我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。734Please respect copyright.PENANAUhSW7kLPpa
734Please respect copyright.PENANAnOKNlCPivv
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。734Please respect copyright.PENANABH8nWp6FnG
734Please respect copyright.PENANACDvfsPhEC4
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。734Please respect copyright.PENANA2O9OmfRRCG
734Please respect copyright.PENANA2oQ8VuWYzh
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。734Please respect copyright.PENANAgkfONonPdX
734Please respect copyright.PENANAPJxc7nsyTZ
走進了屋邨商場。734Please respect copyright.PENANAIQEuaYOv03
734Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4xUzwiFAj
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。734Please respect copyright.PENANAHOoognxvxg
734Please respect copyright.PENANAAuTkkEJUjx
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。734Please respect copyright.PENANAOgtYJ4S9OE
734Please respect copyright.PENANAzLWx6kFMis
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。734Please respect copyright.PENANAop9FejQpB8
734Please respect copyright.PENANACll3oSrmdn
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。734Please respect copyright.PENANA80u53Mhlea
734Please respect copyright.PENANArJrICNGjxi
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。734Please respect copyright.PENANAjyRSBwzgpt
734Please respect copyright.PENANAFW5z6mYIvJ
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。734Please respect copyright.PENANA2GsSyyAYoo
734Please respect copyright.PENANAmfjHRhCZRU
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。734Please respect copyright.PENANA0yN6Is6Qwr
734Please respect copyright.PENANATVPx3suvxT
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。734Please respect copyright.PENANA4gSwuoFzH0
734Please respect copyright.PENANA1iv67ZKrDu
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。734Please respect copyright.PENANAbj04YFGmp9
734Please respect copyright.PENANAmOGjpuM0vw
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。734Please respect copyright.PENANABLz80gGj4m
734Please respect copyright.PENANA9VOfPd0Lu3
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——734Please respect copyright.PENANATRWBvLBg6m
734Please respect copyright.PENANAWpmv2sN49E
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。734Please respect copyright.PENANAD0FWo8WluC
734Please respect copyright.PENANApiDRTkBbnT
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。734Please respect copyright.PENANACtvgQxvPRe
734Please respect copyright.PENANA4jB0YNfCc2
腳步還是能動。734Please respect copyright.PENANA4vFWEET2SZ
734Please respect copyright.PENANADIfS20IMU3
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。734Please respect copyright.PENANAWPto2KJ660
734Please respect copyright.PENANApJ4SbXaht0
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……734Please respect copyright.PENANA3HPlYHhGoB
734Please respect copyright.PENANAOvTdaLvQ6Z
腳步才轉向離去。734Please respect copyright.PENANANoPXweI7La
734Please respect copyright.PENANAM5zbXOGeGl
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。734Please respect copyright.PENANAwmyNUdHFzs
734Please respect copyright.PENANAr5Tg3y9JaB
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。734Please respect copyright.PENANACB9w9omSkz
734Please respect copyright.PENANA6dFwa20950
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。734Please respect copyright.PENANAgpJBtKbKzj
734Please respect copyright.PENANAdgfbU3p2DZ
但是已經不再重要。734Please respect copyright.PENANAT1ugo1Ivee
734Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6AQ8KZ41c
她騙了我。734Please respect copyright.PENANAulmCMEpG7w
734Please respect copyright.PENANAeeDqChS3uQ
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。734Please respect copyright.PENANA40zQI1EPb1
734Please respect copyright.PENANAN8MliLdPzT
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。734Please respect copyright.PENANADN4N7B4ILB
734Please respect copyright.PENANAyeVUzhjJDQ
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。734Please respect copyright.PENANAcmadAUH9zI
734Please respect copyright.PENANAkvQgGtwDmy
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。734Please respect copyright.PENANA7iAUl9dJfi
734Please respect copyright.PENANAXgo7LvRvGs
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。734Please respect copyright.PENANA2ORno1cTQh
734Please respect copyright.PENANAtxYxfDZJei
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。734Please respect copyright.PENANApzuuBo6ahs
734Please respect copyright.PENANAXs8KIitrhC
但我錯了。734Please respect copyright.PENANAS7hImGiXET
734Please respect copyright.PENANAPR58CQGNcG
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。734Please respect copyright.PENANAKqfBFYUn90
734Please respect copyright.PENANAxfINFZqwop
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。734Please respect copyright.PENANAj6PrElvqRT
734Please respect copyright.PENANA1ym6SQnzhM
眼下——734Please respect copyright.PENANAa0Vhp2BOIX
734Please respect copyright.PENANA3nwG4jcA5r
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。734Please respect copyright.PENANAgApJSI1htH
734Please respect copyright.PENANAR43Ei1Z8sg
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。734Please respect copyright.PENANASlPfo1VYld
734Please respect copyright.PENANAp7mAEkIF69
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。734Please respect copyright.PENANAcVnz6aCTnm
734Please respect copyright.PENANAVx6jEflrQo
我能夠再承受一次嗎?734Please respect copyright.PENANA64SKdv2MWP
734Please respect copyright.PENANALIYjPlfcPf
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。734Please respect copyright.PENANAFEZxkpsTXa
734Please respect copyright.PENANAeKNkO11JPp
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。734Please respect copyright.PENANAUrRz1aUK1Q
734Please respect copyright.PENANAVN7WyyxRoB
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。734Please respect copyright.PENANAtOFcTmeXMD
734Please respect copyright.PENANAwV41jFTszu
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。734Please respect copyright.PENANASC2AOqgrUs
734Please respect copyright.PENANAY8IG7k2rx3
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。734Please respect copyright.PENANAGXvGlDkPYF
734Please respect copyright.PENANASkjpzxwwNe
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。734Please respect copyright.PENANAOY83OCUauf
734Please respect copyright.PENANAiSWcIDrrb7
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。734Please respect copyright.PENANA86eUNqtP1U
734Please respect copyright.PENANAn4CMR6vf9C
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。734Please respect copyright.PENANA5Z7IFwKY3N
734Please respect copyright.PENANAgYy9ETE5m7
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。734Please respect copyright.PENANAQfZFoeteKy
734Please respect copyright.PENANAqlJ0Pyn61F
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……734Please respect copyright.PENANAIhklicJErb
734Please respect copyright.PENANApkI0aywjgJ
我樂意代勞的。734Please respect copyright.PENANAWzNGcYXABT
734Please respect copyright.PENANAdQ6d6Z0m3X
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。734Please respect copyright.PENANAEKyGtGzd39
734Please respect copyright.PENANAjZTvfw2t3v
我馬上看看後座的乘客——734Please respect copyright.PENANA7636J1vIxs
734Please respect copyright.PENANA16ABPEOvFd
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。734Please respect copyright.PENANARpE1H2YHfY
734Please respect copyright.PENANA71Zp9HgIy7
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?734Please respect copyright.PENANAz73fkBaaNt
734Please respect copyright.PENANA3lC2Ifholx
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。734Please respect copyright.PENANA6XFR0cEV9w
734Please respect copyright.PENANAMsnVezZNfs
在下午等待至日落——734Please respect copyright.PENANA6zKu4I5sap
734Please respect copyright.PENANA4fa6iWshZJ
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。734Please respect copyright.PENANA7M7ZR741s5
734Please respect copyright.PENANA7N8tUboPRk
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。734Please respect copyright.PENANAL8sTLbhbBR
734Please respect copyright.PENANAnCsFe0d7qQ
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」734Please respect copyright.PENANAfeZ3CjWv04
734Please respect copyright.PENANAX1wT14tAhY
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。734Please respect copyright.PENANAmaHPBmQT1P
734Please respect copyright.PENANAA4xiiuJrVc
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。734Please respect copyright.PENANAL9Rfw1x7xl
734Please respect copyright.PENANARDbYDU3WIE
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。734Please respect copyright.PENANAyr4W4gJtcT
734Please respect copyright.PENANA75S22bXZJU
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。734Please respect copyright.PENANA0TSnBO5BNz
734Please respect copyright.PENANAn6NtDPP4PR
「嘭——」也是不進。734Please respect copyright.PENANArrT7Uj0iHj
734Please respect copyright.PENANACFgBMHGWev
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。734Please respect copyright.PENANABBrgKnLegO
734Please respect copyright.PENANAHKor5A5TFH
漸漸出現晚霞。734Please respect copyright.PENANAjWhFQoXlCa
734Please respect copyright.PENANALpwyYqq1NH
回去吧。734Please respect copyright.PENANAyvc05N9yAO
734Please respect copyright.PENANA6BoZ3I0trJ
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。734Please respect copyright.PENANAjTvrBgNBtE
734Please respect copyright.PENANACB9TFixkSQ
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。734Please respect copyright.PENANAPuP0MwI4xy
734Please respect copyright.PENANAJd1PzgjV0k
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。734Please respect copyright.PENANAA5WyyilE8K
734Please respect copyright.PENANAiQ5LQTVFSz
背著書包,累然站起——734Please respect copyright.PENANA1R7s7kSbgE
734Please respect copyright.PENANAylgIUxOPWY
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」734Please respect copyright.PENANAIdgYr0je4Z
734Please respect copyright.PENANAn1s9Ud28yN
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。734Please respect copyright.PENANAup68NWbYxo
734Please respect copyright.PENANA7Cbw1oaPG7
最後,舉起手。734Please respect copyright.PENANA1kReTb8eic
734Please respect copyright.PENANANm0mNnun11
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。734Please respect copyright.PENANAT7Tc4reqF2
734Please respect copyright.PENANAbU8YZRkJzQ
* * *734Please respect copyright.PENANALOQcP52nSb
734Please respect copyright.PENANAJPZC6ud1br
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。734Please respect copyright.PENANA4bIjzmtdWH
734Please respect copyright.PENANATmuJd2qfdq
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。734Please respect copyright.PENANAMsyVBisNkN
734Please respect copyright.PENANAqcJRhb9eRJ
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。734Please respect copyright.PENANAu28kj1lWiv
734Please respect copyright.PENANA75GYIsPzVB
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。734Please respect copyright.PENANA9SOAjfCmkK
734Please respect copyright.PENANAEKT6PQlH0O
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。734Please respect copyright.PENANAd89oskW6bX
734Please respect copyright.PENANAwLwfEUcq6M
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。734Please respect copyright.PENANAMqKHEwmD6c
734Please respect copyright.PENANAe0jwljaima
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。734Please respect copyright.PENANAqLuxUNAHsp
734Please respect copyright.PENANAj8w0RpsfPs
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。734Please respect copyright.PENANAvAmsgst1Sn
734Please respect copyright.PENANATIzPl7NPb1
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。734Please respect copyright.PENANAeZr34qHfWn
734Please respect copyright.PENANAjpWmrZNqaZ
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。734Please respect copyright.PENANACHqgMCGwRu
734Please respect copyright.PENANAdwJ4NeiBEF
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。734Please respect copyright.PENANA27cUWku6gb
734Please respect copyright.PENANAiW192rVHsK
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。734Please respect copyright.PENANAUafMuzgCwB
734Please respect copyright.PENANAYl6fedLQpX
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。734Please respect copyright.PENANAaiRbowLYxV
734Please respect copyright.PENANAa4eAFHg7FT
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。734Please respect copyright.PENANAyWQ64NklQN
734Please respect copyright.PENANAIiIKnXGVaa
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。734Please respect copyright.PENANAGJExRrCesw
734Please respect copyright.PENANAknb1Dt1sfe
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。734Please respect copyright.PENANAWD8ZrTWGkD
734Please respect copyright.PENANAEjstblzD9e
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。734Please respect copyright.PENANAXknLoIsGHy
734Please respect copyright.PENANAD5mTG1bnfJ
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。734Please respect copyright.PENANAcdq2tyMHQJ
734Please respect copyright.PENANA92vqimDQGS
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。734Please respect copyright.PENANAymnzzkfFgZ
734Please respect copyright.PENANAKrql8480lT
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……734Please respect copyright.PENANAH82qA1JhgV
734Please respect copyright.PENANAFi5iaTrhHt
——放大瞳孔。734Please respect copyright.PENANAwdHg2XG7zX
734Please respect copyright.PENANA97WyouFzB9
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。734Please respect copyright.PENANAgvdmGcJQ9f
734Please respect copyright.PENANA1RxAAKJRh4
手機就在我的褲袋。734Please respect copyright.PENANABdSUWzmEJl
734Please respect copyright.PENANAu2DQfIFA4V
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。734Please respect copyright.PENANAokGoHnz2U4
734Please respect copyright.PENANAStHyeDFFYj
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。734Please respect copyright.PENANA0Wl6Js9mer
734Please respect copyright.PENANAC0kRq3rwPb
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。734Please respect copyright.PENANA9zBEHAMK3f
734Please respect copyright.PENANADicLzXwugj
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。734Please respect copyright.PENANAS6f83198iS
734Please respect copyright.PENANAPdUTA02jWG
那麼,打嗎?734Please respect copyright.PENANAWQmEYb9MfM
734Please respect copyright.PENANAH9zmjUVyQK
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。734Please respect copyright.PENANAKaLnUMnIY9
734Please respect copyright.PENANAJOxRTN7YQk
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?734Please respect copyright.PENANA9TjogKJkQn
734Please respect copyright.PENANAdC4zVqJIxs
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?734Please respect copyright.PENANAS7xDww7Kgt
734Please respect copyright.PENANAT92vXlBjuM
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。734Please respect copyright.PENANAXVv7Rb9GW6
734Please respect copyright.PENANAtcP758Lg3t
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。734Please respect copyright.PENANAX5b8fniXc3
734Please respect copyright.PENANAczksTVtyi6
幾度拿出手機的我——734Please respect copyright.PENANArDyaUDPFgF
734Please respect copyright.PENANAJtJwvWYInK
算吧。734Please respect copyright.PENANAALtj5FXcoY
734Please respect copyright.PENANAcTye8wBi0n
把手機放回褲袋。734Please respect copyright.PENANA1pep2Zs6dn
734Please respect copyright.PENANATDvBjkhUd7
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。734Please respect copyright.PENANAxIVzmz3pf0
734Please respect copyright.PENANA2G1KBDTFxG
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。734Please respect copyright.PENANA0y8l6q1mfH
734Please respect copyright.PENANA5auUhgVvhs
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。734Please respect copyright.PENANA4pFsDwEVwu
734Please respect copyright.PENANAHsOyyfJEtC