Maybe it was jealousy.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljBFHcrdMQ
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtXGXKIYqJ
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB67KDmf898
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGB5SHDPxi
It wasn’t that.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iWzrlLr8U
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lNAAmJ5PA
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8To5vdKB8
Terrified, actually.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwR1x8xL8Kp
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD09WSWc5r
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TJPq2iWdW
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLESJAMA0ts
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliWTrsFsoT
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFzDz9mk9k
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowBNWkQuKx
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugInKXrf0l
Because love is blind,20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYShTOp2ys
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJbvvuzB2I
Not love.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaGq5h6j3E
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡit3fhYF5Tb
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbK0Y1OaYMw
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomzeyIa9fO
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yI9XbH534
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEduYbJIKn
not gripped tight.
You see,20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC12rMMEoMO
I wasn’t jealous.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVeGiq6Ud0
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKQN10PFCc
The us we created in tiny moments —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEDVvNhV3t
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQvmAhp5aA
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73TuyIsmzs
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgY5WY1LI2
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuABPvjoQwD
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxZLjtht1N
Me. And you.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PIY9NHFLF
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIk4sUgY6J
Letting go, not because someone better came along…20Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNWG8ScWNl
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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