Chapter fifty-nine
He was angry. Angry at everyone and everything. Everyone had wronged him. Everyone irritated him. Nobody was good. Everything was dark. All the time. Nothing was serious. Or permanent. He fucked endless girls like there was no tomorrow. He didn't care about those girls. Just like nobody cared when his little sister and her friend were raped. And beaten. Then murdered like dogs. And when he found the bodies, bruised and pale. Or when he found his other little sister's body dead and limp. Floating in the water. Blood everywhere. Wrists slit. Her beautiful face pale and lifeless, nothing like the real her. He didn't care about anything.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVu5ldytEj
That he would soon come to start hurting himself. Use physical pain to distract from the emotional pain.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0CoaAspOr
He'd watched his family slowly unravel, nothing he could do to stop it. He didn't know how to stop the pain. The slow burn that was within him. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpeHIBUqiU
It annoyed him. Frustrated him. That he couldn't help anything. He couldn't help himself. Or anyone, for that matter.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnh7fjG6YL
He turned to things that eased the pain temporarily. Alcohol. Marijuana. Sex. Hurting other people.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUn3Cu5SO2F
He drank and drank despite everyone's efforts to get through to him.
He couldn't see past the anger and pain. It haunted him. His dreams, his days. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5qzy0EcyQ
He convinced himself that he was meant to be alone. That if his sisters couldn't have a life than neither could he.
He pretended that he hadn't seen his father hit his mother. He pretended that his family was perfect before it fell apart.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqPgqt553L
He pretended that his mother hadn't left the family because of his and his father's mistakes.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TbMfCZ6On
He convinced himself that he doesn't deserve love or respect. That the demons that live within him were too strong.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgfuIopCp0
That's he's a fuck-up. A mistake, hindering the growth and lives of others.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoJbbUJtHR
He didn't just hate himself, he wanted to destroy himself. But he couldn't. His parents had already lost two children. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7jjKDlsnU
So, he was forced to live a meaningless, loveless, existence. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJem7yeJhj
He walked around the world not giving a fuck what anyone thought of him.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLVHDL6uw7
Disrespecting and hurting people left, right, and center. If he couldn't be happy then no one could.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxM1s6hF185
He did want to get to know anyone. Be friends with anyone. He disregarded niceties and politeness.
Until.......258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DKJIFiysz
Her beautiful dark curly hair shone through the darkness.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv46D7uL2J2
Her figure enticed, barely shown. Not enough to satisfy his wandering eyes.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyVvwC5MsN
Her almond-shaped eyes gave him a glimpse of heaven, distracting him from his eternal hell and self-damnation.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodF8vcdsWt
She didn't know how beautiful she was so she walked around with a certain sense of naivety as well as knowing that the world wasn't all good.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPthjZlXKKi
She didn't know how much men wanted her. Her innocence. Her purity. How many girls wanted her looks and the attention she got from men.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7mp3ZRwZ7
She was polite and let others get away with far too much.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Eeic7QKBW
Honest but was sometimes forced to hide her true self. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFcmvT0zz1
Appealing.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RkXjKZreK
Quiet but tried to be outgoing.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xyjzLYeZG
A walking contradiction.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGlo21dDWe
He was dying to get to know her.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcTE8KdVnv
He thought it was simple lust. Arousal. Horniness?258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOEv2OcsUi
But somewhere, deep inside of him, he knew that she was different. He could just tell. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjoZ428evf
He didn't know that soon his whole world would revolve around her.
That she would become his addiction.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y5DVfQ2bm
His light.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywDwS84TWg
His savior.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnDWuehQqi
His second chance.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogHFAzOnIZ
She was the poison and the antidote.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwhzWGe6id
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