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隔天,Ivy並沒有上學,而毫不知情的Alvin,也在早上老師點名時得知Ivy請病假後,仍然覺得沒有甚至大礙。315Please respect copyright.PENANAeXH4gktQ3l
然而,他並不知道,原來昨天自己與Dan的一言一語,全都被Ivy聽到了。315Please respect copyright.PENANAHpdEbzcuNg
他甚至不知道,這個起初對愛情,對自己充滿幻想的少女。315Please respect copyright.PENANAcIgtDAoh99
竟然因為自己的一句說話,而痛哭了一整晚。315Please respect copyright.PENANANeX6wfi6Ho
但這一切都不能怪責Alvin,因為他從頭到尾都是不知情者。315Please respect copyright.PENANA074eNDrTrt
而昨天他根本不會猜想到Ivy就在一旁偷聽著……315Please respect copyright.PENANA785aKmJgY9
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相比起間接地傷了人心的Alvin,身為知情者的Dan。315Please respect copyright.PENANAB3AY0CE8qX
反而在得知Ivy缺席後,立即就感到事情有點不對勁。315Please respect copyright.PENANAfwNZx7rpFr
明明昨天看見Ivy時,她還頗有精神的。315Please respect copyright.PENANAXfRpyiT10R
為何今天卻無緣無故請病假了呢?315Please respect copyright.PENANAsmu94T8I49
而Dan唯一想到理由,也是他的最壞打算……315Please respect copyright.PENANAr13ONg4Qgk
就是Ivy聽到了他們昨天的對話。315Please respect copyright.PENANAIhIkFMXzUF
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因此接下來的一整天,Alvin與Dan,就是一個繼續毫不知情,另一個則繼續猜疑著渡過。315Please respect copyright.PENANAsea7Ru6q0I
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直到第二天,Ivy也回來了學校,不過卻是穿著一件長袖冷衫。315Please respect copyright.PENANAIYrPVloifr
雖然現在正值十一月,間中都會颳起充滿秋意的涼風。315Please respect copyright.PENANA9An2S5VQOX
但一般的背心冷衫也足夠應付如此的天氣,不至於到長袖冷衫的出場。315Please respect copyright.PENANAq0evGad1lW
因此,衣著與別不同加上昨天缺席的Ivy也隨即迎來了慰問。315Please respect copyright.PENANA4WpO3RxqC1
「Ivy,你琴日請假,喺咪感冒啊?」315Please respect copyright.PENANAniahuK9BRk
「要著長袖冷衫,喺咪發燒沾寒沾凍啊?」315Please respect copyright.PENANA562qkGTHxq
「你要保重身體啊!」315Please respect copyright.PENANAVsvMTCQfG2
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對於其他人的慰問,Ivy也只是強顏歡笑著回應他們兩三句而已。315Please respect copyright.PENANAv66UaqPsCL
剛好這時候Alvin也回到了課室,而他在看到Ivy的歸來後,也一如以往向對方打起招呼。315Please respect copyright.PENANADwQZ9i8RN8
可是,Ivy隨即卻與其他女生繼續聊著天,而無視了Alvin。315Please respect copyright.PENANAYkna4T7Kqp
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這也使得Alvin皺起眉頭,開始感到百思不解。315Please respect copyright.PENANAoeids6FEAJ
畢竟先前的每一個早上,都是Ivy先向他打招呼,然後Alvin才作回敬。315Please respect copyright.PENANAVvYKnTeGLN
然而,今天他只是稍為轉換一下角色。315Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1XFM6yrVn
由他先向Ivy打招呼,但結果卻是迎來了對方的忽視。315Please respect copyright.PENANAxsTbSa6wBt
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可是,最諷刺的是,正因為Ivy如此冷淡的態度。315Please respect copyright.PENANAW4d6RkDjfL
竟然使Alvin在今天額外的留意著她……315Please respect copyright.PENANAMK5mEZBVdV
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來到了午息時間,Ivy又再次獨自一人坐在了庭園裡。315Please respect copyright.PENANALnRil5P4xQ
她慢慢地拉起衣袖露出手臂,露出上面滿是一道道刀痕的手臂。315Please respect copyright.PENANAmZYueGyOpJ
而在她看著雙手上的傷口同時,淚水就不自覺從雙眼滲出,並滴在傷口上。315Please respect copyright.PENANArPKdECsYNG
淚水彷彿正在努力嘗試把手臂上的傷口修復,但是不僅沒有成功。315Please respect copyright.PENANA1xL1QvvDYX
反而讓Ivy再次回想起切割時的痛楚……315Please respect copyright.PENANAWMbeQRuSA5
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「Ivy,你對手搞咩啊?!」315Please respect copyright.PENANAZbNXVVgd98
一把熟悉的聲音,突然從Ivy的正前方傳來。315Please respect copyright.PENANAQvCmE0J4dl
淚流滿面的Ivy也隨即抬頭一看,發現竟然是Alvin。315Please respect copyright.PENANAgLof2NvXI5
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她看見Alvin的一瞬間,愣住了。315Please respect copyright.PENANAe0EMWevxrQ
接著就是快速地把衣袖拉下起,把手上的傷口通通遮掩起來。315Please respect copyright.PENANAeTxL1AefD3
可是,那些傷痕,也已經一早被Alvin看到了。315Please respect copyright.PENANAQAhD20GLfg
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「你……𠝹手……」315Please respect copyright.PENANAC0dUCdfsWy
「點解Alvin你會嚟庭園嘅?」315Please respect copyright.PENANAnbjlFf8lsm
正當Alvin打算查問Ivy有關於手上的傷痕時,卻被對方搶先一步發問起來。315Please respect copyright.PENANAv0oHf7lhZS
而Alvin隨即也只好解釋:「因為Dan叫我嚟架。」315Please respect copyright.PENANAE1fXlAxdI4
「Dan叫你嚟……?」Ivy擺出了一個疑惑的樣子。315Please respect copyright.PENANAks78OYhg4J
「其實呢……大致上……Dan已經同我講咗發生咩事……」315Please respect copyright.PENANAk18M7A30nI
Ivy頓時瞪大雙眼,而此刻她的雙眼仍然是充滿著淚光。315Please respect copyright.PENANAjRYkJnPyAd
不過,接下來二人也迎來了一遍沉默。315Please respect copyright.PENANAJnhdkMzmjy
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直到Ivy深呼吸了一口後,也再次開口說:「咁你嚟喺想講啲咩?」315Please respect copyright.PENANA9l9MlFNLNX
而Alvin也一臉尷尬,並不敢直視對方口吃地說:「我……只喺想同你講聲對唔住。」315Please respect copyright.PENANAlFnkN5fxXS
「對唔住啲咩?」Ivy立即問道。315Please respect copyright.PENANAB8Gx01glgX
「對唔住……我回應唔到你嘅心意。」315Please respect copyright.PENANA2NxbV2tOn5
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Ivy聽到Alvin的這句話後,先是愣住了數秒。315Please respect copyright.PENANA2RAwX98CSg
然後第一個反應卻是苦笑起來,並且雙手掩著臉,低頭開自言自語起來:315Please respect copyright.PENANA67xyE9ld21
「估唔到我喺啱啱個一刻仲諗住我哋可能有機會,哈哈……睇嚟我真喺太天真太蠢啦,哈哈。」315Please respect copyright.PENANA3T9xm7CwXq
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對於Ivy逐漸變得奇怪起來的舉動,Alvin也感到不知所措起來。315Please respect copyright.PENANADxgJWDyBa2
而他只想到的話,也只是「對不起」三個字。315Please respect copyright.PENANATLG26JSlvr
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不過,隨即Ivy也放下了雙手,然後歪頭看著Alvin。315Please respect copyright.PENANAcEOymMvTE1
接著露出了一個冷諷的笑容,並說:「對唔住嗰個喺我先啱,竟然會鍾意咗你,仲要咁不自量力打算融入你嘅圈子之中,點知到頭來……哈哈。」315Please respect copyright.PENANA4Neqgi14Wl
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「Ivy,我哋可以繼續做朋友架!」315Please respect copyright.PENANAwfRy1kcpjG
Alvin終於想到了「對不起」以外的說話。315Please respect copyright.PENANAlLrECzkG1J
但Ivy也只是繼續冷冷地笑著向他說:「話就話做朋友,但其實男女之間根本就無純友誼架,到最後你一樣都會因為覺得尷尬、避忌而疏遠我……」315Please respect copyright.PENANAnlh8vLRBAR
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正當Alvin正在絞盡腦汁打算說些甚麼安慰Ivy時,對方卻站起身來,並緩步離開庭園。315Please respect copyright.PENANAXsIUrVo9EV
無論Alvin怎樣叫道Ivy的名字,她也繼續頭也不回地離去。315Please respect copyright.PENANAWl3uwRcqLM
而逐漸感到無能為力的Alvin,也只能眼白白地看著她離開自己的視線。315Please respect copyright.PENANAfIlXnI7Ziu
然而,這次卻是Alvin最後一次看見Ivy的身影……315Please respect copyright.PENANAoCBNfPzK9N
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午息過後,老師發現了Ivy遲遲還沒有回來課室。315Please respect copyright.PENANABN4uvLZu2M
於是要求班中部份的女生嘗試尋找一下Ivy。315Please respect copyright.PENANAdJpLTldcn5
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而經過一番尋找過後,其中一名女生也在學校七樓的女洗手間發現了Ivy。315Please respect copyright.PENANAj5uewmqVJz
但當時的她,卻手持著一把沾有血跡的美術刀,而手臂也刻上了幾道鮮血滿滿的刀痕。315Please respect copyright.PENANAiKXXInehPY
據那個女生所說,當時場面血淋淋,她還差點嚇昏過去。315Please respect copyright.PENANA55igBDxOTG
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而校方也以最低調的方法處理了是次Ivy的「學生自殘」事件。315Please respect copyright.PENANALV1rnkXtIH
當時除了2E班及所有相關老師外,全校根本沒有人知道發生了如此的事件。315Please respect copyright.PENANAahPpeBRhQb
甚至當時,其實在2E班裡,大部份同學都根本搞不清Ivy到底發生了甚麼事。315Please respect copyright.PENANAiEHOA664hz
他們只知道的就是自那天起,他們就再也沒有見過Ivy。315Please respect copyright.PENANA2OC0wIvPvG
而當班主全再次提起Ivy的名字時,已經是聖誕節過後,他向全班宣佈Ivy退學轉校的消息。315Please respect copyright.PENANAkdlYQJozPo
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Ivy在接受治療過後,被診斷忠上了抑鬱症。315Please respect copyright.PENANAQcoVC4RMlM
即使在留院期間一直有社工跟進輔導,但她仍然不肯說出自殘的原因。315Please respect copyright.PENANAtSteSmzXnw
或許她從此選擇了……永遠封閉自己的內心。315Please respect copyright.PENANAYjpvnYMCQ0
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雖然這次算是當時2E班短暫的鬧劇。315Please respect copyright.PENANA6eyxsY0cur
其他人過了一陣子後,也慢慢地將這事件從記憶中淡出。315Please respect copyright.PENANAR3y32UlGEd
可是卻有一個人,並沒有隨著時間淡出這件事,反而是從此發生了改變。315Please respect copyright.PENANACvdfXdr2Rf
他認為Ivy的自殘全是自己的責任,是自己導致Ivy選擇了傷害自己的道路。315Please respect copyright.PENANAoFvtA3fCPz
他一度認為,或許當時他選擇嘗試而不是拒絕,可能會迎來一個全新的結局。315Please respect copyright.PENANAjCqkki55oY
至少Ivy不會受傷,他是這樣想著的。315Please respect copyright.PENANAcBr5qNR98k
但是一切都為時已晚,不幸的事情已經發生了。315Please respect copyright.PENANArrsUNGhAdx
而他唯一可以做到的,也就是從此努力迎合他人。315Please respect copyright.PENANACvOFrnT5CG
即使這樣做會失去自我,但只要不傷害到對方,對他來說就是最好的結局。315Please respect copyright.PENANAqvOSaaTslX
只要犧牲自己一個,就從而換取到對方的幸福。315Please respect copyright.PENANAC7PQAM8XVM
這可能是他的贖罪,卻是導致他走向最壞結局的開始……315Please respect copyright.PENANAZrDH2fduKX
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「過去,能造就現在,拓展未來,但同時也能摧毀一切」315Please respect copyright.PENANA1NWMemOGZF
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Ivy,本來只是一個寫來簡短地在過去篇交代一下阿侑「來者不拒」的小角色。但是卻越寫越有感情,或許他朝一日,能看見她再出場也說不定。315Please respect copyright.PENANAGEzd0Eg2bw