There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbHuCmD12x
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8vXttS0UK
Not love. Not promises.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao6cTQjrfN
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfftgvs65w
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT508MGkOO
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrW36EQtB7
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdFT7tpwSQ
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkdcNQNhre
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kJKQoGuhc
The confession.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dIAhpjMMt
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolEn300eSV
Over WhatsApp.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ba4U1lpuU
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLgleLrVu9
Of course I did.
It would be a no—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRSGkvQWtJ
In the present,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy8weI7PZp
In the past,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltqMtq2b8s
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdw4ckAtyq6
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3EHfjICw5
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62HMvS7BSi
I replied 49/51.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcHS8AH7tH
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLM5mObcazq
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTVlJSRqRN
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaO8GUmURGH
cause It and I knew from a long time.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCRNHsm9OD
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The externals started.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTBPKK5dq4
The rush came back flying.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbzuz4FvGT
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While I was in a war with thoughts.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdX7JpnaCP
And as the days went on.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSbr28V6dw
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One random night, while I waited in silence,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6P936SbSft
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoOmET8j4p
I was waiting for Seren to name her.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UYsWb35gR
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKdhsVmjl2
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqO7CcZdMw
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznJVboE8dl
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVKgF7gIdM
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIVmztnwHU
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5bAWJ94og
No one could.
And I was left—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTySBfdoN2
Bloody.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXamUdwcuKp
Bitten.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qG9xUadUv
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vAKSayVGL
Some you could see.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBoT3UBngb
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpvAQ74Vnx
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibXVMjhv5A
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJxyq9Ly4L
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrgsgs0Zyn
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNkUHFwWOJ
The mind says go.
One believes.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97jZv6HYQD
One doubts.
One clings.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOParq24Ij
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nYX4ZR3Pj
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84tqgDmX1h
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNC1kwtSB3
Attended the exam.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqy6vdxqUu
Laughed with friends.11Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxCFCjhTiK
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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