第一二八章：畢業營(七)559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJ4xJXgjnH
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8EfKgZQ7J
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlCakrBFjQ
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10MyqSuvJO
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX09WWraq8A
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXUCD60tYX
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKUdvDVpgh
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ufykIGIqJ
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49gb4wS4fl
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xw5cskjNV
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAYWVXcJdA
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI27ZnjjqeQ
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTGKn8885H
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFztMrYxxX
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP870muSod
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c87rMFu4p
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsZ50s3VjS
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGeEApkjby
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQgsNXVDHn
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUB8w2rrpQ
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Vf37Llclh
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb6mq31ns1
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEKHpZZw3A
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmI8Gu6AVB
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrOa7pgW2y
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGooagUmdE
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOvWg5PKCw
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdxesDqylx
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHBdcrqNRz
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUZTILCqh1
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07x9t0wve8
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaxG2idEOs
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgp090MsnBI
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP58ue7XNqa
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0qhmGIGSs
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrJnTHJYv6
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJWAHHkwDE
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbRmJVI0jh
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa3QId31Gz
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIehvMxZow
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pfDH1SVeb
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvB8gcxsW1
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEwWA8OmeV
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtJou8JgVC
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Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1chtFrUwYS
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzAwEKbmq6
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2LS6OAcSy
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVnS8EFrKy
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4utv2rMYg
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqBE4MbybQ
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu94aSlXTKc
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf1dNTsXFh
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然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuXwIVRq8R
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ukxOAlxLO
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSGUxBVMSS
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqPtXd9CbW
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDYTMBNumH
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lvESBPZ3a
「你嘅其他人喺指？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNwV9ygMET
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgrIVejCD7
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgqZG1tnzZ
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcK9p0ZY9s
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WzRaWizbX
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PuqHWYlFE
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvyRFDJgWF
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TL0rf8ciC
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yaCYjbsio
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6mzkW2V2K
是巧合？還是刻意呢？559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LdKb3wHy9
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwvgLaDDYZ
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O5rEmaDa8
「都好。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBj62OnvxJ
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfIR6btAbL
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHlis5Agvb
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvARcZ2dQH
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQcEuYy7x4
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAVmIE8ubh
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7wd10KMGN
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyw6pB3x5d1
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3AEJzRpZe
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKuhmidh6z
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