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赤司拼命地去投身工作，拿壹些旁的事情來堵住內心翻滾而上的思緒。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDsOjeb2lr
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他其實早就察覺了，自己對待黑子的感情，早就超出了壹開始單純地想去欺侮占有的程度。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4NMmfvqmc
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不知不覺中就變得愈來愈在意那個人的想法、那個人的心情、那個人的思緒，走了這麽久壹回頭，發現自己產生了壹種大概叫做“愛情”的心緒。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vkpX3Th1r
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可他總是欺騙自己，欺騙自己只不過是不想讓對方太過難過，才對他那麽好的。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XEpIcvxnt
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可其實慢慢難過起來的是自己。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGER6ZBRKMW
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只要壹停下工作，那晚黑子臥在床上盯著他的場景就會閃回在腦海裏——9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALdJR0tfEk
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“吶，赤司君，妳喜歡我，對吧？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj7Ri58YOe
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他無力地拿拳砸向桌子，現在的自己，要怎麽辦才好？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlefqXWP2L
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自己背負的姓氏、結姻的任務、家族的名譽，都必須要考慮，他不是什麽普通的孩子，想談戀愛的話，就可以瘋狂地去愛。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUnJgSekUL
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那個小混蛋，為什麽，為什麽，偏偏就，喜歡上了呢？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0KH4UMYSQ
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冷戰了大約兩個禮拜的壹個下午，赤司從外面回來，疲乏地走進了書房。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykqLeQ6D4p
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電話聲突兀地想起，他接了起來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOkyX7yv9Y
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“呦，兒子，最近可好？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlw7DB7iLd
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是父親的聲音！9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwsC5Qe9lZ
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赤司想起自從那日自己回來沒給父親回電話，對方似乎也再沒聯系過自己。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVhjcQQtGy
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自己社交季才呆了壹個星期，舞會結束後就回去了，父親大概會生氣。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPdHyvb1v7
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“父親，這邊壹切都好。”他強作鎮定，回話。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxyxY6U46Y
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“哼，妳是該玩得挺好的。”赤司征臣語氣裏聽不出情緒，“那位小助理，妳很喜歡？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukVgYjPILS
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“不，”赤司心裏慌亂了起來，也不知道父親這麽說，是不是知道些什麽，“他工作起來很不錯，很有責任心…”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01JSFeMyEp
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“妳少給我裝蒜！”那邊有些不耐煩的聲音“很喜歡那個人？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElXdySxWS9
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“沒有，”赤司心裏害怕起來，“只是找個人陪在身邊而已。”他不敢告訴父親，他怕黑子會遭到壹些不利的事情。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qMgkSw4e4
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“征十郎，”那邊語氣放松了壹些，但還是嚴肅，“妳要是想要床伴，有人陪著，我是壹點不介意的，畢竟妳到了這個年紀。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WIsL6AGy2
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“可是如果妳動了心，栽了進去，那我可就得管管妳了！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM10ZrzN7p9
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“妳所看到的、接觸到的，不過是幻影。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAzhyffqY9
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“妳現在喜歡那個人，喜歡得不得了，可妳敢保證，壹個月過去、半年過去、十年五年過去，妳還會喜歡他麽？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gcVG6dnDO
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“妳喜歡的究竟是那個人，還是只是那個人的皮相，妳得想好！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfgtH9vAdE
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“那位小助理，看著白白嫩嫩，是討人喜歡，可所謂外表容顏，都是會老去的！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6fzN7VDzb
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“世上很少有什麽不變的東西，但家族姓氏，這是壹樣！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBy6U6LVEy
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxprf4bin3F
“我問妳，妳覺得，所謂家族，是怎樣的東西？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPB28U4iXK
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1z7N7cm14F
“我的祖父、我的父親、我、妳，還有妳的子孫，他們都會老去、都會腐爛、屍骨歸於泥土、不見蹤影。他們的名字都不會不會被世人所熟記，無論在世時多叱咤風雲，終會被世界所遺忘。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNZZhRkPqW
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“真正傳承下去的是姓氏、是家族的榮耀、是壹種叫做名譽的東西。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBdA0dm4AA
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“把這個姓氏背後的意義傳承下去，是我們每壹個大家族在每壹場糜爛舞會、燈紅酒綠、尋尋覓覓後要做的事情。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocGBYqw25D
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“所以我們不能有私情、尤其是這種見不了光的事情，不能給家族抹黑，不能什麽都由著自己的性子。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aTRtgyVAg
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“我剛才說了，所謂皮相，是會老去的。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9Y5lNIMUE
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“可如果妳是赤司征十郎，如果妳很好地背負起這個姓氏，那妳在以後的路上，有很多新的年輕有活力的人會因為這個姓氏來喜歡妳傾慕妳，妳根本不用守著壹個人，惶恐地害怕他老去。只要妳肯背負這個姓氏，喜歡妳的人妳數都數不清！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtB7sXGEbX
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聽到這裏，赤司握緊了拳頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszk0j0Ko0h
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是啊，會有很多人因為這個姓氏追逐自己，他知道的，可那不是因為他自己。他不想要什麽三千繁花，曾經有壹個人只願意為自己而喜而悲，不是因為什麽姓氏的原因來喜歡自己，只是單純地喜歡他這個人，這難道不就是很珍貴的麽？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Jmx17Ftfb
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可那個人喜歡的，到底是不是真正的自己，還是自己扮演的那個溫柔的追逐者，他已經分不清了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAZWhsI018
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如果，如果是真正的自己，對方也會喜歡麽？9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUXzqjT71h
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父親接著在那邊說：“總之，我最後勸妳壹次，當床伴，可以。若妳壹定要做傻事的話，我這邊也不會客氣。下月的社交宴會，壹場不許缺席、不許壹場下來壹次舞都不去邀，妳給我記牢！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EUyyQxFi6
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赤司答了是，掛了電話，累得靠在了椅子上。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWTgPctt0j
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突然傳來了悉悉索索的聲音，他睜開了眼睛。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUA5kqcO0g
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書架後的黑子，慢慢地走了出來，站在了他的面前。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZkRB8GIeJ
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赤司頭疼地揉了揉額頭，開口：“妳都聽見了。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIqmUEhUSF
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黑子點點頭，他本來是坐在後面看書，赤司進來他本想離開這個房間，對方接了電話，他倒有些不方便出來，房間裏這麽安靜，他全聽見了。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdyc8zKOQT
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赤司心裏煩，說：“妳先回房間吧。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOiZVSzh10
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黑子搖搖頭，開口：“我想和妳好好談談。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4i3H21X7dD
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赤司單手扶住頭，他已經兩個禮拜沒看到黑子了，他不知道怎麽面對對方，壹直在逃避。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTGOXh5k2e
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但逃避果然是解決不了問題的，他終於開口：“好吧。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Yr9ekPbGh
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黑子坐在旁邊的沙發上，然後平靜地看著他，幽幽地開口：“妳也知道的吧，我們不能壹直這麽走下去。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfJaDgErff
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赤司強壓住心裏的不安：“妳這話什麽意思？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwlGRnbkSc
9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcYsO9IsxK
黑子繼續冷靜地開口：“我承認，我曾經欺騙過妳，是我不對在先。可這麽長時間了，即便妳報復也該報復完了。我想要離開，算我拜托妳。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmEyZaKDcN
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赤司想要開口說些什麽，卻被黑子阻攔了：“還是說妳壹定要這麽狠心，完全地毀了我妳才願意？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mgYiMSed7
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赤司盯著他，半天只能說出壹句話：“我早就知道…我早就知道會有這麽壹天的…”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1diwqgkzcL
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沈默了良久，還是問了這個壹直纏繞在他心裏的問題：“吶，黑子，妳有沒有真正喜歡過我？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJjHtKtC2Q
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“喜歡過，”黑子毫不遲疑地就回答了，“很喜歡很喜歡。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrinuzCCtnK
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“那，現在呢？”赤司追問。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBG5Fsiv2K
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“我不知道，”黑子搖搖頭，“喜歡妳太累了，我喜歡不動了。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS7ZnUH7Gp
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“喜歡壹個人，怎麽會累呢？”赤司不死心。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPJFUT9sFg
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黑子莞爾：“妳有沒有聽過壹句拼接的俗語‘情不知所起，壹往情深，再而衰，三而竭。’？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGC37BZIWz2
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赤司冷笑：“在我看來，那只不過是因為情不夠深罷了！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dHFfyatEX
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“情不夠深？”黑子突然收斂了目光，冷冽地盯著他，好像變了壹個人，“妳怎麽知道情不夠深？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CPvzcoUgS
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“妳第壹次向我邀舞的時候，我還沒怎麽學過舞蹈課，搪塞妳說是身體不好不能跳。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqao18NOF6
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“那天回去我就開始學跳舞，學得很認真很認真，妳都不知道那些形體練習和基礎動作有多麽累人，我從早練到晚，壹天又壹天，就是希望妳再向我邀舞的時候，我可以大大方方地站起來和妳跳。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbRbOpaZLk
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“那晚舞會的前壹天，我連覺都沒睡好，做夢都是和妳壹起跳舞。舞會那天我什麽都聽不進去，害怕跳不好，緊張得不行。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKGIUP4FZS
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“那晚妳邀請木原跳開場舞的壹瞬，我的心被揪緊，壹下子疼得厲害，有壹瞬我都以為我要喘不上氣。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasUws49SDq
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“之後妳在摩天輪上向我告白了，我真是傻，深信不疑。那天我第壹次被人吻，還是我傾慕的人，開心得壹塌糊塗，也終於正視起對妳的心意。可從那晚起我就老是做噩夢，我止不住夢見妳，夢見妳發現我的身份，夢見妳瞧不起我看不起我，壹次又壹次從噩夢中驚醒，愧疚不已。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsndBJdMLG
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“父親安慰我說，妳們這些世家人物不會動心，只是在名利的基礎上談感情，說如果即使哲奈的死訊公布出去，妳也不會真正傷心，會吊個唁，然後娶別的大小姐，不會有什麽悲哀之情。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3BH7qbDdp
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“可我心裏總是不願意信，我覺得妳真心喜歡我或是哲奈，覺得我還是傷害到妳，仍舊噩夢做個不停，眼淚流個不停，為根本不需要擔心的事而擔心！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwAzuFYjHm
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“那晚在露臺我吻了妳，父親看見了，勸我別太深陷。他看我的目光妳不會知道，在擔心之外，我能瞅出壹絲絲不屑與鄙夷，可我已經深陷了，把他的話丟到了身後去！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWHLHDzuVA
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“妳送我禮物的那天，父親本來是不讓我出去見妳的，可我求他了，我只想見妳最後壹面，任憑他們拿那種沈默嚴肅的目光打量我，當時的我只要能再見妳壹面，別人怎麽想我我都無所謂的！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgpS42BPh3
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“妳送我禮物，妳吻了我，我還是第壹次在脖子上被人那樣吻，我全身發軟站不住，可我不想推開妳，我覺得只要是妳，被怎樣吻都可以！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaXvFju8T6
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“收到項鏈的那刻，我幸福得不行，回別墅那邊我只帶了它，我每天根本離不開那玩意！我從來沒有讓它離開我的身邊，因為那是妳送給我的東西！我寶貝得不行！可那也是個陷阱！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDNuM1N34e
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“剛回到別墅的那段時間，我頹廢得要死，整天魂不守舍，在網上發了瘋搜索妳的名字。妳參加各種大型活動的照片、妳參加比賽獲獎的照片、妳被學校女生偷拍後匿名放在放在網上的照片…壹遍又壹遍，不知疲倦。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIZwpqDUo6
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“妳說過妳喜歡古琴，我就天天練古琴，雖然那時以為不會有機會再見到妳，彈給妳聽，可我停不下來，腦海中出現的只有妳。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUFZcAmRk8
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“我做關於妳的夢，那天被妳在觀景臺親吻脖子的場景壹遍又壹遍出現在我的夢裏，有時全身發熱從夢裏醒來，可那時的我還不知道是怎麽回事，只是手足無措，感到迷惑不已。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T2c1vHYwG
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“當我在網上刷出哲奈去世的新聞後，終於肯面對現實了，以為我終於失掉了妳，痛苦得不行！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXzFMNhW6H
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“我努力地想去忘記妳，可我做不到，我還是老是想起妳，想起妳的壹切，妳怎麽那麽可惡，就那樣鋪滿在我的世界裏。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tzKIn9nHQ
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“最後妳抓到我了，瘋狂地擁抱我、占有我。妳告訴我真相的時候，妳不會知道我的心情。妳不會知道我那壹瞬有多痛苦，壹直相信的東西，原來就像壹個易碎的泡泡，壹下子就什麽都沒有了！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdoBDSVTHN
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“可在和妳壹起度過的這些時光裏，我偶爾也會疑惑，與其和妳再無任何交集，能這樣呆在妳身邊，即使不被真正愛著，只是作為壹個床伴來寵，是不是更好壹些？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjerxz52wm
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“可毋庸置疑的是，所謂初心什麽的早就沒有了。我曾經的愛，曾經以為得到的愛，都不是真的，都只是幻象罷了。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVsKjJ5fth
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“妳說我情不夠深，妳怎麽知道我情不夠深？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNdLpsVnce
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黑子壹開始說這些話的時候，情緒很激動，赤司聽著聽著發起抖來，想打斷他卻開不了口，最後只是安靜地聽著，壹直在那裏喃喃“對不起”。黑子說到後面，慢慢地平靜了下來，只是哀傷地說下去，最後輕輕地丟給赤司壹個質問。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6asloASXwi
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赤司坐在那裏沈默，這些話黑子從沒有向他說過，從沒有來求過他。他原先猜到黑子是喜歡他的，可他沒想到有這麽喜歡，他沒想到那男孩在他看不見的地方，因為喜歡他默默地努力過這麽多，也受過很多委屈。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyGfuqPFGw
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“黑子，我們還來得及…”赤司終於開口，哀求的語氣。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzALH2BN0P
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“不，來不及了，“黑子苦澀地笑笑，“我不願意了，我不願意再把自己的心去托付給什麽人了，我不願意再因為別人而難過發抖、開心喜悅了。為別人活太累了，我已經不想再這麽繼續下去了。我不想知道妳現在是不是喜歡我還是怎樣，這種患得患失、若即若離的狀態我已經受夠了。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8G2IElr2t
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黑子的目光認真了起來：“我想通了，我應該為自己而活，活得精彩壹點灑脫壹點，而不是活在誰的目光裏。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExoM0aXPZ4
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赤司盯著他，目光哀傷而深邃：“如果我說，我不允許妳離開呢？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe16FdAfxo
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“妳不會，妳不是那樣的人。”黑子淺淺地笑了，卻壹下子又認真嚴肅了起來，“況且，”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31ipXDDZtg
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“如果妳真的不允許我離開，那真正的我就已經死去了。想要活下去、想要改變的黑子就死了，剩下的就只有壹具行屍走肉，壹具不知道明天在哪裏的空殼而已。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg9Enjl6yc
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“所以，這是我第二次認真地求人，讓我離開吧，拜托妳！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5NPt1JBlD
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他只這樣子懇切地求過兩次人——壹次是求父親答應讓自己見這個人最後壹面，這次卻來求這個他當時想見的人，求他讓自己離去。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9hz7BndFb
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那樣懇切的姿態，那樣決絕的最後宣言，赤司終是點了頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHBPnTaEbd
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“但我有壹個條件。”他不容拒絕地開口。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCk7RF88B2
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“說來聽聽。”黑子抿了抿唇。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXx32ogXY2
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赤司站起了身，走了過來：“妳如果想要自由，我就給妳自由。妳想要獨立，我就讓妳獨立。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmia5axVRT
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“可妳只要答應我壹件事。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuu1AobIZ2
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“不要輕易地喜歡上別人，再給我壹個機會。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCdKPrHCeM
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“雖然我現在還沒有想好，還沒有想好要怎麽做，但我不打算就這麽把妳讓出去。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7KaJD0GCw
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“不要隨意地愛上別人，不要放棄我。”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dM5CmYKzF
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他壹邊說壹邊走近，最後把兩只胳膊搭在黑子的肩上，幾乎哀求的語氣：9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpvFVlrLew
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“妳都不知道，那天我看見妳和那個人聊得那麽開心，我有多難過多妒嫉，妳明明應該是我的！”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSM1ucjSRb
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“所以，答應我，再給我壹次機會，我就放妳離開，好嗎？”9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ClF1abVQl
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黑子又壹次沈溺在那赤司的眼眸裏，鄭重地看著他，點了點頭。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToKyIyUjH8
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旋即推開那人的臂膀，離開了這個房間，留下赤司壹個人，沈默地坐在這裏。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso0AWXI4YG
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兩人，即將分離…9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfEtRmRUok
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全文終9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUV47GL45J
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我還是決定把故事停在了這裏，若即若離的兩人，交錯的心意，互相的追逐與背離…9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZnKsbVca2
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感謝每壹位為我加油、鼓勵我、支持我的小夥伴，感謝妳們義無反顧地吃下我壹次次撒的刀片（不，我相信有很多人對於吃刀片這件事還是很怨念的2333）9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqfsmXDIvB
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想表達的感情就是這樣，黑子喜歡赤司，是因為那是第壹個帶給他“溫暖愛情”的人；9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHbDMHybRA
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而赤司喜歡哲也，是因為那是第壹個不是因為姓氏、而是為他自己本身而死心塌地的人；9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceZbxdeqSF
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黑子曾經是單純善意的、從不知曉人惡意的那面，總是拼命拿真心去回報所有對他好的人；9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiTgvvH93p
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而相比之下，赤司習慣拿懷疑的眼光去打量周圍，但本心裏厭棄欺騙與俗利，所以壹開始才會對“故意欺騙”自己的黑子家及黑子本人那麽瞧不起。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrETuPAFoX
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兩個人兜兜轉轉，總是不經意間，互相溫暖、互相傷害，但始終難以完全舍棄。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJaMJ3C4Jk
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也許他們最後在了壹起、幸福美滿，也許並沒有，終是沒有抵過世俗的束縛，分離了去…9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEztqe70tQK
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這只是壹場綺麗的夢境。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80i4FranpV
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謝謝妳看到這裏。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocHrmb3T8R
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了解我的人看到壹大片空白後也許直接會拉下來。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiijbWBausM
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妳猜的沒錯。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVqkLlZQSD
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哈哈哈哈哈逗妳們玩的，沒完結啦沒完結啦！之後的部分會好好更新。9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcDbgoUsAF
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真要停在這種地方估計我會被揍吧~9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtd85rEIVO
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可是現在快兩點了我就想逗逗妳們玩嘛~話說這壹章五千字欸五千字！快表揚我~（哄我高興了明天繼續 不 想想算了）9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5fL5xgf8U
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有夥伴問我後期有沒有刀片了~9Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HxGmqIQEI
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“老師，真的沒有了，妳要相信我！”我壹如既往地微笑著，在身後藏起了還沒來得及撒出去的最後幾（十）把刀子，誠懇地說道。ns216.73.216.125da2
