我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYnUQdsnKz
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHBCdEIgTG
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3mVdmqqKK
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「咬下——」明白了。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrMUlGJP9Y
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC833JNI8G
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvpAu5dJ8p
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBCjyZ5ym8
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Lk7GFO4ZB
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctCE6GtFef
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSI7riGlcw
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3UJywP3bc
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC2WRkKuLA
神是不是故意的？690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwG4URmk8Fv
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3zqiLyQir
竟然……安排這種測試給我。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcZTgHWTQo
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4g2GhHkvD
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4XfjJeq1B
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYo7i9ivck
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78VDOYi3UK
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJr6W0OygV
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpdKcUYmFs
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauZcUsYdxM
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHx5Zohaz6
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzUmP1w6CK
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCVbZ9srf1
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3wHLhWVY8
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQ3riNtpqX
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXexRLJt0Ly
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfwuP3mkym
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmWbfCycEZ
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP7hAMhJLe
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4GuduYAXG
「唔好再講喇。」我說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRccxHytSUw
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHp70CIy3F
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v1fhZIsrI
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MX3Vfo1f2
然後我沒有再阻止她。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6ZxQRCKhx
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIM5kG3aAdW
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QcV1cwNAx
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELZGQ7gKAF
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAfVNpKhCR
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2quxpgjul
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMqisfuO7x
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVPFA21EnG
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCQ2tLk0na
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnygDB4crwP
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYjRg3UTg3
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgMt52nSVD
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzsBSr4xuw
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWZK5yglNd
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdtP4GzQ3D
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7wZTIVeBD
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOzHcfHA7n
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHvjboCToq
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGXC7NbRmM
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVnslzqcXx
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MmodJMOqt
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dwp9oc4nP
我也正在難過。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDDyRrEZWQ
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2rWj1zrTZ
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpCEAus2hF
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoSAjCv6Jf
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggtlR3dF15
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpAgsTnYdy
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiuZZVxO6k
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBAXA4g7St
「點解？」她問。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeRZro7Eue
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AJi98fK9O
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqMqyaIVoO
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8r05lmLk9
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyILDqBLKEg
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfi6E75aRc
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzjKVI8Hde
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8pQH61CId
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwGmJjRSeC
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ2WvJ2NOj
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4joP7tTym8
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUWKssksjE
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡql8IMwTwZh
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zTIdDjOjU
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCJ0vBWT9i
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs42lWTWFg
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHLS9mzF9Z
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxopiN80qC
這是……什麼爛方法？690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9p74TZUFJe
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBsBSctZUJ
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56BLskZAte
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl9a6ax3fo
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKZvmcA0zm
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBhMx5Cygb
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLTYDwTAeS
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzLlL7Nw8e
「咩條件？」她問。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBYqJfHjNo
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeQJTpvhO4
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEgxeyDlTz
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuz8CikLes
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b1NKjneRu
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg3N25c9pz
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMWtALTIIq
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz8Nia7iBj
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4CEVx3itS
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNBkMwDuWR
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpmTA8mm6Y
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTxUENqCrU
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsP3S6w7OBW
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWZEX65tPr
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD38iipdrt
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHCrUhqhic
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsEHvjRvgK
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmISGET1Cu
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsrSgL2hCE
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1wWMaebwi
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavxBRw2ZXV
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIT3rAdjlAA
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aX0PpFbJm
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04lGOkTDIZ
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEhafqQFHx
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESgbkEpPIq
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSUfiJGR2m
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuBQklYNUd
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1DwuNb7s7
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKYUVFiKnJ
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgGpQgIxXY
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM1STo3Qmh
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUU71jOM7C
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ934KgzGdXU
說完，她聽完。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDkJbvd7Xk
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOIkjbTrTf
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN5ErtQPCd
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjQMhEHZGq
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JLswIyQ6E
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb48HPs0rvZ
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBz4HdYVQyi
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGwW6grOgv
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuf16rdpXn
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4jy1HlZ4i
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMo84KDDLV
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY29rcDan9m
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA7ruKLTje
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iIYsOMKcv
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKEJ3gTZui
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkm1t85WXbE
「陸傾兒……」我說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uzVZsyWWY
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrc7BZEsUU
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRhs0kdHBp
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KRCWcgtsh
「揀咩都得？」我問。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwJtEpPhtz
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQVxfyO6Ap
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIakK4zLI4V
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfBGWA6I5e
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2lxHj9SbP
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYuDhmxY58
而我不懂回答。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOw7JG67zc
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ787yDYIwUl
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqQNPFN8nd
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpKguf7bxI
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFuTbXKYHW
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BkESWEjj2
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5j6djQMFBn
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8z0H4Rv5I
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGAJ8HlIUY
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8557hWnZ2
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQnd8wCOhV
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HQPq2bDLH
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGxdlzL1AP
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66RacVeLVg
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAF8rkFgSo
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38g0Ou5MeZ
過後——690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLh1kgDKIYQ
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIz1tM4VfKB
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfoSkzmuv1
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeTGqs5YGp
屁股坐下。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkI619UNzX
690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7LMMds87W
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZzM3Uz9db
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