「是嗎⋯昨天可真苦了你呢,快多吃一點吧。」429Please respect copyright.PENANA66lt0NM35i
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我不就說昨天看了一堆屍體,再吃不下…婆婆到底真的有聽我的話嗎?429Please respect copyright.PENANAvwG3mz7oFg
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昨晚發生太多事,是我人生首次報警,亦是人生首次到警局錄口供,獵人的身份也因此被查清。429Please respect copyright.PENANARLOW5UYCMi
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據說她是年輕時到外,中年時由外地回流的人。她所在的外國允許狩獵,本是她的興趣因此便做出那種事。另外我和青之間的對話被看成自言自語,她反控訴是襲擊人的瘋子,但一律被看成狂言而無視。429Please respect copyright.PENANAOp4ZlJZB8u
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事情擾攘到深夜,爸爸默默一直的在警署外等待,並且載我回家。429Please respect copyright.PENANAwfMJP8eMnr
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婆婆說:「小渚就像我,生來辛苦命⋯喂這份是她的。」媽媽打算夾的點心被婆婆拿到我面前。429Please respect copyright.PENANAo3l3CxYHJ3
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「哼,你就愛孫女,又不見我有這樣對待。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAbD4IRFRU6D
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「最好你有像小渚一半。不過幸好沒有皮外傷,雖然今次無事,下次不要自己一個去吧…昨晚知道後快要擔心死婆婆了……」429Please respect copyright.PENANATa6n5ZRePy
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「我知道了…下次不會了。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAXLmqXcwHd0
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婆婆自小很疼我,要她擔心並不好受。429Please respect copyright.PENANAn0AJDEzcME
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「做甚麼也拼命是好事,但不是真的要你去拼上性命。世上要做到的東西始終會做到。船到橋頭自然直…要學會接受命運才能令自己好過。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAJFmUfsjxZZ
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這番話已經聽過無數次,由小至大婆婆都會跟我這樣說,可能是老人家的習慣吧。429Please respect copyright.PENANAN7usc9DLfK
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(音渚…果然你還是太嫩了。)429Please respect copyright.PENANAIJdcXmkm4c
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那當然,我才二十三歲。429Please respect copyright.PENANAF0hvjaebFu
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(這與年齡無關。你婆婆從你小時候也在說,這不代表你仍沒有改變。)429Please respect copyright.PENANA60csXPt28I
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問題是媽媽的價值觀也源於婆婆,但一個是不要隨波逐流,另一個卻是船到橋頭自然直,不就矛盾了嗎?429Please respect copyright.PENANAnHBfro5fHj
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「你看她,又開始鑽無聊的牛角尖了。」婆婆說。429Please respect copyright.PENANAczL95hhNX3
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「才沒有一一」429Please respect copyright.PENANAGlRVpePg3A
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「反正在想我和婆婆為甚麼想法不同吧?不就很無聊。人人有自己的想法,你想自己喜歡那個便可以。我覺得世上的問題本身沒有太大分別,就在於自己如何理解。」媽媽附和道。429Please respect copyright.PENANAkhKs3BgCPG
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「畢竟姐姐的性格很頑固。」小月先說。429Please respect copyright.PENANAvkAJ3hhuHH
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「沒錯,是「牛皮燈籠」。」小日隨後。429Please respect copyright.PENANAzoyqlVfRI9
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明白自己如何理解、如何看待事物…正是我不擅長的領域。正因為清楚別人怎樣想,不自覺會迎合別人…一那就嘗試一下吧,把屬於自己的理解寫在紙上。429Please respect copyright.PENANAGoot3DpZjm
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那天回家後,我拿出以前的筆記本。記錄着我以前學的東西,十分懷念。429Please respect copyright.PENANA45JEMxVn1Z
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翻去空頁,在不知不覺間,我已寫滿整頁筆記,於是去下一頁,然後再下一頁。腦袋開始整合最近一切,把想到的東西都一一寫下。最後聯繫出屬於我的理解。429Please respect copyright.PENANAccHbAVl4fk
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稻荷已成了我的限制器,問題一已解決。429Please respect copyright.PENANARGyDJtF2su
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而靈力失調是由我引起,是一種「生病了」的感覺;而「青」是一種不能治本的特效藥,暫時使我失去患病的感覺。「青」的存在亦能夠被我消化,但我不想吸收她,那在那之前,只要我把祂排出體外便可以。429Please respect copyright.PENANA9UyMhkCCwU
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這就是我該做的事。429Please respect copyright.PENANAGacTRpHpU6
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既然想到便馬上決定行動,我已不想再停滯不前。429Please respect copyright.PENANAMtYyfR0y8E
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「新年快樂,這是糕點。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAPzNVYyNrTT
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今天避雨亭只有阿晴一人,她正玩格鬥遊戲,青蛙仔則在睡覺。不是冬眠,只是午覺。聽見不是客人的聲音,她連頭也沒有回。429Please respect copyright.PENANAOGNmgwYv64
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「謝謝你,先等一下。馬上就完。」話音剛落,數下操作,她便輕易取得勝利。429Please respect copyright.PENANAKGtAG4fsd1
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「你最近是不是玩太多了?最近前來都見你在玩。」429Please respect copyright.PENANALZ8GJaYXN6
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「最近沒有客人哪有辦法…都不知是好事還是壞事呢。」她答。429Please respect copyright.PENANAcytrTe1Vig
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避雨亭沒有客人,即代表無人困擾,這無疑是件好事,但靠此維生的可就頭痛。429Please respect copyright.PENANAd0GMDi3mn2
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「阿雨呢?新年都要回教會工作嗎?可真忙碌呢。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAqk8VsooQf5
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「算是吧。他去幫最近要舉辦的渡海泳辦事,也差不多回來啦。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAJy48i9Q387
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「是嗎?小日小月們好像也會參加。那我先去把糕點翻熱吧,你要哪款?」429Please respect copyright.PENANA7k7PFm2cHq
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「年糕。阿雨應該會吃蘿蔔糕的。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAozxV0ZOUDQ
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我們對話內容一如既往,圍繞日常,十分普通。429Please respect copyright.PENANAxrSCYWr6oq
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不同以往的是,我們都在害怕對上視線。429Please respect copyright.PENANANRzBswcI34
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這邊的廚房不知不覺用了數年,餐具比當初多上不少,生活感增添不少。腳趾突然撞到了硬物,幸好有在穿鞋子。429Please respect copyright.PENANA0V9yb9GoHd
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又不把買來的東西放好……429Please respect copyright.PENANAoCyFYkEaJi
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打開一看,竟是兩瓶紅酒。429Please respect copyright.PENANAw1am0GJVC8
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「有紅酒欸,有人送的嗎?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAnY68G1ilxU
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雖然我不太懂紅酒牌子,但感覺上便很高級。等等,這外裝好像看過……是平安夜喝的那款。429Please respect copyright.PENANAtUDukUjwMb
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「那是……那個是……」阿晴眼神左右遊離,不願提及,使我馬上得出答案。429Please respect copyright.PENANAj4hEeKqEHE
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「是阿傑送的吧?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAYv06SwVYTi
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她無言的點頭,並悄悄地觀察我的表情。原來阿傑的名字已成我們間的禁語,一旦提及,就像輸掉那個遊戲般。429Please respect copyright.PENANA4mGNECeAHD
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「不要狂瞄向我啦…這不就顯得我很介懷嗎?」我再說:「…都是我錯,難得你們能成為合作夥伴,又因為我使你們相處變得尷尬。阿欣的事也是……」429Please respect copyright.PENANA9dsrHRtLrZ
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我終於坦然的說出心中牽掛。429Please respect copyright.PENANAFyX5Eb9Bs6
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以前說出憂慮從不會使我放鬆,因為我一切害怕那份憂慮會影響身邊的人。429Please respect copyright.PENANAR90aiHmtJg
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明明選擇閉上嘴巴,卻渴望別人會理解自己、會突然會有援手伸出……我到底一直在幹甚麼?真是自大的傢伙。429Please respect copyright.PENANA0dCDVdn7BV
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「不是的⋯小渚沒有錯,錯的是我。」429Please respect copyright.PENANA4ku6SGSpdZ
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會對別人產生莫名的責任感,我和阿晴都有這缺點。我有自覺,而她沒有。429Please respect copyright.PENANAsbJmezRatm
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「才沒有不是。當時我沒有按照劇本。所以阿晴沒有責任。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAt6HKIlBBXO
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「才沒有不是的不是…你做的是對的…!」「因為那樣的劇本就是成品。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAj6KGGqNFcC
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作為劇本構成,她在於阿傑的想像身上犯下了錯誤。不得不說,當時飾演他的阿欣可完全捕捉他的神態,栩栩如生,甚至生動得不禁失笑,所以我們都沒生疑。429Please respect copyright.PENANASO9JUKmbC3
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在阿晴和阿傑家族立下臨時契約後,基於雙方也對對方的工作有興趣,作為友人偶然會有機會可私下聊天。429Please respect copyright.PENANAIQbS6G30eo
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事件就發生在平安夜一星期前左右。429Please respect copyright.PENANAiKtHialtKE
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「說真的,你為何要避開阿欣?真的從心底不喜歡她嗎?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAkkmjQlMFxO
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阿晴從阿欣的記憶中知道大約答案。429Please respect copyright.PENANA3jBk6rHur9
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阿傑對阿欣的方式與他一般接待不同。429Please respect copyright.PENANALwtyidz66F
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既不會虛飾自己,亦不會主動傷害她。429Please respect copyright.PENANAP5C4kIFbXL
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「你去問韋斯特馬克吧。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAx8EPQ65SKg
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韋斯特馬克效應,正是他的回答。429Please respect copyright.PENANAVIjZWGsAM5
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韋斯特馬克效應指的是由幼少時期一同長大的兒童,甚少會對成長後的彼此感到作為異性的魅力一事。要是事實真如他所說,這代表一切注定是破局。429Please respect copyright.PENANAkd8Jddi3wh
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即使我們成功提高阿欣的地位,終不會踏入愛情的領域。那對她又是另一份的殘酷,所以無論如何都是死棋,阿晴卻沒有選擇中斷,轉以失敗為前提進行一切。429Please respect copyright.PENANAemmyFED8g4
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「我把能做的事都做了,所以並不太後悔。」她為了讓我從愛情故事全身而退,同時向阿傑說好「如果今次約會完全沒有希望的話,請以後別再煩小渚」這一句。429Please respect copyright.PENANABvw64VEsZf
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不管計劃成功與否根本不重要,阿晴同樣會為我去解難。429Please respect copyright.PENANAhYbqDg2m1A
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「不過看到小渚變得這麼憔悴、聽到阿欣那麼失落的聲音、連阿傑的表情也變得消沉,我想我……」429Please respect copyright.PENANAmpeaUPq8BT
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「肯定是自以為是的傷害了朋友。」她一手抓緊自己的頭髮,再說道:「我之所接下委託…原本也打算以此和那傢伙和好的……」429Please respect copyright.PENANALOpUKdosX4
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「本來自以為蠻順利的,到最後還利用了她……我真的很賤吧。」429Please respect copyright.PENANArTSUwAVid8
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「那,我可以賞你一巴掌嗎?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAnoBhE24Qjs
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話音未落,我已動手了。429Please respect copyright.PENANA48VTXJwTbk
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這一掌十分響亮,令人驚訝般響亮。429Please respect copyright.PENANAtNn7s1stVd
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「真的…!你知道這件事煩了我多久嗎?!」429Please respect copyright.PENANAYQl7lQORLI
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我果然搞不清楚她。429Please respect copyright.PENANAVZBX8pVose
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心裏想傾出的話很多很多,生氣的部分當然少不了。429Please respect copyright.PENANAgZZNN5ifES
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「…到底為甚麼要暪我?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAkIzWBiadyN
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「因為我最重要的朋友會因為我選擇她而生氣。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAZBVjCyOzpo
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「才不對…!我才不會因為你選擇我而生氣,而是你這樣顯得你不信任我…即使你有也好。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAYUYvHQwzFm
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人際關係一切基於信任,一般友好關係是基於不會傷害對方的信任。阿晴是支持這邊的人,然而我是正正相反。429Please respect copyright.PENANA6WDYKmlxVb
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「能原諒互相傷害、添麻煩的才是朋友吧?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAoRTu49Vd1n
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「阿欣也是我的朋友,所以一起想辦法找她回來吧……阿傑也是。包括你和阿雨也是,你們全都會為我添煩,那我會原諒你們的同時再為你們添相同的麻煩。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAB1aXahExqJ
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我在她被打後紅起的臉頰上,親上一口。429Please respect copyright.PENANAbvD3vesZ8i
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我自認有很多「朋友」,但值得我託付內心的朋友不多。429Please respect copyright.PENANAda9PMinb9H
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「那就扯平了。」429Please respect copyright.PENANA7yiRzK3aA1
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「到底在幹甚麼?你們。」429Please respect copyright.PENANA7IisU4FSDt
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就在這瞬間,我感覺我死了。429Please respect copyright.PENANAY6Z4Zzi2MN
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阿雨的聲音從背後傳來,自己的妻子正被其他人親吻,即使是他,這恐怕亦是首次目睹的光景。429Please respect copyright.PENANAQP93oEN7n0
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相反阿晴在被吻後拋向含情脈脈的目光,在她的腦功能暫時混亂的同時,阿雨身上所散發靈壓把我迫上絕境。429Please respect copyright.PENANAibC0RFXSdB
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這情況下我怎樣才可以免離一死?我肯定這時在挍的腦汁比新年多上數倍。429Please respect copyright.PENANAAkNb9LJnZX
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「那個…新年快樂。」429Please respect copyright.PENANA36CWV5C5R8
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說後我便以瞬速逃到廚房,把現場交給兩人。429Please respect copyright.PENANAWDsAn35to4
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(你果然很狡猾。)429Please respect copyright.PENANAideduBhdP5
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那祢有其他更好的計策嗎?429Please respect copyright.PENANAURMSsZbThE
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(沒有。)429Please respect copyright.PENANAH5Sk6Leyt6
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那就給我閉嘴。429Please respect copyright.PENANA9tuaKVePOf
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「看…糕點好了,請慢用。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAaoJEwONacI
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即使充斥糕點的香氣,在場無人動筷。現場始至終漂浮尷尬,直至阿雨開口:「所以剛才的是甚麼?」429Please respect copyright.PENANAGzwWPxbgAl
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果然些少時間不足以蓋過他的疑慮。429Please respect copyright.PENANAa2UDYECEh5
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「女生的事不要多問,那是友情的真諦。」阿晴答。429Please respect copyright.PENANAa3hPQkhYRm
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雖是同伴,但你也不要再說會引起誤會的話。429Please respect copyright.PENANAY7RhIlkgFE
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「…原來是這樣嗎。」藉口竟然中用。429Please respect copyright.PENANAAnEdWOyzZs
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不過就這樣接受好嗎?說不定這是在外遇欸!429Please respect copyright.PENANARsDu0y5HcP
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「年糕好吃~」阿晴說道。429Please respect copyright.PENANAq8xpWnJVWX
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接吻的話題真的就此完了…反而有點寂寞。429Please respect copyright.PENANAM5YNwoWxQ2
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「蘿蔔糕也很出色…話雖如此,不要每次也一人先把年糕吃光啊。」阿雨便再說:「這數年我幾乎只吃過蘿蔔糕的說。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAMXZqRKuY2x
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「「幾乎」即不有在吃嗎?我家是先取先得的~」429Please respect copyright.PENANAkkA7rwEH1v
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「阿晴。」看到我的眼神,阿晴邊嘆氣邊說:「我懂了⋯就給你一口。」429Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ8uVX2MIk
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「來,張開口吧。」說後將一小塊年糕直接塞進阿雨的口中。429Please respect copyright.PENANAwotaCEbSKW
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阿晴對阿雨的態度由此始終也不在客氣,這由我第一次看見他們相處已這樣的想着。429Please respect copyright.PENANApGpe1s69Wy
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至少在記憶中,我從未聽過她說阿雨的好說話。基本上總是抱怨,而內心總想着如何戲弄他,想看他困擾的樣子。429Please respect copyright.PENANAPYFZpaFAK3
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恐怕就是屬於阿晴的撒嬌方式,是因為信任他,她才會這樣撒嬌,露出少許奸詐卻純粹的笑容。429Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZVMS5Ane9
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阿雨,你真的被很重視哦。429Please respect copyright.PENANAP9TiNVJCNF
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腦袋一浮起這個念頭,阿雨反向我拋來疑惑的目光。十分可笑。429Please respect copyright.PENANAlAnDQ6ztto
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如是者厭人的牽掛已一揮而去,情緒已大概穩定、加上稻荷的緣物,我應該已沒有大問題留下,因此可以正式進入切除手術,先把青放回這裏原地,即是這裏。429Please respect copyright.PENANAWAWSDgJzoj
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事情意外地順利實在太好。429Please respect copyright.PENANAW1mRjucC1v
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誰不知這一波剛平,另一波又起。429Please respect copyright.PENANAjdXLEIZGqY