Maybe it was jealousy.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oDqug1osr
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4Cndbk637
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3reTfIE5yz
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1ifiKADFL
It wasn’t that.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRaJQndeW4
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrADMltddU
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToG534LVz9
Terrified, actually.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkPWxtBBJ6
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZhi1yXBsg
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavm2puUvox
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViemFMaeAr
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEJxTUw3Yy
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8usqQNf5F
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbWoFQ7Nh2
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGOBckedCN
Because love is blind,135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVX61omhbr
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChtKtkJKH0
Not love.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Mws6hhCrH
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLTYaxwXj6
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjHKrvZrP3
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZT1e6hAAO
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD7082yjEz
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ijIpPlLFU
not gripped tight.
You see,135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiO2739xj6
I wasn’t jealous.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdMnTeWDUH
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMuS49zJ2Y
The us we created in tiny moments —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3r8pL7QYb
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRZOSDN2tf
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi0dvHpZsj
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFIwKttfVd
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92KzVGv3lo
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2YjbLuGMR
Me. And you.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSveN32LWHk
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkizWNiAI2O
Letting go, not because someone better came along…135Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpkR1mHNnG
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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