暑假篇：釋懷616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKiOXRPVB5
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv39q1XCqK8
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzGYNrmGHw
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjsSTxSxe3
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW9KMSQnyl
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMKIArPJWV
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInZYDKTInl
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBSohCebhS
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIV8MqocTE
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdYsBINEuF
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbFgdA8XcX
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RAZ335kUJ
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzbyi4t6CB
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98Kmw437gy
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfpds4s1qb
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeT7ZwFnZf
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW67jpHSnB8
一種難以形容的內疚感。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhvHYp7QNg
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hgRwRHBSI
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWz9bEb1Pj
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hbuO7ziPi
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFiZP0RDBh
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXn50UXBV42
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iS9FTyx2b
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFp7eBFJzQN
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrypUWe6o6e
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g1U0D653O
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo6OZN3Y1i
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8jLRbVKle
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Fv1Bjw1Y8
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAZXjeaI3Q
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviSQMbHCnn
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M3dcr3Q33
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizhUAlCSop
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyolymXbOn8
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddqeX6QtYA
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOheaQVuYFn
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILG0I7iEPe
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3qCCY58ja
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsDAKTlMan
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedJzRNBrz1
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRWHWYCdcF
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQY809zOjH4
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5tZxvmWcf
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4048heiW2A
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscwuu0UjvQ
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfq9bKxSBu
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOxlhNUCfR
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhr5nQD7r6
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQQwIrPBbj
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci5WJpQFXg
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZglc9fs47
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEKwnv7c0T
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwBD652uqA
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPfT0JMTlt
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSwmrOJmK2
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36QVLkLRLV
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzZAEy8BWv
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuec0SZ4fpE
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpR37wa5x4
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNZdbmVsOR
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fzGIDMyuR
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFKZ4Oe5Ck
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vN9xSYIw6
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEeV6w2Ny0
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBMf2qXVe5
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3pAFG7sc4
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTyd3Za3PL
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LtcBclWSP
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WrrPY9puH
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6w1MWH7KP2
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGck7peljh
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kb2k36NFN
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJWggn8gmM
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K6oSECnDX
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKsiFc3KId
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXDA2GqF90
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLy18FZddom
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BXICuELPG
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3TE8L0qLE
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLmLIw4EwY
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoMADdPXwx
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7aHAAC19G
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0fJFlhoEO
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SDe6ljdm3
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHSi21aJM0
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenwlV1yDAV
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvH8iO5plV
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJxqiyJ8zE
甚麼原來就是我？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAzDDOtDTf
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hbYWxnUw9
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBiBJlntUk
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1rqpnN4Jf
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWjEzy9Nzk
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjoLEAHznA
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZKz2PENWb
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkjuJs3sBH
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimbHvgXwdd
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVSzD9AqpQ
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NZMMf7aTa
「到底講緊咩啦……」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOmMs57usP
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgWHqAoh59
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Uc1vjhUv0
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWN4EhPCPz
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxjdepctzn
616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58jDyaW31X
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIUm90fZ4n
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZ04l1sA1I
而且還是三個那麼多……616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXNLWZ8NAT
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7CwqsJ1ea
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~616Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkx568Fvm5
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