Maybe it was jealousy.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50fvKiV2nV
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIMcSr4MwC
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobLzPsoEkv
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo8HX9cIpq
It wasn’t that.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWFxfw6BE3
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuDD6yOCD8
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdoxrzz2ay
Terrified, actually.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsZt9u5JFv
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6NAxLn5en
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHjZsvsNK4
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCUg1nQTbP
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmk1A4pwQtD
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWXejRXGew
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE9BmT3JXe
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdhySR62lP
Because love is blind,137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLnd35pbms
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5eKXstQRO
Not love.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSZBBazKq5
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpY0yPeKJ6
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuJEnff5cw
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3Q1zsmLMG
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7j4RAGwPo
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLbjJ574PH
not gripped tight.
You see,137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9krGwUzkW
I wasn’t jealous.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGdVRPcxC0
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBNmx6x3Mw
The us we created in tiny moments —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWfNQkXczr
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pv0QddocH
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GG9vkxGkc
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPYAkzyD51
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI581aPlXA0
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed31fxdGtf
Me. And you.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHHgTdhVux
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaE5jPhPgS
Letting go, not because someone better came along…137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSIARqccm4
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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