第一二八章:畢業營(七)548Please respect copyright.PENANAFmDFqPTaf0
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。548Please respect copyright.PENANAeAWrXos20W
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……548Please respect copyright.PENANAJJKEfIfq81
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。548Please respect copyright.PENANAzJPP8sEb8F
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」548Please respect copyright.PENANAnhZeMh0tyB
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。548Please respect copyright.PENANAzVQQ5XM0QQ
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」548Please respect copyright.PENANA6nggLKtAXS
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。548Please respect copyright.PENANAkiiIXYbXwD
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAu47qLVFTd3
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。548Please respect copyright.PENANAWoRJTRzhQg
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。548Please respect copyright.PENANANnPa0emaIW
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」548Please respect copyright.PENANAc80fTcCRdA
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。548Please respect copyright.PENANABvKUfTKJoE
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。548Please respect copyright.PENANAuGMGHVB7CF
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAGmwjmCuORn
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。548Please respect copyright.PENANAjAPle9Yaay
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。548Please respect copyright.PENANAAqp0X9Rmjq
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。548Please respect copyright.PENANAcH5iJlUinX
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」548Please respect copyright.PENANApgczhZKKdL
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。548Please respect copyright.PENANA5PhdECwOMh
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。548Please respect copyright.PENANALoE1msaKcn
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。548Please respect copyright.PENANA5LgWWbc8J8
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAiRLT49txTh
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。548Please respect copyright.PENANAxib5DVbVRT
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。548Please respect copyright.PENANAsIZpFXdepc
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。548Please respect copyright.PENANA1uQEoSlpAK
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。548Please respect copyright.PENANAHqBf5afbYV
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……548Please respect copyright.PENANA1o5Lo68vDE
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」548Please respect copyright.PENANAAEkNK5gEHX
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。548Please respect copyright.PENANAzzKoX0epPh
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAABqZkIVffm
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。548Please respect copyright.PENANAgyUBU96DSs
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。548Please respect copyright.PENANADgfoGLyJ0m
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。548Please respect copyright.PENANAw2EtZXrnqE
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。548Please respect copyright.PENANA6LiDYmGvVO
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。548Please respect copyright.PENANAcqC6Y18RUS
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。548Please respect copyright.PENANAkiXQwwBhLv
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。548Please respect copyright.PENANAqBWH7i14RF
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。548Please respect copyright.PENANAcLKPUowNdR
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。548Please respect copyright.PENANAgzFPk8PZDY
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。548Please respect copyright.PENANAExHeqxaCfW
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。548Please respect copyright.PENANAtE2NBQQ92B
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。548Please respect copyright.PENANAP9W0pmJ9Nw
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。548Please respect copyright.PENANA1BL1ZqMj0y
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAZLfDjIkRTs
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。548Please respect copyright.PENANAs22apZdcLo
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:548Please respect copyright.PENANARMSazCtWaI
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」548Please respect copyright.PENANALl49f7I0fv
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。548Please respect copyright.PENANA1q8D2rAMU2
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。548Please respect copyright.PENANAx2xZTdR8G4
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」548Please respect copyright.PENANAY42xytpWVh
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。548Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9SxQI8enq
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。548Please respect copyright.PENANAE15lKK2dWX
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAgWySNprkOn
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。548Please respect copyright.PENANAL1CHp9TyTN
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」548Please respect copyright.PENANAUB3h20qMYO
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。548Please respect copyright.PENANA9aea9R4RhJ
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAS6jXmLMPV5
「你嘅其他人喺指?」548Please respect copyright.PENANAtlrNV4v1Fp
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAIL1tfZQCzH
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。548Please respect copyright.PENANAOQBW4NmIGt
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。548Please respect copyright.PENANABGAQBTEoyO
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」548Please respect copyright.PENANAlUaSZF05Zw
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAjPwWGLzhZ2
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。548Please respect copyright.PENANAjYefrqnKCa
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」548Please respect copyright.PENANADRHv9tN4gd
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAUqBDWdPj79
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。548Please respect copyright.PENANAendeSgWucN
是巧合?還是刻意呢?548Please respect copyright.PENANAEQdOPQqlk8
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。548Please respect copyright.PENANA5kr5gjawgh
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:548Please respect copyright.PENANAStRh7NVUk6
「都好。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAr6oLnQCdp7
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……548Please respect copyright.PENANAcRgciQlvVa
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。548Please respect copyright.PENANAT1yWKfdDO9
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。548Please respect copyright.PENANAMYDNEQTDsu
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。548Please respect copyright.PENANAr80MQxGima
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。548Please respect copyright.PENANAx9560m1MRu
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」548Please respect copyright.PENANAic5vUkVtLL
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:548Please respect copyright.PENANAqXW31CoJan
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」548Please respect copyright.PENANA6bqvR1dxuz
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」548Please respect copyright.PENANAjMiBMsTfp7