Maybe it was jealousy.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFon53pjtvq
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NKITAPUyZ
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpjryUN1d1
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbGnjjvnn4
It wasn’t that.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUcU5woHLN
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHTH6s8QDI
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbe9io0oJus
Terrified, actually.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1CKSNqfAy
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLG74IqiRyf
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpQziBQerD
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcTqZ6m3Ho
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawbAuHXNzJ
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcZIQs4uFG
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWK0DsiGMMj
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2U7mvQdG1
Because love is blind,130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiH5W0G4Te
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56eRiNMZux
Not love.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKX0lbESRK
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDYyFW01sb
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiG6nYBQp0
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgu2cTT8U9c
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RfoZO66eg
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaShPXidI5r
not gripped tight.
You see,130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN21hBKWT7z
I wasn’t jealous.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTsCYwE1PT
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSdmvA3MH4
The us we created in tiny moments —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK8Cx8xqNk
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9REbY7FTc7
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiz1Lj1jgN
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri3kNqyxXn
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBovuErq0g
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDM2vaMtw5
Me. And you.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk6gbnlX4m
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o8AN5zkyy
Letting go, not because someone better came along…130Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIoSd4oLAU
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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