上額外的冷，平常會以慢跑的速度暖身；今天提不起精神跑步，空肚下反卻覺得這程度的寒冷沒有太不了。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8Z3Zar3ae
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「早安。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCFnVBsnmv
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護士負責早上開業，總比我更早上班。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjKhNTlcld
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「早安⋯今天十五度欸，只穿這件夠暖嗎？」她驚訝地問道。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlNkVX2RQk
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「嗯。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaSikGJ5lE
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「別愛美不要命啊。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡad3Jd2pzaV
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「⋯這裡是？哪裏？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHINNtzXJbm
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聽這語調，「青」是剛睡醒。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2DWhszmbE
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「…剛才是醫生你的聲音嗎？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsuOCkis5L
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這樣懶散的聲音的明顯不是我。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4mRXzP9RD
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但為打圓場，只好說：「喉嚨有點怪⋯我去喝點水。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnBgda11G8
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在關上房門後，我立刻說道：「先給我記住，在別人面前不要跟我談話，更不要擅自動我的身體。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixTZarhcDL
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不知為何，跟青說話會產生莫名的不爽。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSL8Sz5gXa
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而且不像稻荷，我們只能依靠口頭對話溝通，更加麻煩。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ563rZWpdfa
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「放心吧，我作為神會有分寸的。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzc49LrvAAR
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而壞事是會接二連三的發生。到為留院動物檢查的時間，我察覺我失去了言靈。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSlHRYkceu
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既聽不到，就連這邊的溝通也出了問題，無法如常傳遞，似是完全失效。昨天也是，鈴鐺聯絡不上稻荷，祂怎麼了？334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOeV3d7dhP
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幸好的是今天的人不多，基本上是以往討厭的文書處理，惟有今天十分慶幸。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ULPCSwIJy
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下班後，一想到今後手術期間這傢伙還在體內，心裏便按捺不住不安。要是如青所說，失調來自積下的壓力的話，恐怕一輩子也不會康復。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhpz3ucaMP
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何況就憑散心，真的能解決問題嗎？334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5gq71ZXNp
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抱著疑問，我們到達目的地。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxK8ZDAZmw
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「這裏真的是維多利亞港…？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2x8hoiAUy
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一到步，青便對眼前的景觀感到驚訝。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFfypWtcH5
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全因維多利亞港海岸在近年才終於完成工程。花上數十年，相隔兩岸的海域成為半水力發電廠的一部分，兩座發電設施將眼前的海洋包圍，設施在遠方射出的燈光要比對岸的景色更耀眼，說實很煩人。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHoh0hK9cE
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「海裏空空的…是騙人的吧？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORyNrXmmMU
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「不，這就是現在。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qB47BtwXc
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「那生活在海中的大家呢…？牠們可以去了哪裡？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw2xx1s7dX
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青的聲線變得脆弱，其話語所含有的無力就像一道道玻璃碎片，刺進靈魂的深處。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinYzp8Xcsh
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面對變得如此虛弱的祂，本對祂態度強硬的自己雖感到不忍，也只好將情感吞下，道出真相。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMnlb6Pygx
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「當時是說大部分被引導並安置於新界的自然保護區，或者運到海洋生態樂園作觀賞動物。但這是門面上的話語……據後世的考察，實際上被運走的只有少於十分之一。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvRVWxFyOt
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「過去作出的犧牲無人能挽回，後世頂多立一個紀念碑。」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrUC42I8NK
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我走向該塊石碑，牠們一個一個沒有名字，只有物種名稱被刻上。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdUEorAJ2n
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「這是謊言對吧…？世上才不會有這樣荒謬的事……」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s7VO0wvA8
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我保持沉默，迫使祂面對現實。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rTeRuAamA
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「我所一直在保護的東西都不存在了嗎…？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr1PJBmL0d
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青把我使到海邊是有目的，我本已有這預感。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuETMkR4S7t
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在青的角度，累積下的重要事物突然全數消失，失落是理所當然；同時令把事實塞向祂的自己感到不知所措。若有能夠安慰失去一切之人的話語，我想馬上學會，可惜現實沒有這樣簡單。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKl79Jd4EMP
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現在能做的，只能單方面聽着衪微弱的呼吸和嘆息，似在抽拉但沒有確實的眼淚，然而光是其聲音已令內心急速降溫。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPa6yj3HJQ
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配合拂過的冷風，原來今天是如此冷的。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXxZrtXe5E
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稻荷未曾向我表露如此的感情，因此不知道附身在感情上會有聯繫。也可能因為我與稻荷的記憶總是溫暖的，有祂在身邊就覺得自己甚麼也能夠達成。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEhXJuCI9E
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這種令內臟亦感受顫抖的惡寒，倒是人生第一次。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkMaY7bHl4
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眼前空無一物的海上，發電廠的射燈掃過傳來一絲的溫暖，彷彿在提醒我們不可沉溺於過去的悲傷，然而愁雲可不是一時三刻，甚至一句話便能拂袖而去般輕薄。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44eX4PSwGg
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另一方面，不像平安夜那天，這邊的海旁總是人山人海。把臉睡面向着毫無生氣的水面，我陷入反思、回想那天的決定。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSc4E73M7il
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正確與否依然沒有頭緒。但全因為我，阿傑和阿欣的關係會變差、阿晴和阿欣亦不會再接觸，無人獲得幸福，對大家而言是最差的結果。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5h33oTVux
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然後就我一人隨便揮去煩惱，毫不在乎的生活着……我真是噁心的人。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNfGZf9DHI
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內疚換來一聲苦笑。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYyPrUXZEL
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身無一人，有堅持笑容的意義嗎？沒有，但至少我不想哭。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliJzKRr5tA
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畢竟無人關心的淚水同樣無意義。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBda1est0pO
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看膩了、站累了，亦沒有動力回家。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEgxDZssR6
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一人坐在椅子發呆下，突然有人向我搭話。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjUdXVMD1e
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「不好意思，這裏…有人坐的嗎？」334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZbbP6qy71
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向我搭話的是一名身穿西裝制服的中年女性。她手上的膠袋傳來載着鋁罐的碰撞聲，十分沉重。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2ZOf1CsjZ
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「沒有…請吧。」我一回答，她便撥一下座位的塵埃，坐下後則掏出一罐外國的啤酒，啪咔一聲拉開酒罐，豪快地大口灌着。聽着液體流過喉嚨的聲音，估計她已灌掉一半。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfFAL7WjeD
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她拿開嘴邊的酒罐後嘆了一口大氣，吹飛鬱悶。也多虧她，憂鬱的氣氛一吹而散。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UKqeHsHvm
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仔細一看，她有點面熟。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwyKKW9Duw
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我自小都不擅長背記文字，但人臉總自然地記進腦中。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUi9GO6Zbqj
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時段大概是在中學左右的……不是老師…不是熟人…至少她的衣服肯定與當時的不同，不然早認出了。334Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWZR3O384S
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「啊，妳是實技試那天的那個人…。」
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