我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBQeyKjlIl
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxClLY3E9D0
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「咬下——」明白了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VccD4U1or
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEzvw1fyLA
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5YQm8he55
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUn6sjyZSi
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdmMXRdV3d
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjX8CArtBa9
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5ZqHqYroO
神是不是故意的？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeOZdjeFap
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TU3PRRtQK
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJQUNz7m8W
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYNyu3enm8
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmRiBlDzTR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA3bwOWcAa
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvT4gb42umM
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyo8ASVk3a
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wCMj5i4qi
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVstWQ4OBJ
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq6q16b7te
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeqVo9ydFI
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkjJCuloTj
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQuoFX1vNY
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYp4Avmy8v
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8D1eHsYPX
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLfuWaYNhe
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然後我沒有再阻止她。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ594w6o6LCM
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9j8Xgq5UCP
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqkzNGyGr5
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeqAdFkpTs
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxioVtS3cfu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlrBZeh2hb
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFklelnH0uA
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED4mi5fRIb
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsfCmnUJSD
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WOeUynN39
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo0t7DJEwI
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUTtC1DP6r
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKQOeX4yHT
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZkypcWcs6
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEpnPBEB0B
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6kmB7pEd5
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dNXvmf9oF
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m9inO1psC
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX18frrsyW
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpymfTuu7W
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2C7YvHM8n
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANcWi6LBpQ
我也正在難過。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb0LXTp3Aq
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh87u4o6CJW
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTGPSPtJKb
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zcjw4Ros2
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavCMrwQ4fx
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtsH0SXlst
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「點解？」她問。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4vL1SH2O6
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZ046MUbgL
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpJCJVypIu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ85MwkIqu
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQX3YdL1HMN
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6cg1dv0NS
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEI6EQ5qkR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeBGGWc1Bs
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpcc4P1xj7
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzDDyGR3Ze
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPLCCsq1Ui
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6GcmSRs1H
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJD10v1oAWQ
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuOiWDcKhg
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvr1mF1VMd
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這是……什麼爛方法？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiAptv0teL
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuScYkVbFbn
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcr0bBpsJU
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxd3P6SuTo
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigTuzGPhQR
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFBvJmqaiE
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YYZU3iVv3
「咩條件？」她問。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpClm2jXd1
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPdqlLjf0U
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2GS9cgl4s
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDZWRNzOAG
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA7unSHIeU
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ars1SofTh
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRRhMLLrHn
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgw0Xvk72X
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZpUjljSPZ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsMvGUNxp2
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozIpBeSarY
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3wxOrQxB2
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd74vNbgdtB
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAHfKRGCRf
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IJLGAa3YS
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAQRYBOdTI
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl35rXhRZD
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DRSuUd8q0
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJZha416xu
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qXATiX7XG
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsCI6WqoYm
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv4OkMaAMR
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu90U92akqj
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhym1Vq1n54
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCRbpz26dY
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQkE7zDnN1
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokUHPiyUU2
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7B7dTmtgR
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhQnE6hDiZ
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDxMKHim8V
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr6WNABOLM
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtfWO9rlJn
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TNg9ZfpG6
說完，她聽完。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXohhGgZMh
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5YYKZd0We
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC06ZnomeD2
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpHs5k0QNX
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ucIimFzb5
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4EM37rz1M
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOO6FbhD9x
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht6oGxrsIz
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wSrXxBpjy
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMIbQyZ9wH
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZdhGrxXuf
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8ndh4aWwh
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfEkoPItQi
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJBhUlzeWH
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIS59BzjY9
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG5gjW5o6C
「陸傾兒……」我說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT50IVIkPvI
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNSNeBWCJC
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ODL1ECXCQ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcPcwv1Iro
「揀咩都得？」我問。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcGG0EuMow
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocO8qjJb8Y
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdbAxpYefQ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsRVGAOPii
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRnlEMiewX
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9piAM1PYb
而我不懂回答。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQW4P7m5Rn6
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgfokfj5vo
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1cztf29VG
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmLBJT6Q3z
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBBDYOIA1e
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanjFimnyin
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYGSLn0LSV
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH55Lnt131
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdMEtcdsgf
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh6cGMT5QH
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNG44ddBI47
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8Rc0dKLmz
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaygDHiBlgZ
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3gWdAZKSN
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0UnnSZw6J
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過後——691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcpo83ZFdZ
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNnwViUUwL
691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztGum4ZXqk
屁股坐下。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hWXAkEQse
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw78ZmSalY5
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