Chapter twenty-six
The day speeds by and before I know it I'm getting in my car to go home. My first class was fun. The professor didn't show up, due to personal complications, so another professor basically just told us to talk amongst ourselves.
Turns out, Ben is actually hilarious and really nice. We had a really chill, natural conversation and I did end up giving him my number. I only had three classes left after that because I have four on-campus classes and two online. I did end up meeting quite a few new friends. One girl named Frankie who is just the spunkiest person I've ever met besides Skylar. Overall, I really like my classes and the campus and people. So far. The campus is big and has a lot of trees and benches. Reminds me of a park with buildings in it. I usually always have that one class that I hate but all my classes are pretty good. I only have two assignments to do so that's nice.
I start my car and take my, almost dead, phone out of my backpack. As soon as I turn it on I see a text from Matt. Yay!
How was your day, beautiful? I smile at the cute text. Why is he being so damn nice today? I love it. I remember about Matt wanting to take me out. I wanted to go but I have assignments to do so I decide against it.
Why are you being so nice? Also, my day was really good. I met a few new people and my classes were all pretty good. Wbu? he doesn't respond instantly so I put my phone back in my backpack and pull out of the parking lot. To the dorm rooms!
I walk into the room and see Skylar on the bed writing something.
"Hey! How was your day?" she asks. I put my bag on the floor and take off my shoes.
"Really good. Matt got me breakfast in the morning and my first class we didn't have to do anything because the professor wasn't there. After that all my classes went smoothly." she sits up and smiles smugly.
"Matt got you breakfast?" I take my phone out of my bag and sit on the edge of my bed.
"Yeah."
"Okay, not gonna lie, I don't really like him but he is so not himself with you. One time he hooked up one of my friends and then blocked her the next day. But here he is getting you breakfast. Wow." she tells me. I cringe at the statement.
"He did that to someone? Who?"
"Her name's Allie. I don't think she was too surprised. Although a lot of girls throw themselves at him and end up falling in love, nobody really expects to get anything out of it except sex."
"Women have fallen in love with him?"
"Oh yeah. A lot. I don't think he's a really nice person. I honestly think he's different with you but you should still stay away from him. I don't want him to break your heart like he did all those other girls." I hear a knock on the door. I stuff my phone in my back pocket and stand up.
"I'll get it." I open the door and see Matt leaning on the door frame.
"You didn't answer my text," he says blankly. I turn and look at Skylar and she gives me a cautionary look.
"Yeah, I just got back and was talking to Skylar. What happened?" He glances at Skylar and swiftly pulls me out into the hallway by the arm and shuts the door. I should've known him being nice was never going to last.
"You said you were going to let me take you somewhere today," he whispers loudly.
"I can't. I have a lot to do. Like, a lot. I have to call my mom and do all this shit. I would love to but I can't." he gives me an exasperated look.
"Okay. Can I get some food for you at least?"
"You got breakfast for me."
"I don't give a shit. C'mon. We'll just get some takeout and then I'll bring you back. Really quick. Please, baby." he pleads.
"Why do you want me to come with you so badly?" I'm curious as to why Mr. I-don't-date wants to hang out with me so badly.
"Is this about sex? Is that what you want from me?" I say accusingly. I don't know why that was the first thing that popped into my mind. He gives me a disgusted look.
"Of course not. I thought I made that clear from the beginning. Yeah, you're very attractive and turn me on like no other but I would never use you for sex."
"But you've done it to other women." He runs his hands through his hair and sighs in anger.
"It was fucking Skylar, wasn't it? That bitch. I knew..."
"No, Matt," I interrupt. "It wasn't Skylar. You make your own decisions." he looks at me nervously.
"What are we even doing here? I mean, you're a fucking womanizer, you don't want a relationship. What am I even doing talking to you?!" For a second his feelings look a little hurt but then his face switches back to his usual impassive, uncaring expression.
"Are you coming with me or not?" he asks. I cross my arms and say nothing. He waits for a few more seconds and then turns on his heel and walks away. I put my head in my hands and sigh. I walk back into the room trying hard to contain my emotions. Skylar looks up at me.
"Where's Matt?" she asks.
"He left."
"Oh." I can tell she wants to ask me about it but I guess she can sense that I'm irritated right now.
"I'm gonna go take a walk," I say before walking out the door. I need to call my mom pronto. I was supposed to call her a while ago and just forgot. I take my usual route, down the stairs but when I open the door to get to the staircase I see Matt sitting on the top step. He doesn't look up when I open the door. I lightly touch his shoulder and when he looks up I see that his eyes are slightly red. As if he's been....crying? No. Impossible. He is so cold and distant most of the time. "Matt? What...why...how...." I stammer, not knowing that I had the ability to make him cry. He stands up.
"Matt, were you crying?" I say and take his large hand into my small hand. He clears his throat.
"No. I was just about to leave." he turns around and is about to start walking away but I grab his hand.
"No," I say meekly. I want to ask him why he's crying but I don't want to be that on-the-nose about it. I reach up and caress his face and he flinches. I cringe at that harsh physical reaction. "Matt, talk to me," I say and hold his hand.
"Novah, I really just want to be left alone right now." he turns and walks down the stairs, leaving me confused. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyltC0YMeew
Wait, what the hell just happened? I decide to not go for a walk anymore, in fear that I might bump into him yet again. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡue4CGL99mW
I walk back up the stairs and sit down in the hall, leaning against the wall. I take a moment and collect my thoughts and emotions. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MsRDI7V0T
I wouldn't want to call my mom sounding all emotional and shit. It's only my first day of college and I'm already having boy problems. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2tvkjEGsb
The question that hasn't left my mind is, why was he crying? Matt is so not....a crying type of guy. And...and did I really do that? I didn't know he cared about what I thought or said.331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIyNgbYu9I
I take out my phone and call my mom's number. It goes straight to voicemail. Of course. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUecFiXWBe
She's at work right now. I text her a long paragraph about all the things that have happened, that I want her to know about. 331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelZGlQFDb8
I tell her that I miss her and love her. It all amounts to one big paragraph. I stand up and walk back to my room. Skylar looks up at me.
"Hey," she says
"Hey," I say dryly.
"Anything happen?" Skylar asks.
How does she know? I mean I'm itching to tell someone about what happened with Matt but then that would just prove Skylar right. I mean, she is right. He is a douchebag but I've seen the sweet side of him in these last few days. I still feel a feeling of loss with what happened. It makes me a little sad. When I'm sad, I like to eat junk food to calm my nerves. I check the time. Its four o clock.
I'll go get some food and come back and still have time to do my work. I also need to look for a job. I'll do that tomorrow. I grab my car keys.
"I'm going to get some food. Want anything?"
"Oh, no. Jon's bringing us food." she holds up her phone and shows me a text.
What do you guys want?
"Oh no. It's fine. I needed to go for a ride anyway. He doesn't need to get anything for me."
"Kay. Suit yourself. Bye."
"Bye." I slip my shoes on and walk out the door.
When I get back, Its only four-thirty. I come back to my room with a meatball sub and two cokes. One for Skylar. I'm so excited to eat. I try to cheer myself up with thoughts of food but I can't stop thinking of Matt. He comforted me when I was crying. But, then again, he pushed me away. He probably wants me to leave him alone for good. I sigh at the thought. Maybe it's best for us to go our separate ways.
"Heyy," Skylar says when I walk back in. She has a box of pizza on her bed that smells divine. Its cheese and spinach.
"Oh my god! You like spinach and cheese? I thought I was the only one."
"Yeah, I love it! I told him to bring a whole box just in case you wanted some."
"Yes, thank you. You can have half of my sub if you want. Also, I brought a coke for you."
"Oh my god, thank you so much. I love you!" I hand her the coke and take a plastic knife that came in the bag. I cut the sandwich in half and give it to her.
"Thanks, boo!" she exclaims. I smile at her. She knows just how to cheer me up, without even knowing it. I sit on my bed and take a bite of my sub.
"So, are you and Jon, like, together?" I take my phone out and plug the charger cord into it. I set it down on the nightstand for it to charge.
"Yeah, I guess. I mean, we've been friends for a while and we've been on two dates. So, I don't know,"
"Well, he treats you like his girlfriend. Bringing food for you and shit. He treats you so nicely." It makes me sad that Matt and I may not be friends or....whatever we were, anymore. Yeah, Matt has his highs and lows. His lows are nasty but his highs are so sweet and considerate. And I'm not completely innocent. I've said some nasty things to him before. I'm just sensitive when It comes to him so when he says something nasty to me, I get all in my feelings. It's stupid. I kinda, really hate feelings. But I can't deny that I have feelings for him because I do.
"Well, I'm not the only one who got bought food," Skylar says and winks at me. I roll my eyes.
"Please, stop." I plead.
"When is his ass gonna make a move?" she says. I wanna tell her so bad what happened.
"If I tell you something, you promise not to tell anyone? Not even Jon."
She looks excited.
"Promise," she says.
I explain what happened to Skylar in full.
"Really? Wow." Skylar replied.
"No. That's not even the weird part. Remember when I came back in and said I needed to go for a walk?"
"Yeah."
"Well, when I was going down the stairs I saw him sitting on the first step and when I like got his attention It looked like he was crying but when I tried to ask him, like, what was going on, he told me he really just wanted to be left alone."
"Oh my god! You made him cry? What?!"
"No, I don't know why he was crying. He didn't really say anything."
"Novah, put two and two together," she says. "So do you like him? He obviously likes you. You know I've never seen him show any sorts of emotion towards any woman. You're getting through to him."
"I don't know. I feel kinda bad right now. I mean, yeah he can be mean sometimes but he really did try today. He tried to be a gentleman. And even though he says hurtful things sometimes I think that's just.....how he is. He still feels emotions. So, I think I hurt his feelings."
"Hmm. How many times has he hurt your feelings? He made you cry, correct? If anything, y'all are even."
"That's kinda cold, don't you think?"
"Cold is the definition of Matt Walker."
"Where does he live anyway?"331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei8YvHvZs1
"Frat house. He and Jon both live there."331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRxoVoBa1W
"You know which room he's in?"331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzJ6hvuSIS
"I can call Jon and you can talk to him if you want."
"Yeah. Thanks." She picks up her phone and calls Jon and hands the phone to me. I put it up to my ear.
"Hey, Jon. Its Novah. Which room is Matt in? I need to talk to him real quick."
"Yeah. Sure. If you need a ride, you know, I'm here." Jon says over the phone.
"Oh no. Thank you, though. I have a car."
"Okay. Well, I'll be here. When you get here just call me. Oh wait, you don't have my number. Here, get your phone." I grab my phone off of the vanity where it was charging and go into my contacts. I type "Jon".
"Okay, I'm ready." He tells me his number over the phone.
"Call me," he says. I press call.
"Okay. See you then." I hang up and hand the phone to Skylar.
"You're going over there?"
"Yeah. I need to talk to Matt. Make sure he's okay."
"You are too nice."
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