暑假篇：釋懷578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMurAdozLZE
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRP1Z61pXJ
「你真喺Alvin啊？」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfWlbisLuq
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzkGoVhC0i
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREXnq6TMRL
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JvqIdSr1s
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqxysF226B
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexPovqjxgj
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYzvZVcFsW
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP0SCbUYN9
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfdJSdp86t
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Tb9WvFnjt
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIy3tZ5jVo
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYigD9vU5O2
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu2T3ikJYC
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5PaBVTmgo
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJjueDLLi8
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz973Cay7F
一種難以形容的內疚感。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tNazxCM7e
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxmfWXqTy2
而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2Sbou59OA
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5uImuxQni
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Uwnjhqlfs
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0gfDeygi8
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfDpFnkEet
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5WCIJQN8l
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uUIbdTWjx
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17DzhHxaOv
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtO9vjTDesf
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOgKEuu6J7
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC7xoyQG3U
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOWirMo7Jz
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwYqDaRoSA
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0TF1e8iVF
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbYp6ZOVqh
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNF5HGjcAx
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3TKymRNGy
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4Ccilz3tj
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHL4s2gSdR
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshtcDhkseh
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfp4cmChT0g
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStAao9aDxh
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqVpjx6AQR
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTutIiXc9FN
「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdz6GzFMch
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yuonmsVGw
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFDN6GEWCx
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEovyn89U7
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3Xz0jRZIN
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMbPaMTLNk
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOR0kVFeTG
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoCMb3K5Ei
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbqXrC68Qc
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XBhciStYy
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9AmoJfH6L
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8C2qGVpXo
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUDrGEn603
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSQReJ30qu
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb4iRloubR
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLPEMQVxS1
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMClUr6ELP
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluy1TdCjaT
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IPLYzoT8m
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk6eeF0CTX
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsMx6pHIkO
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH1lBMoAGF
而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoNBts8akc
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1RoKe3TW2
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz0jxu8RTI
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIYflkEw9o
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUCwhKRKLf
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVKriDWaXp
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvLJQABinK
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyMsSfJZCe
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4IcLptgRM
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfCVdAt9y0
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VzUElBO7f
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0XkFCDtnQ
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWdufGH0oQ
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdoQcHPa5B
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kaK4IVku1
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNb7NJwyAX
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QNZIajXDl
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6f7zmql8Z
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimLwPmgVV8
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8f1MfJqrP
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhPyqQc5cK
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HGwjkMxey
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0BikZZIzu
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWeuVfcDAO
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikPwFbF4e2
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1pFI1t1vb
甚麼原來就是我？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Ut6JWCOd
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnl4h6ACe64
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3Qgw1SCmt
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXFnjutHCo
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQwufVICLN
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9uP2isk0F
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHK7fN2Q5z
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe1bDUscno
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs3rH71yc6
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSLzurp6w4
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fvMJTPXvk
「到底講緊咩啦……」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQXacJ0KCW
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0ITW4kNZ0
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lLapPODXu
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxMKQ9TMFQ
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22pK3OuPaa
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemA6Ctfpxs
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF32b1cf21X
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4eiRAhmTj
而且還是三個那麼多……578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gRKSDEzjJ
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8awqzJ76q
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK70Iibr5Iq
「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczjTrbbk7K
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKfGqgGgDs
578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYB2qBcpX6
作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~578Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9JDVBUHju
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