There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0M1cjUrmW8
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuo6Gd3UNo
Not love. Not promises.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdgG85loMn
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26ocKZK1wV
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmSP2s9sEu
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaAZSFZJ8O
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4zwXpHII1
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiLJCnEalz
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSutNETzFi
The confession.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJsKPAssvA
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjReQHiRc8
Over WhatsApp.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IoqnYmhb8
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzT15cIalr
Of course I did.
It would be a no—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSaSK1Sr2y
In the present,44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjJqfqOog9
In the past,44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXZghycZ0k
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPmm4jeFx5
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWElpnmmw6T
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DmQCwx1Xh
I replied 49/51.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPo8gclrCJ
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKqbgs7Ivd
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3DYVcUbfh
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx0Lu47rXx
cause It and I knew from a long time.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA719b7eDRB
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The externals started.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RJTbT6aWu
The rush came back flying.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYbaW61cNu
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While I was in a war with thoughts.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZmpctyqXB
And as the days went on.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoFEvVYpfe
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One random night, while I waited in silence,44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N5QSLSYiL
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUn4PSTF4k
I was waiting for Seren to name her.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfmaRNL412
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedAtMrdifV
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnSCZhNlNC
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT8vdmmptA
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqfpCAjPyO
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMn1Omj2Wq
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7ktNO7cwa
No one could.
And I was left—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUueINJh4U
Bloody.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5HbpwwvTb
Bitten.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaolbgvicWB
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaekfLPs5Q
Some you could see.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA87FbVGkly
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Y0zudY8Tx
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA7QxFRIga
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyy2wfgH8F
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaW4RKAcu7r
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRocQOQuON
The mind says go.
One believes.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtLFVdoRDY
One doubts.
One clings.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3QLuv39u1
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSqHXmjJa5
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8j1KeMVeR
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS4LTKI4OW
Attended the exam.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ps1zXAifI
Laughed with friends.44Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFfkZcBZGw
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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