I feel bad. I feel dirty. I feel like I should know better. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAAMItp4jYBg
The worst feeling in the world is disappointment. And it's even worse when you're disappointed in yourself. I haven't been completely honest with myself lately. But, I don't think I've been lying either. Is it denial, maybe? I suppose. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAwtwPMrwPfi
In one hand is the side telling me that I know what I'm doing. It's saying that I know what I'm doing, what I'm hoping for is wrong. I'm begging for something to happen that isn't right for me to beg for. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAnjnv75dHXR
In another hand I'm telling myself that maybe I am doing the right thing. I'm telling myself that fate has led me to this place for a reason. Right? 717Please respect copyright.PENANAumTaozsqzZ
In the end I think I always knew that I was wrong. I feel dumb for even thinking that I was even remotely right. What I need to do is to take a step back and think about things. I'm only looking out for my best interest and not anyone else's. I wasn't thinking about the people I could hurt or the relationship that I would be ruining. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0B46lrI4U
I didn't give that thought a second to occur to me because I was blocking it out. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAUyHtkUOjF7
I didn't want to be wrong, but I was. I was so wrong. 717Please respect copyright.PENANASRwM9emdDX
So, now I'm back at the beginning. Being friendly, but not too friendly. Smiling and laughing, but not too much. Be close, but not too close. Being playful, but not too flirty. Because what I'm hoping and wishing for isn't mine to take. 717Please respect copyright.PENANA9LH6XN1flb
He's already someone else's. 717Please respect copyright.PENANAvEXxFijmB7
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