第五十九．五章758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPhPyeRVoB
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoUzwU3GVg
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVJPVvrM4c
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMh5Wl4zIj
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BZ2BhL1r3
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NFqOh3FRW
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MjvoSa6m3
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFC0I5kBQYy
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vrkbukzC2
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpAMXfd537
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicYdTVPKZb
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcUBUmA3J0
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa2yyJ63yD
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBubcW23V9X
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdFILbl6O0
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLB6wlZoWWF
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSoLcf4eGX
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdB7q3LTbY
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwfC35PNM1
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLXRO8k4sN
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUzwscJD7G
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9dZqtVaL5
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqlMXVDwhT
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyhcIL6ysH
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhFXIa8SUa
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfesaseeIFD
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaDw2Et14l
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboOrnUk54d
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HFPOJAZoS
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlls8mAYC3
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8QH1Ye416
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWM0tWZJaTh
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgRIYxSUft
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrchn8tZpe
他回答著我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNblE0Z7qT
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB5oUJUDwG
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7oBewawFg
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fZxxg5acG
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOzv3EUqKf
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsu02R20XOH
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbOOBuUoxl
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKtY4vY2A0
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59PPigvwhB
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi45RcIoI3U
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9avf37WVq
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo93hgY07Sx
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57imVQjNAH
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqL16wXFCc
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJOZRkPMmy
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNIDP7T8oC
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGv47G7WoSb
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ9IZM6flq
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRWzFDm5JM
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2GQOWk1TH
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EbEY64m72
拜託不要再說這些說話了……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSZCs5VdMp
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjFBzBqMXv
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSRtYThyDH
但是我還得繼續演下去……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvny97zfI8
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1wczaGlaZ
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnLR658FQp
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhg3AfPG0Ob
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsxhBayEcy
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LpP1TINdF
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCirFoSyRX
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ln4ROLAfN
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5tEghg0UD
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr8JCclmyi
我看似很有道理地說著。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwdD4W2r8w
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRrtaM3eXk
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXENx5Zbsj
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gwm4tWxRS
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBg6Mq6zJm
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP9rGBzbTT
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBb4B7ThGE
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBH5IcrmT9t
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq77xGPUJ1
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBJC1VGdtA
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBHaUxghVA
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PH3ii2lec
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sGupDIKz8
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD7xzO6Js7
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshB0E4SKv3
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoABsC2yvkA
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkPcYZodBA
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT7oOrHj29
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldB1XLmuCz
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuWYBtoy0P
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHhHvx7crs
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5orMwwk79
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXOKpq0MTM
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyADRJMBWly
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHF0rFbyGdG
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkXA8o1cbk
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjarIdqCVd
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNtivAxWGS
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOOldYfcP5
我不想他後悔。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcw1cE0M24
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOy5YrCnVQ
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCoQovf6BT
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVX2bI769l
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSp8NvBLkM
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkw3M67nw65
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMaChFpIrg
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfPMTSUUUT
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPis3UjV7Ld
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCYk8svIN6
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrWcbY1rGe
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOtaSvpnTE
758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9aXQWE5cu
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINhsj1SCjp
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoR1n8R2ojy
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。758Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd0iduBAop
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