第一二八章:畢業營(七)547Please respect copyright.PENANAYlbBlZRVHo
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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。547Please respect copyright.PENANAnjjEMaff5Z
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……547Please respect copyright.PENANAJKyRUcya1l
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。547Please respect copyright.PENANAtbmNJD7fcB
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」547Please respect copyright.PENANAWzXZoyYiGA
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。547Please respect copyright.PENANANSu0ByvgZ8
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」547Please respect copyright.PENANASv84S7u8uF
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。547Please respect copyright.PENANArddTCy2QTC
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAti24hyItxt
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。547Please respect copyright.PENANAkRkIUeP7lS
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。547Please respect copyright.PENANAK7K1qa40JL
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」547Please respect copyright.PENANAtMJaoelBxF
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。547Please respect copyright.PENANAcwvO332Klf
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。547Please respect copyright.PENANAmxSrCFa1J9
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAS3P6nlXyms
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。547Please respect copyright.PENANAhZUqIxLxRK
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。547Please respect copyright.PENANABidoIYhfX9
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。547Please respect copyright.PENANAYzXeNVlQS6
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAB1yUiLVzz4
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。547Please respect copyright.PENANA2MaRXH3w8k
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。547Please respect copyright.PENANAuEPKd1I8Sn
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。547Please respect copyright.PENANAhrEDpzKGM3
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」547Please respect copyright.PENANA2ePqHZv8lR
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。547Please respect copyright.PENANApQ6bgtWIYn
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。547Please respect copyright.PENANABrEPhB9Egq
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。547Please respect copyright.PENANAgWAfqPaJJk
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。547Please respect copyright.PENANAatb0qiZEfl
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……547Please respect copyright.PENANA5Y7W7ZxMQF
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」547Please respect copyright.PENANANXzaktS1Sb
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。547Please respect copyright.PENANAqAaevra6tn
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAVrSFPgsa26
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。547Please respect copyright.PENANAkC775BqWE7
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。547Please respect copyright.PENANASHG827JF5T
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。547Please respect copyright.PENANAmMyXgaFirT
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。547Please respect copyright.PENANAt0T6WSkRph
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。547Please respect copyright.PENANAkYzmR8RY8H
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。547Please respect copyright.PENANANWgoZKZPx1
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。547Please respect copyright.PENANADUMuxyAcFF
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。547Please respect copyright.PENANALsbK4ZQO0E
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。547Please respect copyright.PENANAYAw68rHHRC
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。547Please respect copyright.PENANAfVfSCU6ZA9
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。547Please respect copyright.PENANAahPSB5UUis
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。547Please respect copyright.PENANAJTpIwDge7h
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。547Please respect copyright.PENANA6oy78CjvrY
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAF5O2xedG3d
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。547Please respect copyright.PENANAR3gylzR75c
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:547Please respect copyright.PENANA97pSm3mazW
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAyY2UKP8wFQ
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。547Please respect copyright.PENANAZLFxOyw8Xj
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。547Please respect copyright.PENANAqbDVVUyItp
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」547Please respect copyright.PENANA33CmCSAN9s
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。547Please respect copyright.PENANAxBg1AFXCMm
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。547Please respect copyright.PENANASulwzduTBl
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAN0RFLlEfoa
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。547Please respect copyright.PENANAFStQJ3Rh06
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」547Please respect copyright.PENANA9mv3Bz3hG1
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。547Please respect copyright.PENANAMVoifXlOke
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」547Please respect copyright.PENANARH4XC3w4oQ
「你嘅其他人喺指?」547Please respect copyright.PENANAIQtRcd33Uz
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAnAlspgJQaW
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。547Please respect copyright.PENANAZpvq32Ukgf
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。547Please respect copyright.PENANAOP2CJjLCHi
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」547Please respect copyright.PENANA8mWROANNB2
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」547Please respect copyright.PENANApvvjysqdoz
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。547Please respect copyright.PENANAIU0N8IZZGi
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」547Please respect copyright.PENANASuRDA8209b
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」547Please respect copyright.PENANABCe1Xdj7Jw
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。547Please respect copyright.PENANAScsnRBbEs9
是巧合?還是刻意呢?547Please respect copyright.PENANAo9BHlfX7pk
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。547Please respect copyright.PENANAvpFETQC4FX
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:547Please respect copyright.PENANAQMXS6lHSGt
「都好。」547Please respect copyright.PENANATMQpeS3lVD
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……547Please respect copyright.PENANASRNr2ctpmG
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。547Please respect copyright.PENANAtVTwxfXaSO
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。547Please respect copyright.PENANAfivzKKM23Z
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。547Please respect copyright.PENANAAcW5xrF3rx
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。547Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ul4eZPb0S
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAZJc5pl0cTJ
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:547Please respect copyright.PENANABk68hk0kVN
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」547Please respect copyright.PENANAlBdbt6SNdJ
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」547Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZrS7qcvJT