過去篇(四)544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ADuT6g3Jo
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZc3WVSJs7p
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeclZsHVRT9
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwUnGd4nTa
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2KbnyRUbX
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaktQzGHqMV
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzogJfDg1ah
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQvzdXv4sH
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDd8vdRZqEc
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a8HWxo5p1
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dr3Qs85S6
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIhq2n9JrD
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUcskVZcOy
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QSQNCt7n7
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVP6oSzW9GG
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BdE1KNCGO
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSetTUbmFXm
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCfnULryWA
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN1wWixF6J
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgqN1g0ykN
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp21ECFn6FV
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJF254oXXU5
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ19q5vG0NY
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToFltF0aFJ
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MflJks1f1
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFz3RCUwibU
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyuY1OAdGw
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhwsHyzkLV
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fHtzrD9TR
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuin11pjg0t
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdJLM4IuHT
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEu44KOGpJb
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4vuqPzCpN
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd8kkP85T1
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOD3FaeMoi
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLlDPlYRAD
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QMrEtH5j5
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6J1RIRjLZ
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy737PeaC01
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwdSoja5pP
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZstmHbuV1p
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztyUbXvliS
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwXP4d8t1m
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkVKXb4kic
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBC8Cqbh6W4
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zdLE1qH5m
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS77EK2Uy11
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5b2ykdnMxy
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjkQHO8XmU
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUMplKCSv4
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMx6UyXJ0w
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrROKfnKPJO
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtklmIFbiyp
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGSyGZ5LOy
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHReAZEH2b
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnmlp7TbYt
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgEoCd5UbG
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544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwckrh7LTPr
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpn9NCynDWf
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qhGjWJ0pE
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC0C2sMMbi
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7J6C7Dxzq
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9znfpxV9Vg
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0ndou2qt9
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVBl9UG6tP
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOS7LWSPVZ
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClOtm5Tkwv
隨即二人也站在了原地。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud10BHqydi
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3kqubtThF
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1DuGw3Jl4
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLbdL3d9RD
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZHseU1jxP
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qd3kggM8K
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn11C7J2o5Z
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv9qKiLp7O
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sgpwN8YYr
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j0xi645cv
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72SvRg0tFj
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLV07TX75RY
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNTWBGfQHF
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0nEZrR8Jp
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXPHVhpWhA
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl4YVNZeT6
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs7wHaCof9
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1soP7AAPi4
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1T2EOF41wO
可是，她接著聽到答案是……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhgAc20tot
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42LxaSXnM0
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLMiSg4uuT
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPEf5YEEhB
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSyBe97VvV
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTnODSwqvX
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBWqv3gDmi
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVQHb7MTKM
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFfhSOLnmX
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwjejUgGnJ
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40CYjDPRIz
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBDr4TAWKa
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NNrqy1l0x
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KjiIbpecr
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h5ljXmJ0B
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkjMyUUeOG
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkRZFnrC87
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWc41tVZvg
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJmFSSaBpz
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5fQC6k1u4
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9zLAaoPaU
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJi1H64f3Z
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544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CmjbpO5JE
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xw5Lg9BJy
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbG6YIS45A
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7EciXBDJ7
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07UslPpXJR
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n45feCUxl
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQ7Zli47HJ
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnF020dhCs
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oiuLVpcGR
「嚓—」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV2KePTO1K
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPykPif8x1
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw43FMGKGXc
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPggsWPoBJ
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOykP09lTIA
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs8TsDtnS6
作者在此鄭重聲明：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceKC7gkHYi
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljLJb7e2fg
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHVuPqwmcc
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeBvRIQbo4
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdVXDj88SE
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PTY10hnHy
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnzenyNfC7
544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcc1Us4AxX
作者閒聊：544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHiykuWvM7
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLPJEyb5LV
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……544Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJlGn4dzdb
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