Chapter fifty-nine
He was angry. Angry at everyone and everything. Everyone had wronged him. Everyone irritated him. Nobody was good. Everything was dark. All the time. Nothing was serious. Or permanent. He fucked endless girls like there was no tomorrow. He didn't care about those girls. Just like nobody cared when his little sister and her friend were raped. And beaten. Then murdered like dogs. And when he found the bodies, bruised and pale. Or when he found his other little sister's body dead and limp. Floating in the water. Blood everywhere. Wrists slit. Her beautiful face pale and lifeless, nothing like the real her. He didn't care about anything.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuQei4aewn
That he would soon come to start hurting himself. Use physical pain to distract from the emotional pain.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1P1KD5Gxlo
He'd watched his family slowly unravel, nothing he could do to stop it. He didn't know how to stop the pain. The slow burn that was within him. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpo0GBVhNz
It annoyed him. Frustrated him. That he couldn't help anything. He couldn't help himself. Or anyone, for that matter.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxF0aG2PwR
He turned to things that eased the pain temporarily. Alcohol. Marijuana. Sex. Hurting other people.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoFIl8SmjF
He drank and drank despite everyone's efforts to get through to him.
He couldn't see past the anger and pain. It haunted him. His dreams, his days. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaI4LEkJHc
He convinced himself that he was meant to be alone. That if his sisters couldn't have a life than neither could he.
He pretended that he hadn't seen his father hit his mother. He pretended that his family was perfect before it fell apart.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9p4ZQYGwK3
He pretended that his mother hadn't left the family because of his and his father's mistakes.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMu92UfqLv
He convinced himself that he doesn't deserve love or respect. That the demons that live within him were too strong.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndPBeyi7IZ
That's he's a fuck-up. A mistake, hindering the growth and lives of others.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAW7SqDmvN
He didn't just hate himself, he wanted to destroy himself. But he couldn't. His parents had already lost two children. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0MlUxaAgD
So, he was forced to live a meaningless, loveless, existence. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gIQVRwLMm
He walked around the world not giving a fuck what anyone thought of him.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCR0DxE7Pc
Disrespecting and hurting people left, right, and center. If he couldn't be happy then no one could.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis1CZLwvae
He did want to get to know anyone. Be friends with anyone. He disregarded niceties and politeness.
Until.......261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F0eRr2zsO
Her beautiful dark curly hair shone through the darkness.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcwaEBcdtr
Her figure enticed, barely shown. Not enough to satisfy his wandering eyes.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedMBDJv9ES
Her almond-shaped eyes gave him a glimpse of heaven, distracting him from his eternal hell and self-damnation.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstNp13pukm
She didn't know how beautiful she was so she walked around with a certain sense of naivety as well as knowing that the world wasn't all good.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemdp3a9EPs
She didn't know how much men wanted her. Her innocence. Her purity. How many girls wanted her looks and the attention she got from men.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEIH7J61La
She was polite and let others get away with far too much.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDizeMrH1wZ
Honest but was sometimes forced to hide her true self. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QUtd8jJ2O
Appealing.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRnJcg5hvx
Quiet but tried to be outgoing.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUb1Z45d7L
A walking contradiction.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBfvRTORff
He was dying to get to know her.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfFwqCOSGw
He thought it was simple lust. Arousal. Horniness?261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z5BGkMOBk
But somewhere, deep inside of him, he knew that she was different. He could just tell. 261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFobl8mRCy
He didn't know that soon his whole world would revolve around her.
That she would become his addiction.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtlLctQ2Gc
His light.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEaRQ0SLfE
His savior.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WZATKB7Jd
His second chance.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq4lUTOkyo
She was the poison and the antidote.261Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85uAYPtfth
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