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那天早上，她像是什麼都沒發生。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fLQXkbhbt
她拍完照、換完衣服，還照樣和攝影師寒暄，化妝師說她氣色比想像中好，她點點頭說：「昨晚睡滿八小時。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7ZV05UzWq
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午休時，她坐在保母車裡，看著窗外融得一半的雪。她不是不想問他回來的事。只是她突然意識到：17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5y4S9A4fTi
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如果他想讓她知道，他會說的。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1wv2haDwV
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他沒有說，那就代表——不需要她知道。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAh31YZwQX
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她不是那麼天真了。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HvZiGzEan
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當晚收工太晚，她拒絕了經紀人要開車送她回家。她把定位打開，好讓對方知道自己有平安到家。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrhp6ippzA
她拉起羽絨外套帽子，沿著熟悉的路一個人走。雪正靜靜地下著。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGMvNSezQg
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她沒有特別要去哪裡，只是腳自然而然地走向那座練習場。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7yPWhHa8x
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那是從前他們放學後最常去的地方——通常這個時候，還是會有一個人在那裡練球。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY04FgTV8HL
這四年她沒有特別去靠近這裡，因為她不知道要用什麼理由，而且她不想打擾被留下的弟弟。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebFDfXfb4z
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只是今天，她好想過去問——小凜，你知道你哥哥要回來嗎？17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3jKPnBBzA
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有回來就好。真的只要這樣嗎⋯⋯17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaEsun511a
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咻——17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfUDOHnLtP
一記完美的射門劃破空氣，靜夜裡格外清晰。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIEct8OvuG
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「⋯⋯剛才射門的路線，會不會太溫柔了？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrelWK5wpG
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遠遠的，她看到熟悉的身影——兩個。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniMmOyorcg
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她原本只是往那裡走，沒有其他預期。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0ZmZJugID
可當那記射門劃破空氣、落地聲清脆響起時——她看到他了。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EGdBgsSzn
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不是新聞裡的畫面、不是社群上的截圖。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CNs4Jf4Fk
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是糸師冴，是他本人，就站在那裡。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡng4mmNzRtl
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她的心跳重重地停了一拍，然後猛地往上一撞，像是被什麼狠狠敲了一下。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsddQuhdIbr
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她曾在心裡排演過無數次的重逢，在這一刻突然全都消失了。什麼話都說不出來，只能睜大眼睛看著他和那個已經長高不少的弟弟——17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G8t1bfxm1
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看著兩個熟悉得不能再熟悉的身影。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlquGwCI0l
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踢球的人看到來者，與其說是震驚，不如說是驚喜。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B1MOzFr9T
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「啊、哥⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepQ2tUUDgF
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糸師凜叫出口的瞬間，胸口有點發脹。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSYePtlGzG
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他笑著開口，語氣聽起來像平常一樣自然。但其實，他的手指在發熱，指尖在抖。眼前，是他從小最想追上的背影，是夢裡會出現的人——17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWRildMG8a
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糸師凜露出笑容，但糸師冴沒有。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEHi54DvxA
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哥哥常常沒有表情，但糸師凜還是分得出哥哥是沒反應還是不爽。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnJpMIfAGQ
可現在哥哥的表情⋯⋯有些奇怪。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsjrn8Iq5F
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「歡迎回來。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSKWRFeyhE
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糸師凜刻意用開朗的語氣說話。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwYJoxGRGA
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不知道是不是四年沒見的關係，他對哥哥感到幾分生疏，不過他還是很開心——哥哥回來了，真的站在自己面前了。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbb8rvQjmA
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「嗯，我回來了⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pHl2oPgOO
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相比之下，哥哥看見他好像一點開心的感覺都沒有。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaROJmsMvI5
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「哥，你是不是瘦了呀⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nu3SbHcSy
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這個人好像變了——不只是變瘦，也不只是表情冷淡。他看著哥哥，忽然覺得有點看不清楚。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxkYM0eQDz
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「或許吧⋯⋯」哥哥轉頭看向散落一地的足球。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DPotTtT0E
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「四年沒見了⋯⋯話說，你不是預計明天才回來嗎？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgBAiKGqGy
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「嗯，我提前了。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfSCxFu83t
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總覺得哥哥跟自己，有點距離。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5awqyjBPj
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「是嗎⋯⋯我經常在新聞裡看到你。你在RE·AL的青訓營比賽也有得分。哥，你好厲害⋯⋯」看著哥哥身上那股說不上的詭異感，糸師凜說起話來也小心翼翼。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd24cC62rK
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回應他的，只有無聲落下的雪。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYUiRKbruv
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「喂，凜⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXwbgwcA0M
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哥哥終於回話，糸師凜豎起耳朵，仔細聆聽。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSC9a2LqQYu
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「世界很大，還有比我更厲害的人⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7BdUlIBBj
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「是嗎——哈、怎麼突然這樣說⋯⋯」糸師凜笑著回問，捉摸不透身為天才的哥哥想表達什麼。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfkAPBn1at
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「所以我重新規劃了夢想。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKQbs6zBqu
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他看到哥哥緊緊握住手，那隻四年前他們一起擊掌的手。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvuwYFnufl
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「——成為世界第一的中場。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDBG7hIYuR
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糸師凜滿臉困惑。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdepqMK8hk
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「⋯⋯哥，你在說什麼⋯⋯？是前鋒才對吧？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I5IzD6KlH
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街燈昏黃，雪片靜靜地飄。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVhMfAeknM
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四年。 從那天機場分開，到現在，已經過了整整四年。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XNrnp68Jc
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她沒想到，會是這樣的場景。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ087PEuarUQ
兄弟沒人發現她。她就像臨時多出來的角色，被劇情忘記的配角，靜靜地站在外圈，無足輕重。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTKONXgluq
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她站得太久，腳指頭早就沒有知覺了，羽絨外套的口袋裡，手早已冰涼——她以為自己能忍住情緒，但那種被遺落的感覺，比雪更冷。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWoIPT2uYQ
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這場她等了很久的重逢，她卻不在任何人的預設之中。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXUj4vB4jH
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「哥哥你不是前鋒嗎？當世界第一中場根本就毫無意義。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBlQcXiU7B
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「少囉唆。那是沒有見識過世界水準的傢伙，才會說的話。」糸師冴的語調輕得幾乎像雪，卻冷得像霜。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn47IREAfny
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「什麼啊？」面對糸師冴的不容置喙，糸師凜當然不會接受，「你不是說要一起並肩作戰嗎？還說要讓我成為僅次於你的厲害球員？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr2ib9eqUE
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「是啊，所以我作為中場，你以前鋒的身份，邁向世界第一——」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp99C6MlNY
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「——我是世界第一前鋒的弟弟！」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY9LgAAlm2
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糸師凜大吼。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWS35Gc0M4
哥哥的表情變了——他來不及分辨那是受傷、驚訝，還是無法接受。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sItRA5j8v
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「你是為了說這些喪志話才回來的嗎？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rgdAcKvjs
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糸師凜握緊拳頭。他們約定好走向世界第一的擊掌，那掌的力度，一直留在他的手心。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWuIFMg1OK
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「我不想看到這樣的哥哥——和我一起追夢的哥哥，才不是這樣的！」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrXZOoCdVp
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她聽見糸師凜的語氣，底下藏著的是快要撐不住的質問。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciWGuXyBic
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糸師冴，表情動也沒動。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjuvoGFX1R
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她曾想過很多種重逢的畫面。擁抱、爭吵、沉默的眼神交會、再一次的三人彩蛋派對。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3ZHcETwff
而現在，兩個人立在雪中，一個撐著快崩潰的情緒大喊，一個冷靜得像事不關己。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREhlIqYU6Z
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而她，只是站在界外。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveRAzWb2VC
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她盯著糸師冴，想從那變寬的肩膀和站姿裡找回曾熟悉的他。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqBiHyxItf
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可她發現，他真的變了。不是身形變了，不是衣服變了，不是語氣變了——是整個人裡面，有什麼地方，不一樣了。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwRQ2A2f4B
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「我們之前說的都是騙人嗎？我一直握著啊！哥哥！我們的約定我一直握在手中啊！」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQbvLwEiOQ
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他的聲音幾乎要破音，像是拼命想要抓住什麼正在遠去的東西。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2ziQsouGc
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那一刻，她心頭猛地一抽。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUkuUgfZTh
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那些話，她也說過——她記得那年夏天，等了一整個暑假，卻沒有任何回音的那句「對吧」；也記得分離前一晚，自己哭天搶地；她無數次點開對話框，看著那個名字停在頂端，一句話都沒有——她告訴自己，誰都不能代替那個名字。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPxlY8Glq0
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她以為只有她一個人是這樣的。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX1REC2Tvj
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「我回來，是因為——」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwnrgn1JBz
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糸師冴停了一下，眼神掠過糸師凜的肩膀，看向她這邊——不，是看向更遠的地方。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtm3jwlY98
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「——你根本不在乎！我們明明就說好了——不做攻擊球員有什麼用⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsfO9Rcifk
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「⋯⋯我只想贏。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv0R4nNZIi
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那一瞬間，她忽然覺得比雪更冷的，是他說話的方式。乾淨、決絕，語句裡沒有他們的位置。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdOaDywSVp
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「你不要隨便放棄我們的夢想啊！」糸師凜握緊拳頭，聲音哽著。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYs4zTrmJ2q
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雪花繼續落著。糸師冴沒有馬上回應。他只是沉默地看著弟弟，像是在回應，又像什麼都沒聽見。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3I7EbKRz3
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風靜了一瞬，連空氣都不敢插嘴，所有聲音都被壓進了雪裡。他垂下視線，低聲——像在對弟弟說，也像在對某個更深的自己說：17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48FKx5U3tL
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「我現在懂了⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT8mybeNIo
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糸師冴低聲，如自語般低喃，「不論是你，還是我⋯⋯都太溫吞了。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj50zz6m5g7
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「什麼意思？」糸師凜看著哥哥。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzvaJL6VKO
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「⋯⋯球場如戰場。凜，你還沒弄懂這一點。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL7NDn4Cy0
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糸師冴站在燈光之下，和弟弟一樣綠色的瞳孔中，沒有光。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzFhhuFXNF
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「一對一，一球決勝負。如果你能在這次贏過我，我就再陪你追一次夢。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO5HoMaYyv
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他抬腳，一球順勢滾到身前——糸師冴的神情已經接近陰狠。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbdp8sJPoL
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「——但如果我贏了，我們的夢想就到此結束。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7JVeez8JA
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那是他沒見過的表情⋯⋯糸師凜冒著冷汗，臉色發白，嘴唇微顫。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsynSH8peS
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「我不要，哥哥，你不要擅自作主⋯⋯」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg5Bw7Z3BO
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「所以我不是說，只要你贏了我，就再相信一次這個夢想嗎？」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP2HA1qzF5
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糸師凜微微向後退，他強迫自己站穩腳步，視線卻模糊得不像話。他一再提醒自己，這個人是他崇拜一輩子的哥哥——可是此刻卻陌生得令人害怕。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqE8EYRojRS
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「哥哥、我不想跟你比。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgfyHtG8UQ
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一直以來他夢想的，始終都是跟哥哥並肩馳騁，從未想過要站在跟哥哥對立那面。17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PRCAamZsx
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「要開始了。」17Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGare2tbQf
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糸師冴話音一落，腳一挑，球飛起。
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