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某一天,在午息時段,Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。305Please respect copyright.PENANAJ63Nrgm5AJ
找了一個寧靜的角落,獨自一人坐下,不禁嘆息起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAt34SPwIzsx
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原來在剛才午飯時間,Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。305Please respect copyright.PENANAOKB5tqbpVC
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。305Please respect copyright.PENANAekHMtIwZcE
並且升上中學後,根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。305Please respect copyright.PENANA86pP5egZlj
因此Ivy突如其來邀約,再加上當時朋友們的催促,Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。305Please respect copyright.PENANAYdBDz5GRmF
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約,除了感到可惜及失望之外,就根本甚麼都做不到。305Please respect copyright.PENANAp6V7pyF3iH
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中,卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。305Please respect copyright.PENANAE0K6KzN63L
至今,她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。305Please respect copyright.PENANAiZbCWVVw7p
即使放學後,她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數,也少之又少。305Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZILH7kszs
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講,直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」305Please respect copyright.PENANAyuUE9D4voH
這時,在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。305Please respect copyright.PENANAAkb4VKL1qa
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。305Please respect copyright.PENANAGWeWOQELv8
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說,要與喜歡的人坦白,可是一件難若登天的事情。305Please respect copyright.PENANAbjYj53q3KW
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕,她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。305Please respect copyright.PENANACfVKHnXSa2
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「你鍾意Alvin啊?」305Please respect copyright.PENANAuCaw8xburS
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAFrGJW6G5q4
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來,並隨即轉過身來,查看聲音的主人。305Please respect copyright.PENANA0kXyTlfeCm
「Dan……?點解你會嚟庭園嘅?」305Please respect copyright.PENANADIqLz1QEFv
在確認是同班的同學後,Ivy也接著好奇地問道。305Please respect copyright.PENANAIhpQT4iZE9
畢竟,學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。305Please respect copyright.PENANApUlFHBrcXr
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「食飽飯無嘢做,咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊,呵呵。」305Please respect copyright.PENANAUGGN0vstAN
Dan在說著的同時,奸笑起來,然後就盯著Ivy,等待對方辯解。305Please respect copyright.PENANABrwCvVYpgP
「你唔好講出啊!我求你!」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十,不斷向Dan請求著。305Please respect copyright.PENANALWBgjF0jD4
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接著,Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮,一臉沾沾自喜地說:305Please respect copyright.PENANAvwQTX3uFxk
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩?」305Please respect copyright.PENANA40BtIl6rqZ
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話,然後就搖頭說:「咁又唔似……」305Please respect copyright.PENANAa200VMJGeP
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊?」Dan隨即問道,看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。305Please respect copyright.PENANAzSZ6zuziIf
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來,並不斷捏住自己的校裙。305Please respect copyright.PENANA2T731lUOKY
而在一番內心掙扎後,她也小小聲地說:「大概三個月啦……」305Please respect copyright.PENANA8qZzV0JOBF
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲,但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說:305Please respect copyright.PENANAE5O3IptBU0
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊?」305Please respect copyright.PENANABD2JlSF6dQ
在對方的引導下,Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAatN3fQg7RO
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣,然後就是好感,最後就是喜歡了對方。305Please respect copyright.PENANAQME1sUZyV3
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。305Please respect copyright.PENANATR8uHBA8JR
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後,隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。305Please respect copyright.PENANApI6vd7sprV
「哦,所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」305Please respect copyright.PENANANKYVN75nZz
Ivy沒有說話,只是默默地點著頭。305Please respect copyright.PENANAgJsfakEIKX
於是Dan見況也繼續說:「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅,明明鍾意人,但又無勇氣同對方講,想接近人,但喺又無從入手,令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」305Please respect copyright.PENANABhK5lFG8xB
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後,Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANA4x7VBwfNRh
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan,並用低沉的聲音說:「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」305Please respect copyright.PENANA3MkMkQ9DUJ
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「唔好灰啦!不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦!知佢點諗你都一件好事啊!」305Please respect copyright.PENANABwhiiEvof8
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子,馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著,希望從而令Ivy振作一點。305Please respect copyright.PENANA6XRzZLeji3
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後,馬上想起了先前Laura的一句:「唔試過又點知得唔得呢?」305Please respect copyright.PENANAENtA9AN5Yp
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火,一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……305Please respect copyright.PENANAHZZhqEGqBG
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數天後,Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。305Please respect copyright.PENANAkHxoQ0j7sU
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。305Please respect copyright.PENANAwtc3A2gs4B
「Alvin,不如今日一齊走啊!」305Please respect copyright.PENANAIfknAeNXme
「少有喎,你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」305Please respect copyright.PENANAIO58yYe5Hv
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊!」305Please respect copyright.PENANAkFAPryd1qn
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……305Please respect copyright.PENANAyW5w5xFboq
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接著,Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。305Please respect copyright.PENANAeiWBfWrrCh
聊起兩三句後,Dan也開門見山問道:「Alvin,你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊?」305Please respect copyright.PENANAIJpzkSikNM
隨即二人也站在了原地。305Please respect copyright.PENANAO8gK3CacXz
而此時,Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處,聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。305Please respect copyright.PENANAdALgLjjnyT
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答,簡單而直接。305Please respect copyright.PENANAHq72DcN7fK
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了,而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAI4905uJpvy
看來她的幻想,都確實只是幻想。305Please respect copyright.PENANAaoOMF0IxvI
並如同泡沫一樣,在一瞬間破掉化為無物。305Please respect copyright.PENANAy8F1PPP5nD
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人?」Dan再問道,並語氣變得質疑起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAcqHlsY7t5A
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案:「真喺無。」305Please respect copyright.PENANAKKFSVTbbDG
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。305Please respect copyright.PENANAGVCw0dD4Vf
不過機智的他,也很快就想到第二條問題:「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊?」305Please respect copyright.PENANA3ut1wuQatY
Alvin思考了一會,然後答:「嗯……無喎……」305Please respect copyright.PENANAJLwMei5oDf
雖然答案一樣,但是這一次Alvin的回答,卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。305Please respect copyright.PENANALvo0CpBX9u
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑,再問:「真喺無?你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢?」305Please respect copyright.PENANArE0rHxneVk
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後,也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。305Please respect copyright.PENANASYFIkNZ40q
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上,希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。305Please respect copyright.PENANAmJVSaO4iNf
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答,她確實感到額外的緊張起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAdrqe0i2rCS
可是,她接著聽到答案是……305Please respect copyright.PENANAoBRaZUfFLZ
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎,咪普通同學咁。」305Please respect copyright.PENANANhUW0IxEYm
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聽到Alvin的回答,Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣,目瞪口呆地站在原地。305Please respect copyright.PENANATc7Yu31ojB
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANACcmwibxUeb
或許他自己也猜想不到,這就是Alvin的答案。305Please respect copyright.PENANAKn3jxsDigo
不過,感到有點不知所揩的Dan,也靈機一動,立即再問:305Please respect copyright.PENANAMo6QL8eAil
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢?」305Please respect copyright.PENANAkKInQoBDN7
他選擇不再轉彎抹角,而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。305Please respect copyright.PENANAvOad766b08
但其實他都猜想不到,原來Ivy一直偷聽著。305Please respect copyright.PENANAiWuEueNWMc
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然而,Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」305Please respect copyright.PENANAxKpftFRlDv
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正當Alvin說完這句話後,他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。305Please respect copyright.PENANAL7kt56hKZZ
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方,並發現沒有人。305Please respect copyright.PENANAkDXD8EyFkD
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。305Please respect copyright.PENANAmoCKqxvgmU
然而,他並不知道,剛才腳步聲的主人,正是Ivy。305Please respect copyright.PENANASth6oAqf11
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而與此同時,Ivy也已經淚流滿面,走到了學校的某處。305Please respect copyright.PENANAxi1pG72DWU
孤單一人坐在角落,蜷縮著身體,雙臂抱住雙膝,痛哭起來。305Please respect copyright.PENANA87MTXlvl0n
她的哭聲,無比悲哀及淒慘,如同心被刀割一樣。305Please respect copyright.PENANA3VF7rZTCIb
看來這份傷痛,將永遠刻印在她的心中,成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。305Please respect copyright.PENANApXM2xoLeNi
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「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢」305Please respect copyright.PENANA8HOJ1ny7eG
直至深夜時,Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話,而驚醒過來。305Please respect copyright.PENANAaouoDAAwOE
她隨即慢慢地離開了床,並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。305Please respect copyright.PENANASWVqzb9C43
然後,打開了桌燈,看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。305Please respect copyright.PENANAmmjW3HZ448
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話,以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。305Please respect copyright.PENANAftpKffyxuB
她不禁冷笑起來,隨後打開桌上文具盒,拿出了一把美術刀。305Please respect copyright.PENANAPFhKesrb5U
伸出冰冷的刀鋒,對著自己的手臀……305Please respect copyright.PENANAnnzyZxOYzP
「嚓—」305Please respect copyright.PENANAAqWyE4MYVv
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「懷著多大的期望,就會迎來同等的失望,甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」305Please respect copyright.PENANAqLSbH9Vo2g
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作者在此鄭重聲明:305Please respect copyright.PENANADCmPm9fz74
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份,並且是虛構情節。305Please respect copyright.PENANAei3y1iACNC
讀者們請潔身自愛,切勿嘗試!!!305Please respect copyright.PENANAYok5wapwJv
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情,都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。305Please respect copyright.PENANAfivT6YBPur
若發現事情未如理想,無法獨力承受,請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。305Please respect copyright.PENANA3Fc1Q14XZ2
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化,請各位潔身自愛。305Please respect copyright.PENANAqhy8u0t5K3
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。305Please respect copyright.PENANAmdNDVwFiai
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作者閒聊:305Please respect copyright.PENANAqCq82S6AeP
過去阿侑的一句:「就算佢鍾意我,都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛,如果要迎合佢嘅心意,而勉強自己,我做唔到。」305Please respect copyright.PENANAGAVPbjsGMx
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……305Please respect copyright.PENANAUDoxJNGaK2