Maybe it was jealousy.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxIIdteICu
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQiEMr62bP
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaqX295OD7
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96tx6ZfIRP
It wasn’t that.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNjqRxkkhr
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbh0Wzyjkfo
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhzWQhhMmr
Terrified, actually.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDQt5cEBlv
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGFR6ldcIb
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ68M9f0jvr
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8mnunPkdB
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerR0FQhnfm
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzPQjIDy2E
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXsGzIwHYC
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSXwu2IcqF
Because love is blind,131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfSpJt1PLq
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLAqb6FZKp
Not love.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1Y94tszNN
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBuPTelINO
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tbtejSES0
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnT5L3O30Wt
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXllJgwMam
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFWRhSM09i
not gripped tight.
You see,131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9SbA2cm06
I wasn’t jealous.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJLSN5Z4Ox
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgE2LKnkdH
The us we created in tiny moments —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipgbAMpFjW
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKJsYMblXL
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLPyNNTf2s
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIreBrltcPO
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJf5CNvYFnE
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofFMo0yibn
Me. And you.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9QiPEcPDo
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ785DkWugBh
Letting go, not because someone better came along…131Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUKDNr47A1
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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