我和傾姐坐在沙發上,一同蓋在被子下。509Please respect copyright.PENANABcAtpjlCLv
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拉上被子,右手拿出麥提莎,放進口裡。509Please respect copyright.PENANAWYSFgjSEfD
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「咬下——」明白了。509Please respect copyright.PENANAGXCmL9AnoF
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目前,我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上,蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力,使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。509Please respect copyright.PENANAQZ17gq9qmz
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難怪,她會向神許願,祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。509Please respect copyright.PENANA76gNC2BHYG
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脫離現有的生活?慢著,那不正是我做過的,最誇張的一件事嗎?509Please respect copyright.PENANAFilVoWEsj0
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封閉自己的內心,流落孤島,徹底地脫離原本的生活。509Please respect copyright.PENANAlRf3sbyrNE
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神是不是故意的?509Please respect copyright.PENANAh3o0wDBHil
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。509Please respect copyright.PENANAozAmR9DxAH
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我望望時鐘,時間奇怪了。509Please respect copyright.PENANAwmLawFLEQW
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點,顯示著一個奇怪的時間。509Please respect copyright.PENANAnedFoS9qbx
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「雖然你好想幫我,但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAsBxBNubeKm
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「點解咁講?」我問,準備再取下一粒。509Please respect copyright.PENANAadTm960GYH
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人,唔止得蔣少,我都有份。」她自白。509Please respect copyright.PENANAam23or3UGg
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「唔止有份,我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說,「就好似之前,要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAasQOWZohWj
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「我做過嘅壞事,一啲都唔少。」她說,「如果唔係,啲人都唔會咁驚我,我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」509Please respect copyright.PENANA8mdFrPoe5u
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「有一次,中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩,希望我介紹幾個畀佢地,我都介紹咗。」她黯然說,「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」509Please respect copyright.PENANACYx2zyjkF7
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAuktcWQtNGe
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「如果你係想幫我嘅,至少,我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。509Please respect copyright.PENANABVwNPN0J12
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然後我沒有再阻止她。509Please respect copyright.PENANA9B3XU4yOBl
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讓她一直說著自己的壞,說著自己欺負了多少人,威脅了多少人,傷害過多少人。509Please respect copyright.PENANAr7eLCCG7iM
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聽著,我聽到了熟悉的聲音。509Please respect copyright.PENANAk0IdsJwBSv
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不是我也做過這些事,而是我也說過這些話,一些自責的話。509Please respect copyright.PENANAZiRt49Uuac
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透過用言語來責罰自己,讓自己好過一點。509Please respect copyright.PENANAc4Fg3poHRx
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除此之外,在寂靜的夜裡,受著海風的吹襲,以虐待自己的方式來受罰;透過惡言惡語,破壞別人對自己的印象,讓別人討厭自己,也是懲罰自己的方式。509Please respect copyright.PENANAajVyZ35sVh
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象,破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她,同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。509Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZJZMVBDoh
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聽著,聽著,聽見了哽咽。509Please respect copyright.PENANA4GxnUIBfLq
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「Sorry。」她垂下頭,「你聽完,覺得點……仲想唔想幫我?」509Please respect copyright.PENANArGOyg4YL9w
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「定係……」她自我形象低落,幾乎抽泣,「你已經想即刻趕我走?」509Please respect copyright.PENANAd25RkcfVbO
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「做咩唔講嘢?」她問,終於望向我,「喂……」509Please respect copyright.PENANAz9vvE42MRD
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我也正在難過。509Please respect copyright.PENANAPjPd7fCy1i
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「啜泣……」我哭了,抹抹眼睛,「Sorry.。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAtVtMIpgW3H
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「你做咩喊?」傾姐問。509Please respect copyright.PENANA7htRpWX2yK
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAEHMFrPWmSf
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「點解?」她問。509Please respect copyright.PENANAeDUNDOlbUm
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。509Please respect copyright.PENANArP0tg1DySB
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「我驚你太過自責,之後會做傻事。」我說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAwgNeCkdCQf
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同是做壞事的人,同是不原諒自己的人。509Please respect copyright.PENANAyr4mG1Rab3
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人,有我一個就夠了。509Please respect copyright.PENANAs2UkvsEb5a
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「我亦都好感動,你肯講畀我知。」我說,收住了淚。509Please respect copyright.PENANAvG3glBHE6I
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只要說了出來,就不會鎖在心上了。509Please respect copyright.PENANA2DJW7ATrRT
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說,「我上網識男仔,或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」509Please respect copyright.PENANA0LHCAkBiYw
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗,出咗醜聞,蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我,我就可以解脫……」她說,「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAcH7wpuZIPr
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這是……什麼爛方法?509Please respect copyright.PENANAGE6mpjU136
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即使要折磨自己,也不是這樣的吧!509Please respect copyright.PENANAyGhBbkjMjO
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在被子裡的手,握緊了拳。509Please respect copyright.PENANA1HUd43vSfN
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說,「只係,有一個條件。」509Please respect copyright.PENANADdHeDVuaYC
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「咩條件?」她問。509Please respect copyright.PENANAbtPtPMTA7Y
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「搞你嗰個人,要係我。」我說,「除我之外嘅人,你諗都唔好諗。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAmjhoEqxAZd
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陸傾兒笑了,哈哈地笑了。509Please respect copyright.PENANA45Umbzksgl
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「點解?你同其他人有咩分別?點解要係你先得?」她笑著,笑容漸漸僵硬。509Please respect copyright.PENANAGM6k3uhVYB
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「因為其他男人搞完你,就唔會理你,而我會繼續幫你。」我說,「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」509Please respect copyright.PENANAnbDM8v9xgd
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但即使我身在遠方,我都一樣會擔心著你,為你的人生而牽掛。509Please respect copyright.PENANAvzmjUC2x2C
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「你可以點幫我?」她問,「撇除哩個方法唔計,你有咩方法幫到我?」509Please respect copyright.PENANAc2jrelrHvW
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「我已經答咗你好多問題,你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。509Please respect copyright.PENANADI73KhoKz0
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「孫正直,你可以點幫我?點幫陸傾兒?」她問,很想知道。509Please respect copyright.PENANAuLzEJpTP3T
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鬆開了麥提莎,我輕放在地上。509Please respect copyright.PENANAi5Z50GSpq3
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「我唔係神,冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAxW7isRCfoc
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「咁你可以點幫我?」她追問。509Please respect copyright.PENANAnPIYQQP5Oo
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她遇上的困境,不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。509Please respect copyright.PENANAQiiyOPlVEW
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等,就可以過上美好的生活。509Please respect copyright.PENANAjaxxeyO039
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說,淚水情不自禁,「但係……」509Please respect copyright.PENANA3TImen4U7D
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「當你凍嘅時候,我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候,我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候,我可以借個膊頭畀你。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAkC7mFMSnAo
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「今晚嘅我,只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說,「對唔住。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAsxBu8VZIlt
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說完,她聽完。509Please respect copyright.PENANAbJan7cGirx
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「明白,我明白。」她說,「好多謝你今晚可以陪我,好多謝你,可以為我喊。」509Please respect copyright.PENANARpPwlv4n3k
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「我成世女,都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說,準備離開,「好多謝你,孫正直,我有少少感動。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAp4dZqfpBsv
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等等,時間還沒到兩點,仍然是1點35分而已。509Please respect copyright.PENANASB9E5TF18k
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說,「你值得我,畀一個獎勵你。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAQxv1jBH2t4
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被子從她身上落下,露出了她的頸巾、衣服,和手上的電池。509Please respect copyright.PENANAEWjqrzvty6
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「個鐘粒電,我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我,「唔好意思,因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」509Please respect copyright.PENANApTp3cdNzcs
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說,「實在太夜喇,聽朝仲要早起。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAqTlv9RtLKz
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「陸傾兒……」我說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAjcXv5zdTzZ
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「我畀你揀啦,一個獎勵,當最後一回合係我輸咗,而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。509Please respect copyright.PENANAsgStJq4U89
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「揀咩都得?」我問。509Please respect copyright.PENANARe0oApsrXU
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「你揀之前,我仲想講一樣嘢就係,你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒,我搵到嘅開瓶器,就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說,「但你唔想我飲,寧願呃我話冇酒。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAvJOwKUeyVZ
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「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人?」她泛淚,卻微笑。509Please respect copyright.PENANAMkp219CvBw
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而我不懂回答。509Please respect copyright.PENANAGV75XEWPbO
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我是知道有酒的,昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池,只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道,才會在默契之下,延長了時間。509Please respect copyright.PENANAye2WawyJMe
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「陸傾兒,我揀……」我準備說。509Please respect copyright.PENANAup0qIHjSaK
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「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖?」她先說,站在我的面前。509Please respect copyright.PENANALlHXjGJEJ7
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我展露微笑,問,「你覺得我敢唔敢?敢唔敢揀哩樣?同傾姐錫一啖。」509Please respect copyright.PENANAd3yQqHQJqT
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「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。509Please respect copyright.PENANA87YdlWQqve
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「我驚死,我當然驚死。」我說,慢慢翻開被子。509Please respect copyright.PENANAVYZZPM8dko
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「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。509Please respect copyright.PENANAmKhDAkah8o
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過後——509Please respect copyright.PENANA8AiAv7Huvz
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。509Please respect copyright.PENANAy8UHrE7ncy
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屁股坐下。509Please respect copyright.PENANAXe4ccwkL3J
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。509Please respect copyright.PENANAm3AAhLeGqa