暑假篇：釋懷576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZm2POl2ED
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdWZtHef08
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLS5W4POxy
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqKAokWPYg
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s29iaJlWE
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvZnF9kznK
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NTGiL91gt
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5L2Yv5bhV
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8opPR6DFw
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TzGBT9ro6
「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡot5qU5keWG
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKtom0uXhr
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcGBbrg8Fz
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulQHkiUaW8
「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCuw56e8Gq
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTwnn4fqZv
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0N1hEDR1G
一種難以形容的內疚感。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkQrKnSP86
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsucmOqex3Y
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlKWAV9ON5
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhQhMNiExE
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWd19OMLyEM
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7IobG6ndE
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8xR1uvWMq
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EKoYV06hG
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYN6C9nRrc
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwaYXaM8FW
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8x2xIeLl7R
「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYSdIYLz7e
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm61WhBLLk
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4UOrGuAFr
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10ukDlFxd9
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcRCwhXgf5
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR222Se1P6
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkbwLB8bhL
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1pkFgSpx8
「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFom3TcpuoB
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmsHMRBNQm
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT8FJ8IhkJ
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5VHcvcULp
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbUNDJzcpk
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0iCH9veeU
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis0TONWtAJ
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQWoKBHjYy
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloBLGaXOAm
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16jPR8u90d
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzh8jzULuN
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB2i3KADRu
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63nFXecvTj
「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg5Cq0jxyc
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaACjO2NpOz
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVj47tl0Rr
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTQ8NfqqyM
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrILTKYk3X
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK5fY7uC1y
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhp5pNkC3S
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiotII5lqk
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKCYw4wQm4
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg1afVEHjJ
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhJ8ZpTGgd
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSkAYUMF9y
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfVCtZoxZQ
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FAqg5MAqa
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4ZqsS7MvZ
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22RBB9yHYm
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6bhdXWMu8
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn6p538g0w
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGoJxsSNSb
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bu3cLhAct
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybZRcAUS49
想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oLLVUNb8r
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuNJcZcl76
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EHfdj0rbl
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpb59edQsA
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsAHzcZvsS
「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wwvK4JYJr
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFXuizKbFl
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs13gmqnxT4
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6Yr2lwK0f
「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNH9PWzY1W
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv0NTmmtyK
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUV8v5Jksf
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Et91JL2p
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0xRAIPUAs
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2Jc3mSlIt
接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpD71R7zPE
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64CMQzCOpR
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wgisqKOEX
甚麼原來就是我？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCInUdcXHa
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGxaY6baBi
然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3PwaJ1mjL
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMmfMiiwCr
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTe746UKKa
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgOcKvhi4o
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kJhmxyGQe
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27umFHxH2I
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdpSw0zB1b
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1u0zYyhMMD
與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgXFnLJYFk
「到底講緊咩啦……」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOvNylEyYs
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFovJmPBm4
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUQsJzKTUL
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8E5arIoaD
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzsQ2qc8Hr
576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYpU0l6iHg
但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88pm8IL1lJ
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82a97ZQm7m
而且還是三個那麼多……576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuUjOZv9vl
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnOJC5zIKZ
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDulKuziUD
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