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The cane creates a small rhythm as I bring it to the linoleum floor repeatedly, creating my path as it reveals that nothing blocks my way. The presence of sunglasses sitting on the bridge of my nose have never felt so heavy as they do right now. Whether my eyes are squeezed shut or wide open, I'll never see the world in front of me.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0opN9IDAQ0
I wasn't always blind. I had beautiful, blue-green eyes that showed me the whole world and then some. I was about to get a black belt in karate and graduate college in a few years. But after one reckless night, four surgeries, and a whole day of crying after I woke up blind, I'm here, learning how to live the life of a disabled twenty-two-year-old. This seemingly empty, large room seems like the perfect place to learn.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZcLjKH2f8
"Easy, isn't it?" My trainer's voice guides me. I get it, I'm blind, but I don't need to be treated like a baby.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCwLwRs4Ek
I nod, the tapping of my cane like the pendulum of a clock, counting down how long it'll take until my new disability drives me to insanity.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFJSsTB5us
"Next, you're going to learn how to read braille with Dr. Morton and then afterwards you'll learn how to deal with crowds."copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60siMM3uOi
Why am I even here? What's the point? I should've just died in that accident. It's not fair. I try blinking rapidly behind my sunglasses, as if my vision would come back, but it's pointless. It's not fair that my trainer gets to see. It's not fair that this Dr. Morton guy can see. None of it's fair.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrV9cr1FvG
"Ms. Rogers?" I hear the sounds of my trainer's shoes against the floor as she comes to me. "Ms. Rogers is everything alright?" She repeats. I drop my cane and sag to the floor, ripping off my sunglasses and throwing them far. Far enough that I hear them bump against the wall and clatter on the ground.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZlKSODuU7
I begin to scream into my hands as I hear her approach. Closer. She tries to get her hands under my arms and we slowly rise together, my legs weakly abiding. I'm now crying, overcome with anger at the unfairness in this stupid world. She slips the cane back into my hands.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡX08pjUbmp0
I can't do this for the rest of my life. I don't want to be blind. I don't want to learn how to read braille and ask for help everywhere I go. I feel my trainer leave my side, then return shortly afterwards.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2szcE1dkx
"Ms. Rogers I have your glasses," she sounds young. Probably a little younger than me. Most likely an intern. I feel something inside of me begin to snap.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkxe4q3HUX
"Thank you," I mutter. "I'm so sorry for all this trouble." I reach out.150Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IYnIa4NYB
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"It's perfectly fine--Ow! Ma'am?!" I grab her wrist and she lets out a gasp as the wind gets knocked out of her when I slam her on the ground.150Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpjTmoEEnl
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I listen for her heavy breathing and panicked movement and begin to swing my cane down on her. Over and over again. She starts crying, still trying to escape.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDgZSkqV2k
Unfair. I slam the cane down.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRdRPv9HZO
Unfair. I hear the snapping of ribs.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv8js2Q4Xz
It's not fair. She weakly tries calling for help.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pdgp5BP0D
She lets out quiet whimpers of pain as I sit on her stomach and damaged ribs, pinning her to the ground and her arms to her side. She tries to wiggle free but she's apparently a smaller girl. Her hands try to attack me, but I press my thighs closer together, restricting her movement even more.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTvnLlTV2T
"Please," she begs. "Ma'am? Please!"copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2oSmQUcVR
Her whimpers turn into screams as I find her face and dig my fingers into her eye sockets. It's her turn to feel the pain I feel. The pain of losing her vision. The pain of having to lose them only after being alive for little time.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVhZcH5Nx5
She passes out. There's a small chance that she could die, unless from internal bleeding after me breaking her ribs. I stand up, bracing myself on my cane, and leave her, tapping the cane until I reach the door. My fingers are sticky with her blood. And my cane creates a small rhythm as I bring it to the linoleum floor repeatedly.copyright protection146ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHZX5LiYGk
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