Maybe it was jealousy.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTE29fSnAp
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2ONxCvFfK
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzJmKypya2
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqqPA9sCqU
It wasn’t that.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Xn97kecYz
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiZRIoP8VP
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpzSPO3JmQ
Terrified, actually.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtpTJBRsPD
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvv5uq3t2HP
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7gTRdsO5x
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRhsbvnXOU
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMUQG3cFHP
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BBHGjUJvn
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeNesmLwBR
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvXgUBt6Sn
Because love is blind,110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUi1JsQZtJR
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2J2rpaFEhV
Not love.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc587WA4CzI
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKxabM8eA4
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiLd6OJFvw
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWBhFEryNh
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmU0NFRXV9b
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jfkRQeSD3
not gripped tight.
You see,110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELAKX4pHYJ
I wasn’t jealous.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmsfraGwgm
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgxRloQFLY
The us we created in tiny moments —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MbxV2cK9u
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoulWVk2cB
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EAQK3YxQU
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR5kvEBCbw
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOioG6c2vl7
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0FyjZwYkK
Me. And you.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw9EnMs9T4
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKWqKtdfDK
Letting go, not because someone better came along…110Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3glH2QKOk
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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