Maybe it was jealousy.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBt8lK898f
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaDishR8Gq
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLSayqGgmS
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaAezowNbe
It wasn’t that.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFPSVvQqwv
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GHpYFYaeP
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKCtFdlvAs
Terrified, actually.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wlL3efcMi
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU9qmXSFcz
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuPLR7iJCb
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZbQ32Nmj9
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgutOKIZL3x
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2hdldKj7u
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpI9CIKkQH
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v66Q4a4R1
Because love is blind,45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSA4XXqBTx
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpvmpmm1u8
Not love.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWtMq55J5I
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWswWI9IbO
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPfxjcxzOq
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRug6CZlDzl
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuURw90EDAC
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iosCjfQUH
not gripped tight.
You see,45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCznwolzOha
I wasn’t jealous.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLEeC1TK58
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PPk5PFeDg
The us we created in tiny moments —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVxBdRKhFy
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GxiaAaeco
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqzGeWezmn
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszlgE6yZB5
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNVXMubiPC
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLSHH6NqdY
Me. And you.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5ZSwYgfFQ
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdvb2yzsBZ
Letting go, not because someone better came along…45Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZUKMKXxLs
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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