暑假篇：釋懷580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8LZ5qwMnD
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcyxYBEPTV
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk71f83M9Aa
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85Zzl4GX58
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJjRhGCCuw
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx01izuiav
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbajyCBT0b
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhIShIeCCa
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sUsmAWq9y
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHxsb0ilbw
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlW9k2Rwsw
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZsVQYjWvD
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNU9OJabQS
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0RpWDYqGg
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs3Nqvx4pM
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8LChQp1YX
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes4cB5b7jX
一種難以形容的內疚感。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjZ5rKnhFg
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTT3dhztXEH
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKD64m1cMfH
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK6IirGYo2
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVh8dlZKK3
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCapODStR01
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApwzaqZorx
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ef6ONOMCF
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx9PYi1LBP
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVlXBI61jD
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaOcucydDL
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjri433mngR
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAs5zIRZnC
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsQhbqGmL5
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADFnsFNB4I
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Cd211nJhG
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqXgD30qGM
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ejSP5ejVi
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJX4BFcuxao
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66TNp6mmYc
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaFmFPZvvF
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkQEfNyVgE
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlg5bzOFzk
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE57OlDUDGh
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd10SkRKMoq
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCszOU6YJCU
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL77J91zDje
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZxPaVVlr0
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK01tuuDxn
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE672I0GRTc
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpm2gRY6mX
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9btaqlmaY
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7g1BnZ8GAc
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CTGtIgEfg
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVJSlKesbq
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqlyghLczT
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpWu5pkUA3
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7s38xUBnx
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOicDMcprf
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZnOTWUWya
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HwvUgnzhG
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7tmMXcZEg
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KW6TVctwL
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNRatCT3X6
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2AfspJcND
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSiH5mldQJ
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHQvwpaRYU
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MtfmtTyAl
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HQfjrS0Oz
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYxwDMn47U
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5OZxGvgSO
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntwiVVIrzc
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJFS3444bB
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGa6ClX9bwO
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ispPVP1cg
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsFV4xUcOs
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcdvjbJVnI
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqcC3fAhIu
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hIR89pj9o
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4zsOmvxsH
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScRY15rIDK
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeljT7DiSXN
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wFHbRJ7Z9
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5QR7TiBuR
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ec0SzNQeL
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtidd6ArqcH
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyQ2ZWeaoA
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8BFbtdi3W
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYvRRjVUZr
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbY1B7dAKz
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZK41Ik1c5w
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvYtSkarqM
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlnwdWkApN
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoVaCl2Lw1
甚麼原來就是我？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGufcBOuon
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNtPCKXSuI
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAplsdvBg9
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgILtehYOm
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NegHVXaxu
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKipnj5PddG
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuz3ZmQgr2l
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFsCW8A8NL
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Wg7N04rYt
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA72oeWaLRj
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMT056XaOn
「到底講緊咩啦……」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfE8uClOAt
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnfDWj0pAB
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYswcrO5Lc
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2zMjPlFwa
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgakPNSxcC
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxFoNXIaeQ
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz51V5d4JL5
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JfpGcTNwW
而且還是三個那麼多……580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkI7mChOc4
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwF0JwrVnVw
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MISiRB4Hr
「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlBsEb1J9F
580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaUrPfWp8i
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjBlBw67Hh
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