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記者的聲音還在後頭追問,糸師冴沒有回頭。48Please respect copyright.PENANAb9pHtmUUbe
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「糸師選手,這是不是代表你與星野莉奈真的曾經交往過?」48Please respect copyright.PENANAVfIdLcQhnV
「你們在日本期間有沒有見面?」48Please respect copyright.PENANAGusUXASBwO
「她這次拿下C牌,是你推的線嗎?」48Please respect copyright.PENANAK4OwUIU4qq
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問題一個接一個地飛過來,像子彈一樣,他聽得見,臉上卻一點反應也沒有。48Please respect copyright.PENANAz8IBk7aFPD
經紀人早就擋住了鏡頭,他只管往車的方向走,眼神平靜,步伐不快也不慢。從外面看起來,什麼都沒發生。48Please respect copyright.PENANAmaoa602DRS
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「——不關我的事。」48Please respect copyright.PENANAqvFMHeSGfI
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他就是這麼說的。語氣冷靜,像背一個與自己無關的答案。48Please respect copyright.PENANAP26F6CZyl1
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這不是他第一次用這種方式回答問題。他一直都是這樣。48Please respect copyright.PENANArpzLDlLCSC
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就算過去有人問過類似的問題——他跟誰熟、和誰有關、是不是有私交、跟誰處不來——他從來不解釋。不讓任何人掌握任何破口,也不給媒體操控的機會。只用這種方式堵媒體的嘴,讓人無從下筆。48Please respect copyright.PENANAbDm9Rdjpvz
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只要表現夠好,其他都不重要。何況有些名字,根本不該從這些人嘴裡說出來。48Please respect copyright.PENANAuw5BHQv4W4
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上車、關門,玻璃隔絕了外頭的吵雜。48Please respect copyright.PENANAvOaz4cgwju
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但他現在坐在車上,視線落在窗外時,手指卻在膝蓋上無意識地敲著節奏,不規律,也不輕鬆。48Please respect copyright.PENANAS1rRKryb0n
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他低頭看了眼手機,沒有新通知。螢幕漸漸暗掉,指節卻已經繃白。48Please respect copyright.PENANAqamrKgFghM
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他以為那句話——「不關我的事」——跟以前那些拒答沒什麼兩樣。他一向就是這樣處理媒體的。不想說的,就不說;說出口的,就不補。48Please respect copyright.PENANAj6Xkd4fq5n
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可直到今天,他腦子裡還是反覆出現那句話。48Please respect copyright.PENANArMpXEXHutS
——因為妳太喜歡我了。48Please respect copyright.PENANA1xmxHkKulR
那天晚上,他是這麼回她的。48Please respect copyright.PENANAukFkyMkDXn
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他原本以為,她會再傳訊息來問——就像以前那樣。48Please respect copyright.PENANABzBi9OrPgy
她總會來找他,把話補回來,幫他說完那些他沒說出口的東西。她總是比他還清楚,他真正想說的是什麼。48Please respect copyright.PENANAbh8YlSXFMc
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但這次,她沒有。48Please respect copyright.PENANA9swehRxeJE
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他也沒有回去找她。不是不想,而是⋯⋯不知道怎麼講。48Please respect copyright.PENANA3gnJCSBCJ1
因為他一開口,事情就會變得奇怪。48Please respect copyright.PENANAOBzcsg7V8Q
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他只是想把事情說清楚而已。可每次話說一說,就像打完一場仗——總會有人渾身是傷地離開。48Please respect copyright.PENANAjisxigExUR
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凜是。48Please respect copyright.PENANAGxWXt0SRdD
莉奈也是。48Please respect copyright.PENANABLP8eAJjOJ
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而他總是搞不清楚,自己到底哪裡說錯了。他明明只是想把話說清楚而已。他不想讓他們因為他,失去原本的自我。他不該成為他們的理由——48Please respect copyright.PENANAWrHTuvFYLp
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偏偏,凜是,莉奈也是。48Please respect copyright.PENANAmAqbKquDF0
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糸師冴滑過那些新聞、那些畫面,眼神掃過她在螢幕上的每一個角度,無可挑剔——妝容完美,語氣從容,笑得剛剛好。48Please respect copyright.PENANAaRdIY6Pn2t
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像是換了一個人。48Please respect copyright.PENANAYcLAbBenX7
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又或者,她本來就一直在往那個方向走,只是他沒注意到。48Please respect copyright.PENANA5XQ4y10QOO
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『請大家不要再做無意義的揣測了——我就是我,跟任何人一點關係都沒有。』48Please respect copyright.PENANAGcFpGHR3YD
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手機上,星野莉奈眼中的光,他從沒見過。48Please respect copyright.PENANAuqvtqe4cdz
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煩死人了。糸師冴乾瞪著窗外那些被甩開的風景。48Please respect copyright.PENANASPgu9tBHxV
要不是那個藍色監獄計畫,要不是爸跟媽說凜也進去了——他早就離開這個會把人腦子拉低的國家了。48Please respect copyright.PENANA0BoNetARZB
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糸師冴回到飯店沒多久,說明會的資料就送到了房門口。48Please respect copyright.PENANAp2VA1JcwiT
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一疊整齊得幾乎不透氣的簡報本,內容是那個看似瘋狂、實則極致理性的計畫——「藍色監獄」。選拔條件、核心模型、心理測驗設計、封閉空間管理機制⋯⋯一切都乾淨得像數學。48Please respect copyright.PENANALOh8pqHJqk
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他很少對什麼事「有興趣」。但只要跟足球有關,他是真的都會讀得停不下來。48Please respect copyright.PENANA0isI2gjNqp
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裡面確實有幾個人特別「有趣」,但他不是想在裡頭挑戰什麼。他只是想看看:這個國家終於要瘋一次的時候,能瘋得多徹底。48Please respect copyright.PENANAJybpzqXCb5
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桌上的文件被翻過一頁又一頁,筆記寫了又塗掉,畫線拉到整張頁面都是。他不是來觀望的,他是在解剖——把這個計畫拆成邏輯模塊,在腦子裡一個一個配對組裝。48Please respect copyright.PENANAeGtgjO704P
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這種事,他一向擅長。48Please respect copyright.PENANA0FEzfREkHr
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有時候連經紀人傳來的訊息,他都懶得回。他沒興趣管記者怎麼剪他的話,更不在意社群上的八卦怎麼燒。48Please respect copyright.PENANAh0axor5tCP
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他不看。48Please respect copyright.PENANA8cWq5qeJxP
不看莉奈的名字,也不點她的畫面。48Please respect copyright.PENANA933L775qgk
但有一兩次,不小心掃過一個留言區,看到有人提到:「她現在笑得越來越像一個真正的模特兒了。」48Please respect copyright.PENANAtTtr7j8htD
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他的筆忽然停了一下。48Please respect copyright.PENANAiwnEEeyNNH
只一秒鐘,然後繼續寫下一條標記:密閉選拔空間的體能與情緒測壓點,能不能複製。48Please respect copyright.PENANANp4FvJi4SK
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他不是在想她。48Please respect copyright.PENANAsGH00NtxBA
他只是對那句話感到一點⋯⋯技術性好奇。就像看見某種訓練成果的進化。48Please respect copyright.PENANAChzd2vr8bB
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又有一晚,他翻到一份選手評估報告。48Please respect copyright.PENANAWvY4sbwrsm
沒有名字,只有編號:「I.R.」。測評摘要也只有幾行:年齡段、位置類型、心理參數標籤。48Please respect copyright.PENANAJVTxpp8ezY
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但他一眼就知道——那是糸師凜。48Please respect copyright.PENANAhfZvvWi0h6
那種速度分佈、決策偏向、爆發性指標,只有凜會這樣。48Please respect copyright.PENANAM6KUD0SfxZ
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本能強、爆發力高、自信心異常集中。48Please respect copyright.PENANAIwNgiDLYzT
目標導向過強,若無對照物,動機易崩解。48Please respect copyright.PENANAsmiNcHUIIY
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預測性格評語寫得冷冰冰,卻全中。48Please respect copyright.PENANAXLLskR6Q9E
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他看著那行字,突然想起凜小時候追著他跑,滿臉通紅喊:「哥哥、等我一下啦!」48Please respect copyright.PENANAXhtdTzQt6J
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他印象深刻。因為那次——48Please respect copyright.PENANAyWxCQ5G6Ou
他是故意沒回頭,想測試凜可以追多久。48Please respect copyright.PENANAoBp88xln79
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不對。48Please respect copyright.PENANAHM3cbRBQGW
那次是他發現凜亂點讚。還挑那個最故意的留言:48Please respect copyright.PENANAuIq24TwoCH
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『你們到底是不是情侶啦?』48Please respect copyright.PENANAcdqlLyRegQ
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——讚屁。48Please respect copyright.PENANALIJFR75Hmj
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他又翻了一頁,滑到另一位選手的資料時,突然想起——48Please respect copyright.PENANAMqhTSi8eOi
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莉奈也有說過一樣的話。48Please respect copyright.PENANAtQeqVVLHs0
那時她笑咧咧地說:「你走太快啦,連小凜都要喘了,我當然也跟不上啊。」48Please respect copyright.PENANAzdqKPpBEW3
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那個畫面不是想起來的,是肌肉自己記得的。是身體記得。48Please respect copyright.PENANAPVEH4oKaOv
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他停下筆,望著面前那疊簡報。過了一會兒,深深吐出一口氣。48Please respect copyright.PENANAOoLK8WrsNc
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「⋯⋯煩死人了。」48Please respect copyright.PENANAaogrtQg7LH
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他喃喃道。這幾天,他已經不知道對幾件事說過這句話了。48Please respect copyright.PENANAbyLLzcs0cp
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時鐘過了午夜十二點。照理說,他的身體應該早就進入自動關機模式——那是他在西班牙訓練出來的紀律。但他一點也不想睡。48Please respect copyright.PENANAzTCdZurFUy
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這幾晚都是這樣。從訓練場回來,洗完澡,就坐在這裡,一頭栽進資料堆裡。48Please respect copyright.PENANA7yXwfibQob
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藍色監獄的參與者檔案、剪接過的訓練片段、模擬模型,全都打開。48Please respect copyright.PENANAXhBjsqSox1
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沒有語音紀錄,也沒有完整賽評。該有的都被拿掉了——語者身分、技術細節、戰術配置,全是片段。48Please respect copyright.PENANAH1enEtheBZ
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這些東西,他理論上不該看到;更不該知道。但他還是看了。看得比裡頭任何一個參與者還拼。48Please respect copyright.PENANAtamJZdRt6b
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他不是那種愛當顧問型的人。但他就是停不下來。48Please respect copyright.PENANArUZWmi0KgZ
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畫面裡還在播那種被剪得乾乾淨淨的訓練片段。沒有聲音,沒有戰術指令,只有奔跑、傳球、進攻鏡頭。他盯著那些奔跑的影像,忽然開始懷疑——自己現在這麼拼命地拆解這個計畫,是為了什麼。48Please respect copyright.PENANAUUA0ITV094
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因為它真的值得?48Please respect copyright.PENANA9As08R023g
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還是⋯⋯只是因為,這裡沒有她,也沒有他弟。48Please respect copyright.PENANA0a7J2qTvca
所以他能全力專注。不必面對任何人,不必開口,不必解釋。也不用去想,那天她轉身時說的話。48Please respect copyright.PENANA9fEfsS1nkN
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「真的⋯⋯煩死人了。」48Please respect copyright.PENANAuZdqdYYJpp
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如果他真的覺得「沒有那兩個人」很好,那他早回西班牙了。48Please respect copyright.PENANAsH2xA1aFF4
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但他沒有。48Please respect copyright.PENANA54i3NTZ6gv
他還留在這裡。
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