I feel tears running down my cheek as I climb into the tub my47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVYCb6hdMt
whole life has been lie, I should have known I am always being lied to the hot47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWp779EYHpk
water hits my skin the pain but also pleasure of the heat erupting across my47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJATMVTVYj
body I close my eyes trying to stop the tears but I can’t the first time he47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0XD2Ydt0o
told me he loved me I accused him of lying, is my life evening real or is it a47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqsBc5Fr0l
figment of my imagination, Fyodor Dostoevsky once said
“I was burning while47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhV1AwrNBt
you came blaming me for the smell of ashes”
which is exactly how my life feels either I am being lied to47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBH6x6lfO3E
or blamed for their actions something I did not do neither participated in.
I hear a knock on my door I sigh before pushing open the door
“love”
Julian whispers
“I am sorry”
“for what?”
“yelling at you I am sorry I was heartbroken and hurt and I47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwoHjA380J
was just in the moment”
“sweetheart I was never mad at you”
“but you haven’t left47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3ZvyCRWl8
your room in the past seven hours”
“that doesn’t mean I am mad”
he pulls me into his47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriTWFtRwdK
arms
“I love you”
he whispers burying his face into my neck his hot breath47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHsCuD9b40
fanning across my neck.
“we have training in an hour”
I sigh wrapping my47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4TPSr2TYd
hands around his torso
“I love you” he whispers again I will never get use to this47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhqTM9KMmj
one second, he’s telling me how much he hates me and the next he is telling me47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde3AbUCqjy
he can’t live without me.
As we walk across the stage all I can think is we are like47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8o9nHWigA
the three headed dragon one to be a murderer who will unleash death, one to be47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBjZXtwuLT
a monarch whose crown will weigh heavy, and one to be mad whose ideas will47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZlvHKXW44
change history the perfect depiction of me, Julian and Theo I will unleash47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8Cu0zA4h9
death, Julian will be a monarch and Theo’s ideas will change history, Theo47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqJbyLZ8sJ
steps forward grabbing the microphone
“hello everyone, today we will be practicing shoot and47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxjnMdoXos
stabbing and pin points on where exactly you want to hit for irremediable47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPl5lWkvK5D
damage”
“why are we doing this47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4DEo3iftZ
why don’t we all just go home and live the rest of our lives”
somebody shouts in the crowd
“because we are all going to die Fyodor Dostoevsky once said
“its better to be unhappy and know the worst than to be happy47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn6tde03dv
in a fools paradise” you signed up for this there's no leaving now”
Theo shouts the crowd47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyby67tzo1G
goes silent “let’s go”
he scowls before turning and walking off stage, well today is47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I1dtcZEQA
going to be a shit show.
My arm aches as I try to throw the machete again “are you47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cPmT1e3Q2
okay” Theo whispers
“Yup, perfectly fine”
“Are you sure?”
“No, you dumbass my arm feels like it’s about to fall off”
He laughs before saying “I thought you had used a machete47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6K8Ot3Ti2
before” “no” I scowl
“Were you lying to me47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojTfZSmemO
too” he whips his head around surprise present in his expression “what”
“Did you know about my47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHiWe8Vh7y
brain disease too” his eyes go wide
“He told you”
“Great another person47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB1blj6Zdu
who lied to me”
“Annalise-”
“No, you are suppose to be my family but you keep this from47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0y5NcsZMZL
me”
“Annalise you don’t understand last time we told you, you47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtlixY0cOf
tried to kill yourself because you thought you were killing Julian”
“what”
“When you were fifteen me and Julian told you about the47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD94HNwa4ki
disease you locked yourself in the military quarters and tried to shoot47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5QXT3nw64
yourself”
“no” I shake my head refusing to believe
“Have you ever wondered where that scar on your collarbone47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eKGEv4JkE
came from”
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I stop remembering the scar on my collarbone which is shaped47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHVXj0amjd
like a bullet “your not lying” I whisper “never was” “oh my god” I have one47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxs0G30Eml
life, yet I have lived many.
