I feel tears running down my cheek as I climb into the tub my39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9HYfPjPEN
whole life has been lie, I should have known I am always being lied to the hot39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGJkHaAn5J
water hits my skin the pain but also pleasure of the heat erupting across my39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oDdUvh00P
body I close my eyes trying to stop the tears but I can’t the first time he39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOtOfwaNFE
told me he loved me I accused him of lying, is my life evening real or is it a39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyW7NT5F37K
figment of my imagination, Fyodor Dostoevsky once said
“I was burning while39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQKQHYSySp
you came blaming me for the smell of ashes”
which is exactly how my life feels either I am being lied to39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFy392DiPWB
or blamed for their actions something I did not do neither participated in.
I hear a knock on my door I sigh before pushing open the door
“love”
Julian whispers
“I am sorry”
“for what?”
“yelling at you I am sorry I was heartbroken and hurt and I39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfI7Sfkh0Lj
was just in the moment”
“sweetheart I was never mad at you”
“but you haven’t left39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX90GikPS4
your room in the past seven hours”
“that doesn’t mean I am mad”
he pulls me into his39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRMKjmHWA3
arms
“I love you”
he whispers burying his face into my neck his hot breath39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLaOkCTlxW
fanning across my neck.
“we have training in an hour”
I sigh wrapping my39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbiDE3zG3A
hands around his torso
“I love you” he whispers again I will never get use to this39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3r3ibZDZp
one second, he’s telling me how much he hates me and the next he is telling me39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHT25UtXNW
he can’t live without me.
As we walk across the stage all I can think is we are like39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2lNNDo5C5
the three headed dragon one to be a murderer who will unleash death, one to be39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9aeDHaJ6O
a monarch whose crown will weigh heavy, and one to be mad whose ideas will39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv4NT5GYf2
change history the perfect depiction of me, Julian and Theo I will unleash39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUu7bef17y
death, Julian will be a monarch and Theo’s ideas will change history, Theo39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOSQ8kCVEk
steps forward grabbing the microphone
“hello everyone, today we will be practicing shoot and39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOx6s5JPSIo
stabbing and pin points on where exactly you want to hit for irremediable39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXIz1h2PJ6
damage”
“why are we doing this39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwanofYHd7U
why don’t we all just go home and live the rest of our lives”
somebody shouts in the crowd
“because we are all going to die Fyodor Dostoevsky once said
“its better to be unhappy and know the worst than to be happy39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZYb6gZCwK
in a fools paradise” you signed up for this there's no leaving now”
Theo shouts the crowd39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWk6dtq6mt
goes silent “let’s go”
he scowls before turning and walking off stage, well today is39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD6WopJ1gy
going to be a shit show.
My arm aches as I try to throw the machete again “are you39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIeiJGSvmm
okay” Theo whispers
“Yup, perfectly fine”
“Are you sure?”
“No, you dumbass my arm feels like it’s about to fall off”
He laughs before saying “I thought you had used a machete39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQ1qAVs74l
before” “no” I scowl
“Were you lying to me39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3J8AxjRsL
too” he whips his head around surprise present in his expression “what”
“Did you know about my39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWyCzrZEOb
brain disease too” his eyes go wide
“He told you”
“Great another person39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGHNuLelJw
who lied to me”
“Annalise-”
“No, you are suppose to be my family but you keep this from39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxw4EQgvcQ
me”
“Annalise you don’t understand last time we told you, you39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2soi7X714G
tried to kill yourself because you thought you were killing Julian”
“what”
“When you were fifteen me and Julian told you about the39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0N6myE7TB
disease you locked yourself in the military quarters and tried to shoot39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5H39ugsQ5
yourself”
“no” I shake my head refusing to believe
“Have you ever wondered where that scar on your collarbone39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3i8PWkOBx
came from”
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I stop remembering the scar on my collarbone which is shaped39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s9imEqeAt
like a bullet “your not lying” I whisper “never was” “oh my god” I have one39Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6Cy1j9LvA
life, yet I have lived many.
