我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXoiDepCvb
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW43ehHHyV
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwZpxdPE0P
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「咬下——」明白了。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN0E1BYjtx
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrsaQs3Q9e
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21IlloPvKx
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKjaFYaE4w
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DdWszo1hZ
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrj64tYRG6T
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLQedyTR47
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk7ksyDU1L
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArUARCQGi9
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcbSrdINRH
神是不是故意的？679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZMhXbNxFf
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT4yd0X5I4
竟然……安排這種測試給我。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WaNG4m8ab
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWWwJcr7jN
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYJDer8L7Y
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaBefWPz7H
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLdF882COI
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlD8dojWC8
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ72Sc8WPYY
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rX6Se3hLF
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJRZ3tAdid
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxfV5zcmNF
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEX5ztX2o7
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ484hmNuGfS
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw2Uw2hKEr
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlndxpvtQs
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7PtAgXgYA
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPWYXFhR9H
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpg6FOZTsM5
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjroFZ74sYg
「唔好再講喇。」我說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCe2GtL7kS
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIhzblWVWl
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEVQ9gpMWR
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv0cBoDhpT
然後我沒有再阻止她。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16Tt6kaIrz
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccrcBPV7IF
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonE59ct0TK
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPTp7cq5df
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8GtgxN95n
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1onT39TPp
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9E5qWwXMe
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFOWlOXfGw
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2Rt5cW3kT
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbgifkmx8D
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdHh6mmRNh
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWxuRp984z
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4htytDLTm
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmPXPdEltk
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVk0xWEVVC
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuacbjDZZF
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwhqIKmm4E
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARviw1rILF
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9cDywFSTi
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedvTDIWfo0
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt6N6mmpWs
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRBNGkZ6KY
我也正在難過。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7rYu5gnDf
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFaQbwp6XD
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPplbzJ7Y38
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rJ6U9KkIc
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgmSBUWYfF
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpFvAi8x5y
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPvgvZLLJa
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX3UNvFcgg
「點解？」她問。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYji606AucJ
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywWtGtWxqR
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI3umfei0U
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRkVEjKKCB
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedVzFSy0J2
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFphHML6Zm
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JIA0QOcfU
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYfwHGDtrI
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAbWHJ3J8c
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xdm7ylWoj
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP3eI1zo1z
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4kXKsjyiV
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb37hDnZE6
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfISpoYpxuE
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17P6oooUQi
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dMX2pkRWj
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oRFdau7iR
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTFfI3ETRU
這是……什麼爛方法？679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKWkBDVZgv
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1AM9H2BQU
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9Vzr9OKSm
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxWXxArfSD
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvF76i6Eock
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsb7XFKAtTv
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yagMQ9f2i
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfi7vwYbvu
「咩條件？」她問。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco0pv3E024
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IFVrW2DqC
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49U3IvhJlx
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPtfp8ZUGR
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjkDlkwrR7
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGWykbdg2D
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsbptfBvK7
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasZcm766bU
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN49uVZ74uS
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡev0dNd1NPJ
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38YLA7AO6r
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxRDBBLYTX
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6litkmOEDk
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQpZaU9Bno
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7ITsOVfX1
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRQWvfPsKr
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zLNZJ3fpq
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcL6bjIY4or
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6G0S5Ayq0P
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiadIYZJfW
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnajguqEYh
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQ0SMQ2vW2
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2XXbidQLv
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvBdV8n3Ot
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzfHeII6Ac
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB44bYF0X0
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQgAjTuHc2
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyJk0Sub25
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QIL8vAIub
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAO2zpTrG4
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh54qJNHd9e
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4cWGjrjR5
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHsna6ucsm
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxc2CNtBYs
說完，她聽完。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwG6ofUySOr
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvN0EwTQ7U
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYeEw4kVk1
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi7tAPpMwI
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTe0xVgZqL5
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKeTALAURO
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FToZgq3Jn
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCbJlMUGAN
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIyv90GPur
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdazie9H4M2
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPthSF89gbH
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmFuZvofv3
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcUHuggcoq
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhI8qIePTq
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGiRI55Mi4
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8ro2L9ppG
「陸傾兒……」我說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRZSu58oLg
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB507Tea3D
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWdlznSZ1g
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMW87KSB7dz
「揀咩都得？」我問。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OvIBQMApA
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXCcL3oqaT
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwBWn7WSSa
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFaSPKzqbT
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1XxJ3ycF4
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq3DJ49nKr
而我不懂回答。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE2Ew7yMNN
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhVlrFMR1L
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPBH6lBcgF
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiovQXB5cU
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpbe6RcvZ1
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sTViMs4DJ
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkRQdmPDWM
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Oym0MJILL
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7Gm5UavGy
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6o1qc7Ewc
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kTfBu79sv
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47DPzqFwT9
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZJKzPb8AF
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqQdROF8aN
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8nPAUhwKY
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWHhowiQoi
過後——679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh21grQAvSM
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwKRzc4W8Z
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iWRkaT2es
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YlewbOQMh
屁股坐下。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvD26RhraMD
679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsN9zzpIjC
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。679Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqO2pOH7oUq
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