Ze

They are some very strange men, why are they looking into me? And what did he mean by I'm not eating enough? I eat plenty thank you very much.

He really is thinking he can control me, well that wont happen. I'll never let a man control me... EVER!

Well he is in for a shock when i'm out drinking and maybe find a very very handsome man to bring back. 

Also what did they mean by if I know? Know what? And what am I men't to be feeling? 

All these questions and no answers, my life really is becoming weird. 

Let's forget about them and eat then send pictures of my outfit tomorrow before I quickly wash it, so it's nice and fresh for tomorrow night. Placing my food down I open some windows as it's very warm tonight, summer is coming and I can't wait. I love love the summer, the sun shining flowers blooming and the birds flying around and the little nests. 

I lay down the outfit on the side and snap a pic to send over to Isy, I know she will love it as much as me. 

"oooo sexy, you will look stunning in that" - Isy replied 

"I know can't wait" - Ze

"See you tomorrow"  - Isy

I smile with excitement for tomorrow, it's well over due and needed. This week has been one hell of a shit show. A night out with my girl dancing and drinking will turn this week around. 

Sitting down to eat my food and I can't wait as it smells delicious as my mouth waters more for it. As I take a bite a small moan leaves my lips, it's like having a food orgasm and i'm loving it. Maybe i'll admit that I don't eat loads but I eat enough, i've never been a big eater. I love food but I've never been able to binge out like most people, I wish I could but maybe it has something to be with my adaptive father. After mum died he showed me his true feeling's but also made it so I never had food. Having to either steal it or find money to buy it. 

It's something i'll need to work on more but I eat at least two meals a day, but with everyone they always push for three a day. Plus there's always snack's in so if I get abit hungry I can nibble. To be fair I enjoy eating sweet and salty popcorn while reading or watching a movie. 

I may watch one tonight to wind down after the last few day's, but first a hot bubble bath and a glass of wine. Placing my plate in the sink which I will wash in the morning, but now it's time for my hot bath. Heading to the bathroom and start running it with the bubbles and bath salts to help me relax. Lighting candles around to make it more relaxing, maybe I can sleep better tonight with luck. 

While the bath fills I grab  my pj's and get them ready on the bed, walking towards my window to lock it into a slight open. Grabbing my curtains to close them I see his shadow at his window, staring towards my room. Unsure if he can see in as my blinds are at an angel and my windows have a slight tint to them. I only have a small lamp on, maybe he can see my silhouette. 

I feel like I should move but for some reason I don't want to, almost like I can't. So standing there for a few moments watching him watching me. I'll admit he is cute and feeling like there's a pull between us, I know when he's around and the smell when he's around so calming and safe. He also make's me feel things I haven't ever felt before.

But it's also weird and terrifying, I've never known anyone to feel this kind of attraction to someone. Knowing when they are around and sensing when they are around. It's sound like something out if a book, which makes me giggle to myself. I watch as he just looks confused, I decide to keep my window wide and my curtains slightly open.

As much as he is annoying i'm very into him and there's nothing from with abit of fun, plus when I know when he's around I excites me. My body gets hot all over longing for his touch, I need him. Just thinking about how he smells, his big strong arms, makes me want to lick him all over and have his hands exploring my body. What I wouldn't do to let him lick me head to toe.

Wait no.. what am I thinking? What is wrong with me? Why am I being such a slut for a man I barely know? I say to myself 

I quickly turn to get in my bath before my thoughts get to much for me to handle, clear my wind from these thoughts. Hopefully he didn't notice how my body wants him, must be that I haven't been with a man for so long. 

I strip in the bathroom and get myself in the bath and grab my win from the side, I think I will need the bottle tonight needing to clear that man out my thoughts. I just soak my muscles in the bath filled with herbs, bubble bath and hot water, it always helps me relax clear my mind and I need it after everything that's been happening.

But strangely I don't need scared for the first time, the intruder far from my mind. But with him around I feel at ease, I feel safer then I ever have. I let the water soak into me as I keep sipping my wine, enjoying the peace.  But unable to get the man out of my head, he's invading my thoughts and I hate it.

"Why do I feel safe with you?" I say to myself out loud.

Signing feeling the bath go cold after 20 minutes I finally get out, place the now empty glass on the side and getting out as I drain the bath. Reaching for my towel I out it around me and head back into the bedroom. Not noticing my curtains are slightly open and my  lamp on, un aware that the man next door can see me. 

I grab my lotion and start with my legs, making sure there soft. I do a leg at a time putting on the bed so I can reach, slowly guiding my way from bottom to top. I start to think of the man next door, thinking about him being here. Rubbing my legs and gently kissing them from my ankle, slowly getting higher and higher. 

Why am I having such thoughts of a man I hardly know? why am I thinking of him touching my body? Why is it exciting me? 

Thinking about his eye's on me, his strong big arms, I want them around me. I want his soft lips on my skin, his tongue on my neck going down to my breast. I already know that my nipples are hard, needing his touch. His mouth on them, tasting them.

All of a sudden I just feel hot to my core, feeling a build up of arousal and then I notice a dampness between my legs, am I  wet? Slowly gliding my right hand along my lower leg, then slowly on the inside on my thigh. I feel the heat from my pussy, as I get closer I feel my own juices. 

I haven't been this turned on in so long, in all honesty I haven't been this wet before. It's like he has a spell on me, his scent doesn't help, it make's me happy and excited smelling him. I can still smell him now, it just make's my hand get closer to my wetness. slowly guiding my finger's over my lips, which are soaked as its starting to drip down my leg. 

*KNOCK KNOCK*

I jump from the banging on my door, I suddenly stop feeling annoyed that someone is interupting me right now, my face burning and no doubt red as a lobster. I wipe my fingers on my towel and pull it tighter around me. 

*KNOCK KNOCK*

I'm coming just give me a second I shout as I approach the door, taking deep breaths to calm myself down. I unlock it and open it, shocked to see the man I was just thinking about standing at my door. 

"What can I do for you?" I ask him with an annoyed tone

"As much as I was enjoying the show from your room I thought it would be best to let you know that your curtains are open and anyone can see" Jax say's back with an annoyed tone

I just go bright red with embarrassment, lump in my throat unable to speak. 

"How much did you see?" I ask and kicking myself

"Enough" Jax reply's 

He has a tone in his voice that i'm unable to put a finger on, abit of annoyance and something with longing. 

"Why was you looking?" I say back to him, crossing my hands over my chest

I see his eye's go straight to them with lust and hunger in them, I didn't realise that crossing my arm's make them push up abit. Dropping my arms slightly.

"My eye's are up here!" I say to him trying to get his attention

I notice him sniffing me from a distance and a groan leave's his lips as he look's at me. Which make's me more wet, I see abit of drool on the corner of his mouth.

"I was looking out my window at the sky, then I looked down as I was going to bed then saw you in the window. That's when I came over as it wouldn't be proper for another man to see" Jax say's as a matter of fact, with a possessive tone

"You shouldn't of looked to begin with!" I say feeling slightly annoyed yet turned on that he watched

"Close your curtains next time then people wouldn't see!" Jax reply's 

"Don't worry I will be so no more peep shows for you!" I say back to him feeling very agitated and horning at the same time

"You sure about that little one?" Jax say's as he steps closer

I look him up and down and I see he's in loose grey joggers and there's a lump right at his groin, a small moan leave's my lips looking at his size. I hope he didn't hear it, Surely that's not normal?

"Like what you see?" his voice laced with lust 

I quickly look away, and close my eye's to quickly clear my head.

"I don't know what you mean" I say to him

He has a grin on his face and lets out a small laugh.

"You was checking me out, was you thinking about me as you touched yourself? Did you want me to see? is that why you left your curtains open for me to watch as you touched yourself?" Jax say's as he gets abit closer and his face next to mine with his hot minty breath in my neck. 

His one hand on the door frame as he leans into me, he's so tall against me. He could swallow me up without any issues.

I feel myself getting more turned on every second he's there, then he lightly strokes his fingers on my shoulder and electric sparks follow with his touch, not in a bad way like in a really good way. They travel to my body making me lean into him, moving my neck to the side allowing more access to my neck. 

"Cat got your tongue? Or are you just needy for my touch little one?" Jax say's as his lips gently brush my neck 

Pull your self together women, snap out of it. Your acting like a horny slut, I take a deep breath inhaling his scent to fill my lungs. which just make's me want him more.

"Are you done? And you wish in your wildest dreams that it was for you. Or that it was over you" I say to him trying to sound confident but failing 

"I don't need to wish sweetheart, you will be begging me for it soon. And we both know who you was thinking about as your getting wetter and hornier as we speak" He say's as he licks my neck slowly. 

I step back opening my eye's trying to get a grip of myself, trying to steading my pounding heart in my chest. I wish he was pounding me right now, no stop thinking like that. I seriously need to get a grip of myself right now.

He smirks as if he can read my thoughts and that scares me a little, but he can't thank god.

"Please leave, i'll be making sure my curtains stay closed from now on. So I suggest you move your hand before I break them" I say trying to keep it together

Which is hard as the feeling of wanting him is growing and I can't sleep with him. One he's a guest and two no way when his attitude is vile. He move's his hand about to speak when I slam the door shut and lock it.

"Don't worry little one, you will be under me in no time" Jax say's as he walks away

"Not bloody likely!" I shout back as I grab the wine from the fridge and walk back into my room. 

Heading straight for the window with bottle in hand also holding my towel in place. Looking over to see if he's there and he is waiting. I give him the middle finger as I close the curtains.  I see him smiling as if he won, 'arrogant prick' I say out loud wishing he could hear me.

After closing the curtains I grab my glass and refill it, so much for a peaceful night.