我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDAELVMDR3
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dKZ3udDO7
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGUK8tqlSj
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWXunytIOb
「咬下——」明白了。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbxRj7KyHT
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T3VGVTUe4
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGujQ490cI
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmA0QLE0hyP
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ezZtw0N0t
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FYdYnQFN2
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLdYYOhusz
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY0aHCK7Jb
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzdq3I72qa
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvylbU9ZuD
神是不是故意的？746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxEd3fWneU
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4Rug5xpUb
竟然……安排這種測試給我。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbldj23uhdy
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1mrpCXEs0
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbBT4myBWv
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmDVQVXA5P
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrkBL8nRe7
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9l3Qgb4Y9
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjXI0b7Uq4
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzgD8tlrcU
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VdUSXZwlB
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGC7ThEZt3
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD1gQz2WuB
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58oHgyw8K1
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6Rbw0SjiJ
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdjLgsGIG1
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRotQ3OCdz
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQtr1rOeAW
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfRzzKoEKX
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcOSjQv8pc
「唔好再講喇。」我說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyh8cF5ETHE
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNTsMGVeLi
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oESENQPGL
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbmrsjQQsP
然後我沒有再阻止她。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydVuge3y7x
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCTMLvRcBe
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPVOjj8oVd
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvU2GQvk5Od
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyX0XdJmhi1
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinnF8jd6Pp
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn3Mmsr1gE
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuRkhmn4PU
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM1nYXbyvW
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W3ivGCdWQ
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd67nebOkS
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIhFnm12hr
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluGVoGPwmO
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7N2wIsI57
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7qqgp8tug
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6s4UtwkkW
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4Ihr7C8FV
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNX4Jhvwvm
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XSxWpplhX
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRlxwPJpQl
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhof23a43y
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBnFm46oYX
我也正在難過。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiucHRknWm
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55qdpdlaQV
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhWiXeVGZD
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV52t4kq4sq
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5SDGQDPsn
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbErmK1gOPY
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpryEmmZVI7
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7BCdxcBzJ
「點解？」她問。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA7m0iSb2s
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCePulUqqNr
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkjSYUG6oR
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6hYEZqTBF
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3mffF8qeD
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV7Y9x4WDd
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMvxj2VcgJ
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTCu49269N
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSdDHAaDIZ
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3k3MGRHyc
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6O6tApZTtu
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgSewY9CJG
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnObhMtPgf
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75k8mAla3z
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlXlOoAGYR
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokBqLVc1SW
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSjGANCy7Z
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5040xQ0wnW
這是……什麼爛方法？746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeSv8WlQbz
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vrsoKG0Fd
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFg4Q4aZ1D
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNu5Zxn3ZJ
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCaottRi0F
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqd5JoqDCdg
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR5uxBhDd4
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZlMEqSVFT
「咩條件？」她問。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz3qOBLagS
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbz33QhnF3
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMdBrNJJ7s
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrFSMXOMKP
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVLI6Zdi1F
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tGOLChZig
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVaVB7eDar
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wHPsYmWa5
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCjHcpuHWY
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1py065HBZo
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRW91xsjgo
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlNMSG7ZFF
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxv0OzkYNL
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CoH7OG6bJ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2j0rd4pak
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJTEriy7oR
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYhKwYRu2w
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JuqBzROqr
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblMMolboIa
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaViPd8DgqF
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnxtpyQNZq
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKam4HGtmWc
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WIP69hhmf
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZF3FjKx39
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdmDzQk2YB
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCO0Y3sTqET
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDeV0AVgGm
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAB6f2nA00o
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rpxTCL2j5
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCeTIY27NX
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWZV79c1iP
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHDNJxHsJu
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNuejqCKEc
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc8CIVUhrL
說完，她聽完。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ohk0Zqfeu
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQO7bBU8aB
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGsFCAnv7P
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYs0jHNMGv
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww68o2TB1d
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiiaCA40lc
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4dHldZ04a
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaSGcPON9B
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6a6p6gBBY
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3fST7yMDm
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQ3LY76ETU
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZQboT8xsp
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2gydA960C
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnPXyZYcB4
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xc4lSqsre
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDMlBujBQ3
「陸傾兒……」我說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XdoTRzLMc
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8gZKuwBnc
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24FetMpRJV
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hNz8DtR5v
「揀咩都得？」我問。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1YkytQgME
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkewhT7xFyR
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8atPXm0jnM
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcew0odHnk
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGXKKv3KXt
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6qT4sxj6z
而我不懂回答。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWUP9eUWyR
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4LOxSJNx2
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiGUjDWqsC
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyuuNsERvh
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ621zCQAK
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c05iI7pky
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVycLvlXhs
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgzvAnm6T2
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB4fHF9AnV
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp5O6qhV3F
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UnFCtFxuN
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66puGI9TU6
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wdqQKK0GP
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IAN8rdzrZ
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnRgmOKkRm
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Olin7kzBm
過後——746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFAQPUtYIu
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pmXtmmf2y
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vgKO8AEVh
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEe9daa6OBW
屁股坐下。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxWmVU3AAm
746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ2wirAGFt
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。746Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44GyHsgZLL
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