Maybe it was jealousy.131Please respect copyright.PENANAjxIIdteICu
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —131Please respect copyright.PENANABQiEMr62bP
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:131Please respect copyright.PENANAUaqX295OD7
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.131Please respect copyright.PENANA96tx6ZfIRP
It wasn’t that.131Please respect copyright.PENANABNjqRxkkhr
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.131Please respect copyright.PENANAbh0Wzyjkfo
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.131Please respect copyright.PENANAwhzWQhhMmr
Terrified, actually.131Please respect copyright.PENANAXDQt5cEBlv
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —131Please respect copyright.PENANAJGFR6ldcIb
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —131Please respect copyright.PENANAZ68M9f0jvr
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.131Please respect copyright.PENANAq8mnunPkdB
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.131Please respect copyright.PENANAerR0FQhnfm
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —131Please respect copyright.PENANAnzPQjIDy2E
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.131Please respect copyright.PENANAGXsGzIwHYC
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.131Please respect copyright.PENANAtSXwu2IcqF
Because love is blind,131Please respect copyright.PENANAXfSpJt1PLq
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.131Please respect copyright.PENANAtLAqb6FZKp
Not love.131Please respect copyright.PENANAo1Y94tszNN
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.131Please respect copyright.PENANAgBuPTelINO
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.131Please respect copyright.PENANA8tbtejSES0
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?131Please respect copyright.PENANAnT5L3O30Wt
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —131Please respect copyright.PENANAZXllJgwMam
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,131Please respect copyright.PENANAQFWRhSM09i
not gripped tight.
You see,131Please respect copyright.PENANAl9SbA2cm06
I wasn’t jealous.131Please respect copyright.PENANAxJLSN5Z4Ox
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.131Please respect copyright.PENANAhgE2LKnkdH
The us we created in tiny moments —131Please respect copyright.PENANAipgbAMpFjW
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,131Please respect copyright.PENANAyKJsYMblXL
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.131Please respect copyright.PENANALLPyNNTf2s
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —131Please respect copyright.PENANAIreBrltcPO
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.131Please respect copyright.PENANAJf5CNvYFnE
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.131Please respect copyright.PENANAofFMo0yibn
Me. And you.131Please respect copyright.PENANAp9QiPEcPDo
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.131Please respect copyright.PENANA785DkWugBh
Letting go, not because someone better came along…131Please respect copyright.PENANAuUKDNr47A1
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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