Chapter fifty-nine
He was angry. Angry at everyone and everything. Everyone had wronged him. Everyone irritated him. Nobody was good. Everything was dark. All the time. Nothing was serious. Or permanent. He fucked endless girls like there was no tomorrow. He didn't care about those girls. Just like nobody cared when his little sister and her friend were raped. And beaten. Then murdered like dogs. And when he found the bodies, bruised and pale. Or when he found his other little sister's body dead and limp. Floating in the water. Blood everywhere. Wrists slit. Her beautiful face pale and lifeless, nothing like the real her. He didn't care about anything.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Aix0yCzYn
That he would soon come to start hurting himself. Use physical pain to distract from the emotional pain.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi4CQamxZi
He'd watched his family slowly unravel, nothing he could do to stop it. He didn't know how to stop the pain. The slow burn that was within him. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqERMx8xGw
It annoyed him. Frustrated him. That he couldn't help anything. He couldn't help himself. Or anyone, for that matter.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt33AM2GsEA
He turned to things that eased the pain temporarily. Alcohol. Marijuana. Sex. Hurting other people.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgunZCqqtvn
He drank and drank despite everyone's efforts to get through to him.
He couldn't see past the anger and pain. It haunted him. His dreams, his days. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLmEi3QccO
He convinced himself that he was meant to be alone. That if his sisters couldn't have a life than neither could he.
He pretended that he hadn't seen his father hit his mother. He pretended that his family was perfect before it fell apart.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVYsbrFIRt
He pretended that his mother hadn't left the family because of his and his father's mistakes.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GuhKU1vSy
He convinced himself that he doesn't deserve love or respect. That the demons that live within him were too strong.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkmtOtJDIx
That's he's a fuck-up. A mistake, hindering the growth and lives of others.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpmxdXc7YM
He didn't just hate himself, he wanted to destroy himself. But he couldn't. His parents had already lost two children. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JZ6X2IywP
So, he was forced to live a meaningless, loveless, existence. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYTFB1zA4l
He walked around the world not giving a fuck what anyone thought of him.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ012r65o2PU
Disrespecting and hurting people left, right, and center. If he couldn't be happy then no one could.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrz8LpEPUP
He did want to get to know anyone. Be friends with anyone. He disregarded niceties and politeness.
Until.......255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOBMIFeNVl
Her beautiful dark curly hair shone through the darkness.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHgYAluTKx
Her figure enticed, barely shown. Not enough to satisfy his wandering eyes.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzYsIEMleC
Her almond-shaped eyes gave him a glimpse of heaven, distracting him from his eternal hell and self-damnation.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFdI8B6PR6
She didn't know how beautiful she was so she walked around with a certain sense of naivety as well as knowing that the world wasn't all good.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLbTwVpEhq
She didn't know how much men wanted her. Her innocence. Her purity. How many girls wanted her looks and the attention she got from men.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqV6Z7Alcyw
She was polite and let others get away with far too much.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUVQITbroi
Honest but was sometimes forced to hide her true self. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjq7ngnEzB
Appealing.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRuqhaU0d7
Quiet but tried to be outgoing.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdEDlI0ChI
A walking contradiction.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrl5HInxnc
He was dying to get to know her.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliNw933beB
He thought it was simple lust. Arousal. Horniness?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnRhXXDmGV
But somewhere, deep inside of him, he knew that she was different. He could just tell. 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPsMpdysBb
He didn't know that soon his whole world would revolve around her.
That she would become his addiction.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoIzRWnVYn
His light.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhIa0cEAhL
His savior.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3oAxe1Uyw
His second chance.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwCVL4KJ0L
She was the poison and the antidote.255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CtqlmXv4j
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