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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。544Please respect copyright.PENANAruK99oihGs
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……544Please respect copyright.PENANAkdtNFO40SW
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。544Please respect copyright.PENANAVzuJdC2USn
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」544Please respect copyright.PENANAhYJdpA6QTt
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。544Please respect copyright.PENANAx9zFn35wui
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」544Please respect copyright.PENANASPNW5frnYg
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。544Please respect copyright.PENANAPcltDKnNWH
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAo7Sd1dFxtv
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。544Please respect copyright.PENANAAyUjcFo2CE
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。544Please respect copyright.PENANAZOW7S6b41o
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAIf0THXl7Sr
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。544Please respect copyright.PENANAjpLiFCJGth
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。544Please respect copyright.PENANAX2SEebEzJb
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」544Please respect copyright.PENANA67d8yY7C4f
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。544Please respect copyright.PENANApaJLg4bkzj
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。544Please respect copyright.PENANAbDtZIVPTPP
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。544Please respect copyright.PENANAYi73LgjpzV
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAloMIWkIJ0k
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。544Please respect copyright.PENANAKGiKeoVCyx
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。544Please respect copyright.PENANAnHuD3IDShS
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAAdV7v1eE5Y
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」544Please respect copyright.PENANA6JQxpE7coi
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。544Please respect copyright.PENANACXcof1Z0Fw
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。544Please respect copyright.PENANAQmYQHCHNLC
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。544Please respect copyright.PENANADp4ExAW7nj
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。544Please respect copyright.PENANAGhXy8irsP5
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……544Please respect copyright.PENANAnGw3mc9Doa
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」544Please respect copyright.PENANA8u1FMJt05w
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。544Please respect copyright.PENANAk20bBE4CLy
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAp3knTrBe4i
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。544Please respect copyright.PENANALYS6mlhDFz
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。544Please respect copyright.PENANA13sANnrsN8
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。544Please respect copyright.PENANAPrX8Fl96En
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。544Please respect copyright.PENANACZ1rFaZxv3
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。544Please respect copyright.PENANAtKDaQ9dAaL
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。544Please respect copyright.PENANAvYrl4pL05S
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。544Please respect copyright.PENANAM1xtpnEnyD
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。544Please respect copyright.PENANASbm2i6BPnX
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。544Please respect copyright.PENANAqgLKZgxcCK
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。544Please respect copyright.PENANAsRFsDyQMQy
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。544Please respect copyright.PENANAdaffW3VzRm
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAEUYLN0Hwuc
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。544Please respect copyright.PENANAVjFlUrYQ6J
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」544Please respect copyright.PENANARi8V3ntodo
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。544Please respect copyright.PENANAZnXj7ZERan
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:544Please respect copyright.PENANAEKQbwOByHE
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAxenPBKneUu
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANAqLCTF1nCyi
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。544Please respect copyright.PENANAzBwnYOlwcY
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」544Please respect copyright.PENANA07Y1RzCMLu
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。544Please respect copyright.PENANAb5Ulq6DchR
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。544Please respect copyright.PENANAGFHQmJpsCm
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAuKSKPZDo9S
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。544Please respect copyright.PENANANS8QXes0QV
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」544Please respect copyright.PENANAtdzSi6uXs8
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。544Please respect copyright.PENANAasYzoaBmCD
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAzwOOEt5Ty6
「你嘅其他人喺指?」544Please respect copyright.PENANAwtAzxLPyHb
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAnI18H0IJSU
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。544Please respect copyright.PENANAoHlRfMcZkl
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。544Please respect copyright.PENANA3h2vAxIJ5g
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」544Please respect copyright.PENANA5TREKvRlDD
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAKSOaEtOwKS
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。544Please respect copyright.PENANAOxVe60iFAX
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」544Please respect copyright.PENANAqZsMd0PkmY
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」544Please respect copyright.PENANA6Uu0MRQlkV
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。544Please respect copyright.PENANASC8kP9Ughq
是巧合?還是刻意呢?544Please respect copyright.PENANAtkUs451u4c
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。544Please respect copyright.PENANA3RMPzjEtau
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:544Please respect copyright.PENANASWlHLaG95D
「都好。」544Please respect copyright.PENANA9gkmuYfYCa
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……544Please respect copyright.PENANAyOfD9oTyVF
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。544Please respect copyright.PENANAr1HtPOTHyu
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。544Please respect copyright.PENANAxT2ngwMED9
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。544Please respect copyright.PENANAjep7mQ3S9s
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。544Please respect copyright.PENANASjbWWV0kQ4
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」544Please respect copyright.PENANASx7sZKRfYI
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:544Please respect copyright.PENANA51kCsGMkbI
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」544Please respect copyright.PENANAgTglODzsDb
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」544Please respect copyright.PENANAxdBJMRMNVB