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記者的聲音還在後頭追問,糸師冴沒有回頭。17Please respect copyright.PENANAYQQZpobNJH
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「糸師選手,這是不是代表你與星野莉奈真的曾經交往過?」17Please respect copyright.PENANAKfDQqHwnfo
「你們在日本期間有沒有見面?」17Please respect copyright.PENANADvMULVyHHd
「她這次拿下C牌,是你推的線嗎?」17Please respect copyright.PENANAWyeLJ7sZpM
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問題一個接一個地飛過來,像子彈一樣,他聽得見,臉上卻一點反應也沒有。17Please respect copyright.PENANApiI9t22qtP
經紀人早就擋住了鏡頭,他只管往車的方向走,眼神平靜,步伐不快也不慢。從外面看起來,什麼都沒發生。17Please respect copyright.PENANAiuRsJuX0h7
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「——不關我的事。」17Please respect copyright.PENANA6G2JOtDdWa
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他就是這麼說的。語氣冷靜,像背一個與自己無關的答案。17Please respect copyright.PENANA2jcjp0kSwr
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這不是他第一次用這種方式回答問題。他一直都是這樣。17Please respect copyright.PENANACoHBK6R3LY
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就算過去有人問過類似的問題——他跟誰熟、和誰有關、是不是有私交、跟誰處不來——他從來不解釋。不讓任何人掌握任何破口,也不給媒體操控的機會。只用這種方式堵媒體的嘴,讓人無從下筆。17Please respect copyright.PENANA4U8aYJUi3n
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只要表現夠好,其他都不重要。何況有些名字,根本不該從這些人嘴裡說出來。17Please respect copyright.PENANA7dv2wrL5op
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上車、關門,玻璃隔絕了外頭的吵雜。17Please respect copyright.PENANAmqopIrc09h
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但他現在坐在車上,視線落在窗外時,手指卻在膝蓋上無意識地敲著節奏,不規律,也不輕鬆。17Please respect copyright.PENANAY3tc2cs9Yo
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他低頭看了眼手機,沒有新通知。螢幕漸漸暗掉,指節卻已經繃白。17Please respect copyright.PENANAW7AIj3cJlS
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他以為那句話——「不關我的事」——跟以前那些拒答沒什麼兩樣。他一向就是這樣處理媒體的。不想說的,就不說;說出口的,就不補。17Please respect copyright.PENANA1ywc8ZKgxr
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可直到今天,他腦子裡還是反覆出現那句話。17Please respect copyright.PENANAkiCtDGHE4H
——因為妳太喜歡我了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAnPY1uwRr11
那天晚上,他是這麼回她的。17Please respect copyright.PENANAghPz6uGWZi
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他原本以為,她會再傳訊息來問——就像以前那樣。17Please respect copyright.PENANAuMfhBsHJOD
她總會來找他,把話補回來,幫他說完那些他沒說出口的東西。她總是比他還清楚,他真正想說的是什麼。17Please respect copyright.PENANAvulaJC1d0a
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但這次,她沒有。17Please respect copyright.PENANA3TK7zBKMcT
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他也沒有回去找她。不是不想,而是⋯⋯不知道怎麼講。17Please respect copyright.PENANArxWO4wtS4V
因為他一開口,事情就會變得奇怪。17Please respect copyright.PENANABhzywcUP94
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他只是想把事情說清楚而已。可每次話說一說,就像打完一場仗——總會有人渾身是傷地離開。17Please respect copyright.PENANA1esJae5qdH
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凜是。17Please respect copyright.PENANAJueN0sj1Hs
莉奈也是。17Please respect copyright.PENANA0v0o1ofpBy
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而他總是搞不清楚,自己到底哪裡說錯了。他明明只是想把話說清楚而已。他不想讓他們因為他,失去原本的自我。他不該成為他們的理由——17Please respect copyright.PENANAcCiz9EoBMk
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偏偏,凜是,莉奈也是。17Please respect copyright.PENANAXWwREKhg8O
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糸師冴滑過那些新聞、那些畫面,眼神掃過她在螢幕上的每一個角度,無可挑剔——妝容完美,語氣從容,笑得剛剛好。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVhKucutEUX
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像是換了一個人。17Please respect copyright.PENANAwyQFQkfFoi
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又或者,她本來就一直在往那個方向走,只是他沒注意到。17Please respect copyright.PENANAUqMJdk9YLU
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『請大家不要再做無意義的揣測了——我就是我,跟任何人一點關係都沒有。』17Please respect copyright.PENANAWIEfRSclLG
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手機上,星野莉奈眼中的光,他從沒見過。17Please respect copyright.PENANACTudRsH7H7
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煩死人了。糸師冴乾瞪著窗外那些被甩開的風景。17Please respect copyright.PENANAi6FeumyRSW
要不是那個藍色監獄計畫,要不是爸跟媽說凜也進去了——他早就離開這個會把人腦子拉低的國家了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAjKX7P8urP2
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糸師冴回到飯店沒多久,說明會的資料就送到了房門口。17Please respect copyright.PENANA1H89zU1mmK
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一疊整齊得幾乎不透氣的簡報本,內容是那個看似瘋狂、實則極致理性的計畫——「藍色監獄」。選拔條件、核心模型、心理測驗設計、封閉空間管理機制⋯⋯一切都乾淨得像數學。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtfVVEZJkPZ
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他很少對什麼事「有興趣」。但只要跟足球有關,他是真的都會讀得停不下來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVk7y0w871q
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裡面確實有幾個人特別「有趣」,但他不是想在裡頭挑戰什麼。他只是想看看:這個國家終於要瘋一次的時候,能瘋得多徹底。17Please respect copyright.PENANAqVfIjRS2h5
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桌上的文件被翻過一頁又一頁,筆記寫了又塗掉,畫線拉到整張頁面都是。他不是來觀望的,他是在解剖——把這個計畫拆成邏輯模塊,在腦子裡一個一個配對組裝。17Please respect copyright.PENANAtkRL7VX5zF
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這種事,他一向擅長。17Please respect copyright.PENANApNucapi0Jg
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有時候連經紀人傳來的訊息,他都懶得回。他沒興趣管記者怎麼剪他的話,更不在意社群上的八卦怎麼燒。17Please respect copyright.PENANA51e2M10D8X
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他不看。17Please respect copyright.PENANA72jpuiovSx
不看莉奈的名字,也不點她的畫面。17Please respect copyright.PENANA9NWAjCxjbH
但有一兩次,不小心掃過一個留言區,看到有人提到:「她現在笑得越來越像一個真正的模特兒了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAl37DfUwmep
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他的筆忽然停了一下。17Please respect copyright.PENANATRC8sidf0L
只一秒鐘,然後繼續寫下一條標記:密閉選拔空間的體能與情緒測壓點,能不能複製。17Please respect copyright.PENANALkHF9sW5px
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他不是在想她。17Please respect copyright.PENANA6xX5f5PQP2
他只是對那句話感到一點⋯⋯技術性好奇。就像看見某種訓練成果的進化。17Please respect copyright.PENANAH3vaCGHXIt
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又有一晚,他翻到一份選手評估報告。17Please respect copyright.PENANAHk83WwMk9d
沒有名字,只有編號:「I.R.」。測評摘要也只有幾行:年齡段、位置類型、心理參數標籤。17Please respect copyright.PENANA4vq4Abqmow
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但他一眼就知道——那是糸師凜。17Please respect copyright.PENANApGc80MS22n
那種速度分佈、決策偏向、爆發性指標,只有凜會這樣。17Please respect copyright.PENANAjyUm8AQOyg
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本能強、爆發力高、自信心異常集中。17Please respect copyright.PENANAJEtOyFd7t2
目標導向過強,若無對照物,動機易崩解。17Please respect copyright.PENANAyptL3K82Y8
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預測性格評語寫得冷冰冰,卻全中。17Please respect copyright.PENANAwk7iIcjrDv
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他看著那行字,突然想起凜小時候追著他跑,滿臉通紅喊:「哥哥、等我一下啦!」17Please respect copyright.PENANAvNxzjUsoJU
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他印象深刻。因為那次——17Please respect copyright.PENANA8LCMyEyyEb
他是故意沒回頭,想測試凜可以追多久。17Please respect copyright.PENANAG7Sk6hlwMT
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不對。17Please respect copyright.PENANAClQ0pXB2mx
那次是他發現凜亂點讚。還挑那個最故意的留言:17Please respect copyright.PENANAEZWjpl8yLV
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『你們到底是不是情侶啦?』17Please respect copyright.PENANAzd5ZYGjTk1
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——讚屁。17Please respect copyright.PENANAckRQvvJUhM
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他又翻了一頁,滑到另一位選手的資料時,突然想起——17Please respect copyright.PENANA3QjdHcNo53
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莉奈也有說過一樣的話。17Please respect copyright.PENANA8SS1MufmKJ
那時她笑咧咧地說:「你走太快啦,連小凜都要喘了,我當然也跟不上啊。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAupkkrxjR8p
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那個畫面不是想起來的,是肌肉自己記得的。是身體記得。17Please respect copyright.PENANA891QvXQeRI
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他停下筆,望著面前那疊簡報。過了一會兒,深深吐出一口氣。17Please respect copyright.PENANAs3T48mnX78
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「⋯⋯煩死人了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANA720ChM1N0w
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他喃喃道。這幾天,他已經不知道對幾件事說過這句話了。17Please respect copyright.PENANA5xiLRB55yx
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時鐘過了午夜十二點。照理說,他的身體應該早就進入自動關機模式——那是他在西班牙訓練出來的紀律。但他一點也不想睡。17Please respect copyright.PENANAcfw8j6H75N
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這幾晚都是這樣。從訓練場回來,洗完澡,就坐在這裡,一頭栽進資料堆裡。17Please respect copyright.PENANArnjZxBMvUM
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藍色監獄的參與者檔案、剪接過的訓練片段、模擬模型,全都打開。17Please respect copyright.PENANAEuJhj8zvny
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沒有語音紀錄,也沒有完整賽評。該有的都被拿掉了——語者身分、技術細節、戰術配置,全是片段。17Please respect copyright.PENANA1rZARLiIHa
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這些東西,他理論上不該看到;更不該知道。但他還是看了。看得比裡頭任何一個參與者還拼。17Please respect copyright.PENANAjh8XkvTcLU
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他不是那種愛當顧問型的人。但他就是停不下來。17Please respect copyright.PENANAVna0e1vPGT
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畫面裡還在播那種被剪得乾乾淨淨的訓練片段。沒有聲音,沒有戰術指令,只有奔跑、傳球、進攻鏡頭。他盯著那些奔跑的影像,忽然開始懷疑——自己現在這麼拼命地拆解這個計畫,是為了什麼。17Please respect copyright.PENANAcCHIJMCtJP
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因為它真的值得?17Please respect copyright.PENANAI05q7lX4bT
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還是⋯⋯只是因為,這裡沒有她,也沒有他弟。17Please respect copyright.PENANAnFRFtiFac4
所以他能全力專注。不必面對任何人,不必開口,不必解釋。也不用去想,那天她轉身時說的話。17Please respect copyright.PENANAK3Guk1bbY6
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「真的⋯⋯煩死人了。」17Please respect copyright.PENANAugE9GeHbtm
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如果他真的覺得「沒有那兩個人」很好,那他早回西班牙了。17Please respect copyright.PENANAFUtGLlxvwc
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但他沒有。17Please respect copyright.PENANAK30dZYPKvg
他還留在這裡。
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