Chapter fifty-nine
He was angry. Angry at everyone and everything. Everyone had wronged him. Everyone irritated him. Nobody was good. Everything was dark. All the time. Nothing was serious. Or permanent. He fucked endless girls like there was no tomorrow. He didn't care about those girls. Just like nobody cared when his little sister and her friend were raped. And beaten. Then murdered like dogs. And when he found the bodies, bruised and pale. Or when he found his other little sister's body dead and limp. Floating in the water. Blood everywhere. Wrists slit. Her beautiful face pale and lifeless, nothing like the real her. He didn't care about anything.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFStdSdwZn0
That he would soon come to start hurting himself. Use physical pain to distract from the emotional pain.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21I37hf24x
He'd watched his family slowly unravel, nothing he could do to stop it. He didn't know how to stop the pain. The slow burn that was within him. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwAP00oeTp
It annoyed him. Frustrated him. That he couldn't help anything. He couldn't help himself. Or anyone, for that matter.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxs6fsmjTg
He turned to things that eased the pain temporarily. Alcohol. Marijuana. Sex. Hurting other people.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL65mNxG919
He drank and drank despite everyone's efforts to get through to him.
He couldn't see past the anger and pain. It haunted him. His dreams, his days. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmDsCpurjP
He convinced himself that he was meant to be alone. That if his sisters couldn't have a life than neither could he.
He pretended that he hadn't seen his father hit his mother. He pretended that his family was perfect before it fell apart.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBDdsWNpxX
He pretended that his mother hadn't left the family because of his and his father's mistakes.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HuwuteG84
He convinced himself that he doesn't deserve love or respect. That the demons that live within him were too strong.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH7Y9M7D30
That's he's a fuck-up. A mistake, hindering the growth and lives of others.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mbwiArdjC
He didn't just hate himself, he wanted to destroy himself. But he couldn't. His parents had already lost two children. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4mNPb0h1X
So, he was forced to live a meaningless, loveless, existence. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9lEOVGWUY
He walked around the world not giving a fuck what anyone thought of him.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9wUMGP6yT
Disrespecting and hurting people left, right, and center. If he couldn't be happy then no one could.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsrwYj0Ve3
He did want to get to know anyone. Be friends with anyone. He disregarded niceties and politeness.
Until.......259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDqsNeNOtr
Her beautiful dark curly hair shone through the darkness.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBcL1ZmsZD
Her figure enticed, barely shown. Not enough to satisfy his wandering eyes.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3aoicIjET
Her almond-shaped eyes gave him a glimpse of heaven, distracting him from his eternal hell and self-damnation.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hQFM2kUf7
She didn't know how beautiful she was so she walked around with a certain sense of naivety as well as knowing that the world wasn't all good.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTlaMHzB0R
She didn't know how much men wanted her. Her innocence. Her purity. How many girls wanted her looks and the attention she got from men.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQAaKTF4VU
She was polite and let others get away with far too much.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkfWgjbhvM
Honest but was sometimes forced to hide her true self. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS25o6XWQ5K
Appealing.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs6aHxc6b6
Quiet but tried to be outgoing.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCh3BSStTlh
A walking contradiction.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuCcozreTm
He was dying to get to know her.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLglB1TM5E
He thought it was simple lust. Arousal. Horniness?259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuYsOH7QKS
But somewhere, deep inside of him, he knew that she was different. He could just tell. 259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jbasQPiEs
He didn't know that soon his whole world would revolve around her.
That she would become his addiction.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4IP0M4o5Q
His light.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtiXf7rGrk
His savior.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpqyO1EmxA
His second chance.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKgkB1DeVa
She was the poison and the antidote.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaVxEYwqcZ
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