Maybe it was jealousy.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi3SG60cH0
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aq3uUgBgr
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5kHRrSF92
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk1P4kx9Zh
It wasn’t that.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOePkMVlZP
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxqKDI1QT8
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVeBJAQpph
Terrified, actually.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVpKoRP6nH
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ241ZUMfJAm
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHKFsUhD3m
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbBeTTZ0lb
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6kMjrMhY2
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwFnO9c2hh
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsWPeLcTxp
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIRKrLCJ9v
Because love is blind,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTYNVItI3H
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAV2ZIt8yn
Not love.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2zbkJZlbW
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm1ROd9QjJ
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnklRzljfc
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud4L26l0pc
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkeiPxVRrl
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1G2R32aaB
not gripped tight.
You see,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidNVaTpgwt
I wasn’t jealous.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnsW4sLQ5j
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXOGnwSbmQ
The us we created in tiny moments —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGKmUgDsbQ
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBF9bPeN0uZ
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUZnEDU9wl
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YDeCiI9Uj
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6aHayzkY6
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotwz8rbTbt
Me. And you.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpN4nn1soo0
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraf0ifU0N7
Letting go, not because someone better came along…127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLvwMlTp4U
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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