我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlYb2FAElH
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUcEQeUpxE
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「咬下——」明白了。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfO3DA7U34
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoaZkwIfEU
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPguSLbStQ
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WyfzOw5hW
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYpkoEwZU4
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnP8prNvZbC
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvu2W1pVyAC
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWOEmgbNx2
神是不是故意的？692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Qlflvoy5c
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lBQnuxiVm
竟然……安排這種測試給我。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0ZaDugF0P
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWiGmOJE9G
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBHyhCbrS1
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KfNxTxwbZ
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FRdhTcXlC
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXlDZsrRkw
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYpljshyGK
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPGW14HRsO
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79QRQmTm8C
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAAJsBFSLJ
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJobzVEfU27
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQNhv0A4aR
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYVzj1vmdg
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquhouJ1FCr
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk3mC6q2tj
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzeSIbqnVR
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWpMLGP9tK
「唔好再講喇。」我說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJIWYw5ghw
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMhJ9GWAie
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcsqHchRmW
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa9MrdNQxV
然後我沒有再阻止她。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YjzkZ0qvO
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdkWvSprrP
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aztO9KP7g
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0fNaDsBja
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkOh8LfNdT
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAA76ibVndb
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIOWuKXWZV
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAIdugr81B
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NyQ4oLCH4
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRNetVXJuB
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EXHmXDLZU
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwivbvFJB1
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4k79RjMMi8
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNDW53Swdy
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8GyiBEMcR
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFPtB2ndTB
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ox6EqVcbz
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79rUCxEuUK
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0btjcarybh
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1zhdp1A30
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp5PKUfInx
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlY6gS3BNe
我也正在難過。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpWUxsqx7a
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYj1BfCDxo
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrVsFjuRqx
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIU4t73UI6
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QDJzlcotT
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73hEOEPO0J
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNCtQykW9t
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9gA5yp3vA
「點解？」她問。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv54K6ARAlT
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh3UADHWxn
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGolFbg2a6p
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLac0F1MDh3
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc7dQRvptT
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEi9NM8UstM
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkcSJ5hlYG
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJgxEwrT0S
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiQfpHSeSY
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALgUNXfgum
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LvIsi6Jh0
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQvmtbs4mW
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq7yMKXWQU
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJElFUmzXv
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfO5PDrbHl
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLt9g8zKn5
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrag1oeVeRe
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這是……什麼爛方法？692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVQjzfWEUe
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvNC24v6D0
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpbyTUYSIO
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHfySep175
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaB5fBvqRrj
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZy8pckjr1z
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgGDoze5Fa
「咩條件？」她問。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfZhM6Zt8m
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWKk6oVuwQ
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR48TeqsOX
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFRtwVAYuv
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTdJPSEwKs
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNphsF6NQb
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGv9M1ZmDe
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvoKrkcrTm
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatMikOUNNN
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWaZwhZESO
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8M0dWzUfnw
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyDjVT4clD
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡte9GsYIzl7
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQLYiyCbX9
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkynQmRryA
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0XVYaombb
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8FWaAMVrI
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3fjRlXOoj
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyg0pRTprzk
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSENjzL0he
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB4jwAu1bC
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdr0L8PZnb
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VqjCmmaer
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8UesCixaq
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQ1YFz8mD4
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDxOnVlK68
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l3vdyQI2Z
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPa0m2BbQm
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYMxrk7qID
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1eo8asFBc
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQKRwL1Xyg
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKCUvTlkL6
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNHBDcUOk5
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltQxZUySu0
說完，她聽完。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0vv7NTT8L
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgThZeWI1O2
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGR24woPHe
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVM83Enwyo
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z8kmiK7qI
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpNkTdWwgt
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymJI1oh898
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pEnjjg9in
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ8kdqGrwa
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YUi9AZRIq
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXAvaGzUGM
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcFU9OJCNP
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JfQsxsdzg
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsSmM3xwMw
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuRsAqbq1s
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xom2hzObz
「陸傾兒……」我說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJpE0GBy1c
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBJumIdqll
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanwCRQKABj
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYwH6HxhCN
「揀咩都得？」我問。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHVoAao9jU
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer6Vx94ob3
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSVhM8ajUM
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4S15K05kD
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNEXQGASBf
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruCQQ4hVcT
而我不懂回答。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAxZLYU6lx
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFJwcaTlNz
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0HrBX4TWV
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwkKj5JHCn
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76jLzsMvNP
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSawLrSQXO
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6fo8U2luH
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1qjMa1G2C
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyMXfZNuvC
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YPx3VTgAi
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH72rOwb4Xm
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWWDKcaSh4
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ca6iPYUxa
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5g0bjhJvz
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZ5Z9dVJCM
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmpxuUIkhg
過後——692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAbCqPMHSb
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3yup2edAW
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGgR5uMojL
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ313IL1vchX
屁股坐下。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tuJ5MtiDS
692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhV7FBH7I7
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。692Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJADWaJ40OM
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